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    The room tilted slightly, and Shane’s throat was raw.

    He swayed there a moment, scanning the spinning room for somewhere to steady himself – for Haas or Dykstra. Ilya had been right; he should have slowed down, stayed with his teammates. He hadn't listened, and now he was alone, 2 Moscow Mules and 3 shots deep, stuck at the bar and lost in a sea of people.

    Shane just wanted his husband. The alcohol hadn't yet done anything to alleviate the effects of the music and lights that encircled him. He felt trapped – suffocated – like his skin was fusing itself to his stiff muscles. The room spun faster, and the Canadian wasn't convinced he was standing upright anymore. His heart pounded in his ears as the music rattled his ribcage once more, an insatiable itch beckoning his blunt fingernails.

    He wanted to scream. He wanted to rip his hair out. He wanted to tear his clothes off.

    He wanted Ilya.

    “Selfish,” he muttered under his breath, tongue heavy as it touched his teeth.

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    15 Jul 2026

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    “Did you think that was something that happens to everyone who fucks women?” Ilya asks, bewildered.

    “No,” Shane says again. “I… didn’t think it was that uncommon, I guess? Or that it makes you a complete idiot?”

    “Not uncommon? Who do you know that was getting women pregnant on accident?” Ilya questions. “Guys on Montreal? You know they are stupid. Oh my god, Pike,” Ilya laughs. “As much as I joked, I thought they were doing it on purpose! Or maybe most on purpose, just not first, or—”

    "Ilya, oh my god, Hayden didn’t have any kids by accident!” Shane groans, burying his face in his hands. “He wasn’t being irresponsible. He’s more responsible than me, I guess.”

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    Ilya learns that Shane got a girlfriend pregnant once. Which makes no fucking sense. Right?

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    14 Jul 2026

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    Tony had been relaxing when Peter rushed in to tell him possibly the one thing he would have never expected to hear from the kid.

    Aka, I got my period, so I've decided to take it out on Peter by not giving him his.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    Cardiac tamponade: pressure on that heart that prevents it from filling and beating adequately.

    Shane thought he knew two things: his move to Ottawa would cause chaos, and that the Ottawa Centaurs were nice.

    As it turned out, he only knew one of those things.

    (Or: the Cens are still a team of professional hockey players. They're going to fuck up.)

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    10 Jun 2026

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    Shane doesn’t realize he’s braced for silent eyes until he feels the absence of it — the weight of teammates immediately finding him and going quiet, waiting for him to fuck up, to say the wrong thing, to exist wrong. He expects the chatter of a room to drop when he enters and its disconcerting to find it doesn't yet in Ottawa.

    He stands at the entrance a beat too long.

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    It’s the start of Shane Hollander’s first season in Ottawa and he should be settled. The Centaurs are friendly, the room is easy, and Ilya is finally close enough to touch. But, as Shane is intimately aware of, old habits learned the hard way will linger.

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    30 May 2026