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Because Mankira isn't nothing, she's not a weapon. She's history, she's survival, she's a soul. The piece of his soul that, through everything, through the gap people failed to bridge, got sharpened instead of shaved.
Zanka talks to her like she's precious, like she's worth that shred of gentleness. And it…it feels a little like Zanka is talking to Jabber himself.
Jabber doesn't know how to act.
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Zanka incorporates Mankira into his morning routine. Jabber copes with the mortifying ordeal of being known.To be loved is to be seen.
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- Part 20 of Janka Fics
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Bookmarked by Awkward_Axolotls
02 Jun 2026
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Miss her, kiss her, love her by blueshyguy5
Fandoms: 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Anime)
22 Nov 2025
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A very pregnant Maomao is struggling with issues related to people helping her.
Jinshi puts those thoughts to rest.
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29 May 2026
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Centella by blueberriescone
Fandoms: 薬屋のひとりごと - 日向夏 | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries - Hyuuga Natsu, 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Anime), 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Manga)
02 Jan 2026
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Even apothecaries have their proclivities to certain bad habits.
Or: Maomao experiments with medicine on herself as a form of self-harm, and Jinshi puts a stop to it.
*Set after LN 4 and season 2 of the anime, and written with knowledge up to LN 6.
Bookmarked by Awkward_Axolotls
28 May 2026
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small in your hold by treescape for Eicas
Fandoms: 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Anime), 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Manga), 薬屋のひとりごと - 日向夏 | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries - Hyuuga Natsu
30 Jul 2025
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There was a long, endless minute during the second course in which Maomao froze where she stood behind Gyokuyou, a look of concentration on her face that quickly morphed into rapture. Jinshi felt his blood run cold.
He had long yearned to see such a look on her face. With a bitter twist in his stomach, more biting than any poison, he thought: I didn't mean like this.
Or, after Maomao is poisoned, Jinshi faces some difficult truths.
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- Part 4 of Battleship 2025
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Bookmarked by Awkward_Axolotls
28 May 2026
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Moonflower effects by orphan_account
Fandoms: 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Manga), 薬屋のひとりごと - 日向夏 | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries - Hyuuga Natsu, 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Anime)
14 May 2024
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Maomao sneaks out at night to find herbs, along the way she finds moonflowers.
moonflowers are known to have medicinal properties, but if too much was consumed, it also has effects such as hallucinations and anxiety, but surely Maomao was capable of tolerating the effects.
right?Bookmarked by Awkward_Axolotls
28 May 2026
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A Very Merry Yuletide by LynkConnect
Fandoms: 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Manga), 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Anime), 薬屋のひとりごと - 日向夏 | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries - Hyuuga Natsu
18 Apr 2025
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She reaches into the fold of her sleeve and presses her fingers to the small vial hidden there—her own blend, dried mugwort and yarrow, something Luomen had once sworn warded off grief. “Placebo,” she’d told him. “Powerful things,” he’d replied, with that wheezing smile.
She closes her hand around it.
Then she walks, one foot in front of the other, away from the only place in the world that had ever smelled like safety.
She does not look back.
There is no point.
The wood is rotting. The roof leaks. And the apothecary—without Luomen—smells like mold and loose ends.
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- Part 1 of The Calendar of Quiet Things
Bookmarked by Awkward_Axolotls
28 May 2026
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A Toxin Most Potent by Your_Local_Aroace_Romance_Writer (ClickTypo)
Fandoms: 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Anime), 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Manga), 薬屋のひとりごと - 日向夏 | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries - Hyuuga Natsu
11 Jul 2025
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Symptoms: cough, tightness in chest, shortness of breath
Treatment: a walk, more tea (green)
Notes: took a walk to the herb patch, went to look into clearing some wolfsbane from the forest.
Treatment unsuccessful.OR
Jinmao Hanahaki, except Maomao makes her life worse because she doesn't believe Jinshi loves her.
