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    “Hollander?!” Rozanov exclaims, carefully dropping him back down.

    Shane doubles over, gasping and wheezing, hands clutching his ribs for dear life.

    “You’re fucking hurt,” Rozanov realizes, wide-eyed.

     

    (or, shane hides an injury in an attempt not to ruin his hookup with ilya)

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    16 Jun 2026

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    A memory springs to mind: two weeks ago, drunk on Hayden's couch, curled up with Jackie. His voice, soft and quiet, heartbroken with desire, wavering through words about the impossibility of wanting. About the greed that rises in him. About how he clings so badly when he's around Rozanov that all of his common sense falls to the wayside.

    Jackie's voice, rising through the dim gray, as Hayden had snored next to them. All it takes is one of you to make a move, she'd said, their hands laced together, her head on his shoulder. Something's gotta give eventually.

    “I—” Shane starts, before pausing. He thinks he's going to throw up. He thinks that they got it right all those years ago, with it's the hope that kills you. He thinks he has to be brave enough for the both of them, to actually ask, and he's so fucking scared, but he can't let Rozanov's quiet offer of something go unanswered—he'll regret it for the rest of his life if he doesn't take a chance. “Ilya.”

    OR: Shane wants, despite how badly he pretends otherwise.

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    30 Jan 2026

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    "Put your dick away and go to bed, Hollander," Rozanov said, his eyes wide open but still unable to make the other boy out. He imagined the look of panic on his face, the way his hands would be fumbling to pull his shorts up.

    "I seriously thought you were asleep. Fuck, I'm sorry, Rozanov."

    Forced to attend a hockey boarding school in Canada by his father, Rozanov was under the impression it would be filled with studying and practising his English.

    Never did he think it would be spent listening to Shane Hollander jerk off.

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    13 Jan 2026

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    Maybe if the video ended there, Shane thought, it would be okay. Okayish. Still incriminating. Still a fucking disaster. Still embarrassing, to have his breakup with this beautiful actress filmed and disseminated on Reddit of all fucking places, but not a nail in his coffin, burying him alive. But the video didn’t end there.

    “Can I ask if you’ve ever been with another guy?” she had to ask.

    And he, tears visible in his eyes, had to nod.

    Just once. Just a single nod.

    Why did he have to nod?

    “Have you ever told anyone that before?” He shook his head. “Was it different? With a guy?”

    “Of course.”

    Of course.

    “Was it better?”

    “Yes.”

    +++

    Shane’s conversation with Rose is secretly recorded. Months later, after the All-Star game and Ilya’s confession in Russian, the video gets leaked online. Shane is outed to the world while Ilya is in Russia, and must now finish the 2016-2017 season with the entire world in on his secret.

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    29 Dec 2025

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    The one where Ilya is Shane's TA for Intro to Russian Literature and Shane is still a hockey boy.

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    25 Dec 2025