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"Jax," she coaxes, gently. "What’s going on?"
His scowl falls lopsided, buckling under the strain of her question. He lets out a frustrated growl, runs a hand down his face.
“...Nothing, Pomni. Forget it.”
“You can talk to me,” Pomni reminds him.
“There’s nothing to talk about.”
“Okay…” Pomni gives a hesitant nod, not wanting to feed any further into his instincts to dig his heels in and deny the obvious. “Then talk to me about nothing.”
In another life, Jax's final attempt to reach out to Pomni goes a little differently.
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- Part 2 of Insides and Insights (canon fix-it)
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23 Jun 2026
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Drowning by Fire by theaverageone
Fandoms: Avatar: The Last Airbender (Cartoon 2005), Avatar: The Last Airbender & Related Fandoms
26 Jun 2026
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Sokka ends up in a high security prison after being captured during a Fire Nation siege. Passing himself off as a bender to avoid a potentially worse fate, he catches the attention of a Fire Nation royal he wished to never see again. Dragged to the palace under the pretense of becoming a personal pleasure slave, he forms an unlikely truce with the one he had always wished to destroy. Will his reunion with the Prince serve as his demise? Or will he lead to Sokka's salvation?
*alternate timeline after the fall of Ba Sing Se where Aang doesn't recover and is left in a coma, extending the war by several years*
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22 Jun 2026
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I Used To Shine Bright Like Gold (Now I’m All Indigo) by Jeaneric
Fandoms: Voltron: Legendary Defender
12 Jun 2026
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What if Lance never made it to the Garrison? What if the crew found the Yellow Lion on Earth instead of Blue? What if The Galra had the Blue Lion
(Title from song: Indigo — Sam Barber, Avery Anna)
Going on a little Hiatus! I will hopefully be back soon, you can enjoy my other works if needed?
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13 Jun 2026
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Lance had taken to lugging the transmission camera with him wherever he walked in the lion. This time, he pointed the camera into Blue's interior panels, pointing out little modifications he had made over the past few months. All with Blue's consent, of course. Any moved plugs, wires he had stripped and reconnected, a modified panel insert.
"Just thought you guys should know how to work Blue when you find her again. In case I’m… not here.”
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The Galra were always coming up with new types of tech. The team did their best to adapt. But, when a new ship pops into existence in the middle of battle, everything goes wrong, and Lance disappears.
The team strains against the hole Lance left in Voltron. Lance, trapped in his lion on an unknown planet, tries his very best to stay sane.
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30 May 2026
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Si me muero, sea de amor (y si me enamoro, sea de vos) by taacenda
Fandoms: Voltron: Legendary Defender
27 Jun 2026
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"Y'know," Lance's voice was a soft, slurred murmur against the pillow, so close it vibrated through Keith's own skull. "I'm glad... I'm glad it was you that stayed."
Keith's breath hitched, his lungs seizing in his chest. Don't say it, he chanted silently, a desperate prayer to any deity that might be listening. But Lance, in his current state, had no access to Keith's internal monologue. "Even with all the... the bickering. And the fighting."
A small, breathy giggle escaped him at his own muddled phrasing. "I'm... I'm really glad I met you. We make a good team, don't we?"
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A diplomatic mission to Ryxara was supposed to be simple—formal talks, polite smiles, a few days of uneasy peace.
But something in the palace is wrong.Or at least, Keith thinks it is.
It’s hard to tell where genuine danger ends and his own jealousy begins, especially when Lance has always been good at drawing attention without even trying.
He’s not sure if he’s seeing patterns where none exist—if it’s paranoia, jealousy, or instinct screaming too loudly to ignore.But when Lance falls violently ill after the masquerade ball, Keith is forced to consider a possibility far worse than being wrong.