Bookmarked by Awkward_Axolotls
28 May 2026
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a touch of warmth by treescape for yesthisisnarumi
Fandoms: 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Manga), 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Anime), 薬屋のひとりごと - 日向夏 | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries - Hyuuga Natsu
26 Feb 2025
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Jinshi is just starting to droop over his desk like one of Maomao’s herbs left too long in the sun when something cold presses firmly against his forehead. He glances up from the petition at his fingertips to see a frown on Maomao’s face and something glinting sharply in her eyes.
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Bookmarked by Awkward_Axolotls
28 May 2026
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In the Quiet After Birth by ElenaChatNoir
Fandoms: 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Manga), 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Anime), 薬屋のひとりごと - 日向夏 | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries - Hyuuga Natsu
11 Jun 2025
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Maomao didn't feel a pang of heartache when she heard him crying at night, looking for his mother. She did not feel the intense, overwhelming, selfless love every mother should feel for her son, as everyone told her she would.
Bookmarked by Awkward_Axolotls
28 May 2026
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of your fears and your ghosts by Ladykyriaa
Fandoms: 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Manga), 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Anime), 薬屋のひとりごと - 日向夏 | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries - Hyuuga Natsu
05 Apr 2025
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That dream.
Maomao knew what it was, who the players were. She had been entirely familiar with it, had even lived through it. What changed was the sequence after that.
Bookmarked by Awkward_Axolotls
28 May 2026
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(wish somebody would) tell me I'm fine by Anonymous
Fandoms: 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Anime), 薬屋のひとりごと - 日向夏 | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries - Hyuuga Natsu
13 Nov 2025
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Her vision of the gardens blurs and sways momentarily as her foot catches on something. Before she can trip forward, Lahan sits her down on a bench.
“Did you eat buckwheat?” He asks sternly.
Maomao doesn’t remember ever telling Lahan about her sensitivity to buckwheat nor ever mentioning it in his presence. His extensive knowledge of her can only thus be the result of his freak tendencies, or worse—that monocled weirdo’s.
Yet in that fleeting second, with her burning throat and her trembling hands, annoyance doesn’t come to her.
“I don’t– I don’t know,” she says, breathless.
“How can you not know what you put in your own mouth?!”
There it is. The everlasting exasperation she feels thrumming through her veins whenever her abacus-face of a cousin finds himself in her immediate vicinity. She goes to hit his shin but loses her balance as a new coughing fit racks her body.
Or: Maomao accidentally ingests buckwheat, and it's not even an assassination attempt. Rude.
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- Part 2 of Kusuriya no Hitorigoto
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Bookmarked by Awkward_Axolotls
28 May 2026
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Subtle Poison by elusiverose
Fandoms: 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Anime)
27 Nov 2024
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With Maomao’s leg injury still in the process of healing, Jinshi insists for her to take a day off despite her stubbornness.
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28 May 2026
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Yearning by Chiharei
Fandoms: 薬屋のひとりごと - 日向夏 | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries - Hyuuga Natsu, 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Manga), 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Anime)
08 May 2025
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It was a tough day for Maomao during her first pregnancy. Jinshi was away, but what would he do when he returned?
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- Part 1 of A Family Life
Bookmarked by Awkward_Axolotls
28 May 2026
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Where nightmares end by Mivalyn
Fandoms: 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Anime), 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Manga)
23 Apr 2025
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In the suffocating darkness before dawn, Maomao is overwhelmed by a terror she can't escape. Jinshi finds her trembling and lost. He becomes her anchor, offering quiet strength and gentle care, guarding her until the first light brings a fragile peace.
Bookmarked by Awkward_Axolotls
28 May 2026
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Not a Cure, Not a Poison by KarlyHill
Fandoms: 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Manga), 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Anime)
24 May 2025
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Maomao didn’t mean for him to read the notebook. She was just tracking symptoms, bad medicine, and one particularly persistent court official. But when she collapses, Jinshi finds the pages, and keeps finding her between the sarcasm and side notes.
