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   i won't break your heart if you can break my spell by red-string-of-phate (milo_greyby)

   Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)  

   • Explicit
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   30 Mar 2026

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Dan Howell/Phil Lester
   • Dan Howell
   • Phil Lester
   • 2009 Era Phandom
   • Fluff
   • Angst
   • Self-Hatred
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • Mutual Pining
   • Self-Harm
   • (Not cutting)
   • Phil Lester Is A Sweetheart
   • First Meetings
   • Falling In Love
   • First Kiss
   • Getting Together
   • Friends to Lovers
   • Biting
   • there's like .... a lot of biting in this
   • Smut
   • Angst and Fluff and Smut
   • Sexual Content
   • Eventual Smut
   • Blow Jobs
   • Service Top Dan Howell
   • Power Bottom Phil Lester
   • Dan howell's oral fixation
   • Phil is not on fire 1 (Phandom)
   • Anal Sex
   • First Time
   • First Time Topping
   • jealous dan makes a cameo
   • Daniel Howell: We're All Doomed! Tour 2022
   • 2022 Era (Phandom)
   • time skip
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort

   Summary

   October, 2009: Dan is meeting Phil for the first time tomorrow. He just has to get through this night.

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   “The precious desire burning deep in Dan's gut is intoxicating and he should be so much more scared than he is. He’s still plenty terrified, but maybe just this once he can allow his heart to want this. He’ll pick up the shattered pieces later.”

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   formidable: (adj.) causing you to have fear or respect for something or someone because that thing or person is large, powerful, or difficult

   (title and inspiration from Formidable by twenty one pilots)

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   Bookmarked by radical_turtle

   08 Apr 2026