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30 May 2026
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It was really just his luck that a hulking monster lumbered out of the woods and directly onto his driveway. Just his luck that he threw enough parties when his parents were gone that the neighbors had long tuned out any noise that came from his yard. Just a nice cherry on top of the fucking cake that, even if anyone did hear him screaming when claws tangled in his jacket and pulled, Steve honestly wasn’t sure they’d have cared enough to bother anyway.
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Months before El ripped open the gate at Hawkins Lab, the Demogorgon started ripping tears of its own. Months before it found Will Byers, it found Steve Harrington.
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- Part 1 of Nowhere to look but inside
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15 May 2026
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it burned while i cried 'cause i heard it screamin' out your name by heliadae
Fandoms: Avatar: The Last Airbender (Cartoon 2005), The Legend of Aang: The Last Airbender (Movie 2026)
25 Apr 2026
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He smiled because his face knew how.
“I’m fine.”
Far away, bruised and half-frozen on a Fire Nation ship, Zuko folded over with a sound he could not swallow.
The words appeared over his heart.
Not near it.
Over it.
I’m fine.
They burned like lightning.
Zuko pressed his palm to them and stared down, breathing hard.
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30 Apr 2026
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kiss me like a final meal by blueberrryink
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
23 Jan 2026
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Everybody else on earth was born with a manual on How to Be. A sort of silver spoon already tucked into their mouth.
Shane wishes he had gotten one.
After an exhausting day of masking and overstimulation, Shane has a panic attack. He loses the ability to speak. Thankfully, Ilya is there to help him through.
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14 Apr 2026
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something steady by sweetilyas (sweetjeons)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Jan 2026
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the five times their teammate saw shane and ilya’s love in all its quiet, domestic perfection and the one time someone tried to come between them.
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- Part 1 of signs of us
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11 Apr 2026
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Shane doesn't fall apart loudly. He spirals, shuts down, missteps. Ilya pays attention. He stays. He helps Shane learn what it feels like to be noticed without being corrected.
or, 5 times Shane needs help regulating his autism, and Ilya is there for him + 1 time Shane is there for Ilya.
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24 Mar 2026
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enforcer by moonlitgarden
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
23 Dec 2025
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Ilya knows there is a thing about himself he has to always keep hidden in the deepest recesses of his body, behind his molars and in his core. He thinks Shane Hollander might be the same, except the thing about him he cannot hide.
Ilya Rozanov is the biggest hockey talent of his generation. So is Shane Hollander.
But over the years Ilya notices that the vicious media and the clamouring fans and some of his more foul-mouthed teammates treat Hollander differently than any other hockey player.
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17 Mar 2026
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They’d considered it—Shane being gay. It’d been an option. But Ilya Rozanov and the way Shane looks at him like he’s the love of his life has blindsided them. Blindsided both of them, and there’s almost nothing Yuna likes less than being blindsided.
She’s not mad, David wants to say. We’re so proud of you. We’re so happy for you. We just didn’t know.
Somehow we missed it, you falling in love.
or, what David Hollander and Ilya Rozanov talk about while Shane and Yuna are outside in episode six.
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- Part 2 of my heated rivalry anon fics
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11 Mar 2026
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Small Serendipity by the_hemlocked
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
06 Feb 2026
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When he was seven years old, Shane Hollander was briefly lost at an airport. Luckily, the kindness of a stranger ensured he made it back to his parents safely, putting an end to a terrifying three hours for the Hollanders. It takes twenty years (and one heated rivalry) for Shane to learn the name of his rescuer. It takes twenty years for Ilya to learn his wish had already come true.
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09 Mar 2026
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07 Feb 2026
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“I can bring her in, yes. As many times as necessary. I am very responsible.”
Shane gives him an odd look and double-checks his chart. “I will hold you to that, Mr Rozanov. It’s a commitment. She’ll be a handful.”
Ilya doesn’t flinch. “I have hands.”