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- Part 1 of Fever Dreams
Bookmarked by Awkward_Axolotls
28 May 2026
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In Gratitude by whitebeltwriter
Fandoms: 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Anime), 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Manga), 薬屋のひとりごと - 日向夏 | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries - Hyuuga Natsu
06 May 2025
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Another day, another tea time where Lady Gyokuyou and Master Jinshi were playing the "return/borrow" game over Maomao like she was a merely a tool being loaned between houses.
Normally she would simply let their words wash over her.
Normally she could handle it.
But today was not normal, and everyone, everyone, had a limit.
And as the conversation hit the fifteen minute mark, Maomao hit hers.
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AKA Maomao snaps at two nobles and fears for whatever punishment it might bring.
Meanwhile Lady Gyokuyou is upset for a different reason.Bookmarked by Awkward_Axolotls
28 May 2026
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a few bad habits by treescape for elo_quentalias
Fandoms: 薬屋のひとりごと - 日向夏 | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries - Hyuuga Natsu, 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Manga), 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Anime)
29 Nov 2024
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“You’re enjoying this, aren’t you?” Jinshi accused her. His voice sounded more resigned than anything — like that of someone who knew he had no real chance of pulling her attention away.
He was, of course, correct.
“I don’t know what you mean sir,” Maomao replied distractedly and without really having heard him as she surveyed the herbs spread out before her.
Or, Maomao and Jinshi are stranded. Maomao is having the time of her life.
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Bookmarked by Awkward_Axolotls
28 May 2026
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Hold Me, Console Me by blacktoffee
Fandoms: 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Manga), 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Anime), 薬屋のひとりごと - 日向夏 | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries - Hyuuga Natsu
15 Apr 2025
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Jinshi has a nightmare about Maomao's rescue mission at the altar going horrifically wrong and wakes up without her by his side, causing him to spiral.
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Jinshi wakes up without Maomao and freaks out
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Extremely self-indulgent JinMao hurt/comfort ft. Maomao comforting Jinshi cause if you can't find something then write it yourself!!
Bookmarked by Awkward_Axolotls
28 May 2026
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Hold Your (Tongue/Breath) by LynkConnect
Fandoms: 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Manga), 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Anime), 薬屋のひとりごと - 日向夏 | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries - Hyuuga Natsu
20 Apr 2025
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She set the cup beside him. “You know,” she said lightly, though the words felt heavier than they should, “some people consider silence a relief. Peaceful. Blessed.”
He tilted his head, a glimmer of curiosity in his eyes.
Maomao couldn’t suppress the hint of a smile. “Not me. I don’t like not knowing what you’re plotting.”
His lips quirked upward, the movement slow and deliberate. He pointed at the tea, then at her, then mimed a swirl in the air.
“Ah, yes,” she interpreted. “I poisoned you. Wouldn’t be poetic justice if I didn’t.”
He rolled his eyes, mouthing, 'Brat'.
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Bookmarked by Awkward_Axolotls
28 May 2026
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erudite by PenAndInkPrincess
Fandoms: 薬屋のひとりごと | Kusuriya no Hitorigoto | The Apothecary Diaries (Anime)
23 Dec 2025
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“Maomao?” He presses, fingers closing over hers and lowering their joined hands to her lap, and she blinks in surprise at the use of her name. “What is it? What’s wrong?”
“Their technique is sloppy,” she answers honestly. “I feel strain on my heart. They should have targeted the nervous system instead.”
Master Jinshi stares at her like she’s spoken a foreign language he can’t even begin to try and understand. She tries to explain.
“Certain snake venoms cause coagulation of the blood, which could have been effective and made the blood unable to move through my veins, but if the end result is simply making my heart stop beating by targeting the muscles involv-”
“Maomao,” Master Jinshi says, very calmly, “I need you to stop speaking now.”
(an assassin tries to kill jinshi with a poisoned blade that gets maomao instead) (she is obviously much less concerned about this than everyone else)
Bookmarked by Awkward_Axolotls
28 May 2026