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Shane thinks one of his clients is just very committed, and slightly hypochondriac, about the care of his dog. Ilya is running out of excuses to see the hot vet.Series
- Part 6 of hollanov aus
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21 Jan 2026
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"It just works better like that. Taking his mind off of the logistics and the meaning of it all and the implications lets him put that focus to better work on the actual thing he cares about: hockey. It really isn’t that different from outsourcing his branding to Mom, or any less embarrassing than his dietician meal prepping for him or his trainer mapping out his workout plan. They’re experts in their field, nutrition and marketing and fucking. Shane is an expert in his: taking all that into his body and using it to be fucking awesome at hockey. It’s win, win, win.
Meals get delivered at his door. Room numbers and plans get texted to him. And appointments with photographers get emailed with subject lines reminding him to remember to use the good shampoo in his hair before them.
He’s still in control in the sense he’s letting it all happen for him, except that sometimes, especially at these stupid fucking photoshoots, it feels a little bit like it’s happening to him, instead."
Shane gets into a bad situation with a photographer who has pictures Shane would rather not get out. Ilya and Rose find out about it, eventually.
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21 Jan 2026
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Sun in an empty room by theaa
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
18 Jan 2026
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Shane wanted to hold Ilya’s hand. He wanted to touch something that wasn’t the edge of the exam table, which he currently had in a white-knuckled grip, fingers curled around the edge. Ilya was worried, and Shane had made a mistake in banishing him, and he felt bad about that, and about the oddly sympathetic way the doctor was looking at him. Shane had never felt comfortable being pitied.
“My knee’s fucked,” Shane continued, a little more flatly; under control. It’s what he’d suspected deep down, after all. “And so I can’t play hockey. I’m done.”
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19 Jan 2026
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you are the one mouth i would be a tongue to. by hcneymooners (romqntics)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Jan 2026
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Ilya's hand continues its path up and down Shane's back, and Shane thinks again about how love is sometimes just this: a palm on the spine, moving in circles, waiting for you to come back to yourself. There is no promise of saving you—Ilya cannot save him, they both know this and are alright with it in their own ways—but there is a vow of staying, lingering in order to witness. Touching the bruise so that its pain triggers the memory that you are allowed to be touched.
Outside, the snow continues its work of erasure. Inside, Shane's breathing begins to even out, every limb recalling how to be a man at rest rather than an animal fawning and freezing. The trembling subsides, wave by wave, as if Ilya's hand is smoothing it out of him.
"Sleep, зайчик," Ilya says softly, his free hand coming to rest in Shane's hair. "I have you."
This is not true, Shane thinks, and it is also the only true thing.
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recovery, shane learns, is not a straight line. to begin to understand something, you must first name it.
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19 Jan 2026
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Eddie freezes, terrified that moving even an inch will break the spell. His arm stays where it is, draped across the couch, but he angles it just enough that it curves protectively around Steve’s shoulders. Not touching, not really.
And Eddie… God. Eddie’s done for. He can’t imagine a life without this guy anymore.
When did that happen? When did it change? When did Steve fucking Harrington go from the rich kid with perfect hair and too many friends to… this? To someone Eddie would fight monsters for. Someone he’d sit awake for, just to make sure he’s breathing okay. Someone who falls asleep against Eddie like Eddie is someone solid, someone safe.
It’s insane. It’s absolutely deranged. If his high school self could see this — Steve Harrington wrapped around him like some big, warm golden retriever of a hero — Eddie would’ve laughed in disbelief. Or passed out. Or both.
But reality is right here, breathing against his collarbone. Steve asleep beside him, trusting Eddie to watch over him. To stay.
Or: 5 times Steve falls asleep on Eddie and 1 time Eddie returns the favor.
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18 Jan 2026
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"Home, Aonung," Neteyam says, looking up into the thousand colours burnishing across the sky, roses and lilacs and seawater blue swirling around navy like he's never seen before, all of it reflected back in his eyes.
The boy offers him a hand and a bright smile. "Won't you take my hand?"
Aonung brings a boy home.
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14 Jan 2026