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    In 2016, Shane walks out of Ilya’s house, ending their years-long situationship.
    In 2024, Ilya watches ESPN as hockey legend and 5-time Stanley Cup winner Shane Hollander comes out and retires.
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    It has been sixteen years since they met as teenagers in that cold, grey parking lot. It has been eight years since they last kissed. It has been four years since his phone last buzzed with a message notification from Jane.

    Ilya is 33 years old, he has only been in love once, with the man who is currently on his television screen, and he still has no idea how to be fucking normal when it comes to Shane Hollander.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    Shane is in the hospital with an injury and Ilya secretly visits but Hayden is still in the room when Ilya arrives. Shane is just so excited to see Ilya, and who is Ilya to deny him, so now they’ve come out to Hayden while Shane is still high off his ass and the whole process repeats when Shane’s parents walk in.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    Ilya does not have time for this. It’s almost incredible, and frankly humiliating, how fast his anger has been extinguished by burning worry. Shane’s right, he should be furious. But that’s not Ilya’s priority, now. ‘’Hollander, are you listening, yes?’’, Ilya insists. He confusedly stares at his reflection on the window. When did he even got up from the couch? ‘’Where are you?’’, he repeats, stressing on every word with a careful pause.

    Shane seems intentioned to ignore Ilya’s bleeding questions like’s a sacred mission. Just to make his heart dry out from paranoia, probably. The silence is broken by a sniff, followed by a gulp. Shane sounds now far from the phone: 

    ‘’Rose. Rose, he’s mad’’, he moans in a strangled whisper. 

    Ilya’s body freezes. 

     

    Or, Shane and Rose break up, and they’re up to celebrations. Rose decides it’s time for Shane to distract himself for a night. It absolutely doesn’t go as planned.

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    05 Jun 2026

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    January 15, 2017
    For immediate release.
    (English version)

    The Montréal Metros are devastated to announce the unexpected and tragic passing of our beloved captain, Shane Hollander, at the age of 25.

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    or, a canon-divergent au in which shane and rose never met, in epistolary format.

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    30 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    i sobbed so hard but this was so beautiful

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    He’s standing across from Ilya in his kitchen. Their feet are almost touching, Ilya’s in black socks that Shane also has multiple pairs of, Shane’s in his favourite soft striped ones. The rain is getting louder outside, moving from a drizzle to a downpour. And Ilya is looking at him like he loves him.

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    26 May 2026

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    “Why are you so sure he’ll reject you? He was already fucking in love with you, Roz, literally all of us knew it, it was clear just from how he looked at his fucking phone—”

    “That was— That was a fucking miracle, Pike. Miracles don’t happen twice.”

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    shane doesn't remember his relationship with ilya after the hit. ilya was going to break up with him anyway.

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    24 May 2026

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    He’s already in the room, shutting the door behind himself as quietly as he can before he realises that not only is there someone other than Shane in the room, but there are three someones other than Shane.

    And, as if he hasn’t already fucked up spectacularly, the someones happen to be the Hollanders and Hayden fucking Pike.

     

    // or; Ilya visits Shane in the hospital and meets his parents. He's traumatized and grieving, everything hurts, and Shane takes after his mother.

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    22 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    ilya getting a family is so important to me

  8. Rec *

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    Shane's heart learned Ilya's name and forgot how to beat for anything else.

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    19 May 2026

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    Shane is drunk, concussed, and hiding in a phone booth when he calls the only number he knows by heart.

    The man who answers is not Hayden Pike.

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    18 May 2026

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    Ilya followed. Of course he followed. He'd been following Shane Hollander for years. Across rinks, across borders, across every line he'd ever drawn for himself. And he wasn't going to stop now because of an elevator and a silence and two words he wished he could swallow back down.

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    16 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    i- perfect no notes

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    Ilya looks over from the sofa as Jackie heads into the living room, perking up in interest. “You are calling Pike? Was good play today. You remembered how to score! Well done.”

    Hayden groans. "Rozanov? Dude, what are you doing in my fucking house?

    "It is girls' night," Ilya informs him primly. "I am one of girls."

    Or: Game day at the Pike house.

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    15 May 2026

  12. Public Bookmark *

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    The Hollander family gets caught in a severe storm while trying to reach the Boston Airport and tries to find a safe place.

    Or,

    Shane comes up with the idea of taking shelter at Ilya’s house.

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    14 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    this was so perfect

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    Shane Hollander may be hockey’s golden boy, but even he isn’t immune to the flu or even the fever dreams that come with it. Fortunately, his husband, Ilya Rozanov, knows exactly how to take care of him.

    And somewhere between whispered reassurances and the quiet ache of caring for his husband, Ilya also realized that he was living the dream he once thought he’d never get to have.

    OR: domestic Hollanov, where Shane catches the flu, spirals through fever-induced nightmares, and Ilya takes care of him in more ways than one.

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    12 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    omggg they are just so perfect for each other

  14. Rec 86

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    "It had been Shane who had suggested the weekend at the cottage. Ilya was in Montreal for a game, and they both had the first December weekend off. Ilya could always fly back to Boston from Ottawa on Sunday night - a tight schedule, but it would be worth the exhaustion. 
    Ilya had missed Shane. Had missed him enough to easily accept the idea of a weekend at the cottage.  It would offer a welcome reprieve from the world, that felt entirely too loud and overwhelming lately. He couldn’t even exactly pinpoint what it was that made everything just a little too much."

    The weight of everything, past and present, is catching up on Ilya. He tries to push it down until Shane recognises a voice that is not Ilya's and realises why Ilya has been denying himself the comfort of being taken care of, and the ability to be himself. Shane sets out to change that, one soft-spoken reassurance and offer at a time, until Ilya is finally able to let go.

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    10 May 2026

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    Shane releases what feels like his first exhale in forever—Ilya Rozanov, taken out by the common flu. Not ignoring him. Not ending anything. Still, the knot in his chest doesn’t ease completely with the vision of Ilya unwell and alone in Shane’s head.

    JANE

    Are you at your house?

    LILY

    Where else, Jane?

    JANE

    Don’t fall asleep. I’ll be there soon. 

    LILY

    No, am sick. I told you. 

    JANE

    I heard you. I’ll be there soon.

    Or, Ilya’s sick and Shane wants, and wants, and wants. 

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    03 May 2026

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    Shane meets Ilya in Tampa for closure – he knows he’s gay now, and also knows he wants something serious, committed, reliable. He’s ready to end things neatly and conclusively. Ilya is going to have to accept that.

    ... Ilya takes this about as well as you would expect.

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    02 May 2026

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    “Expecting company?” the person calls.

    There’s no way.

    He knows that voice—has heard it in his bed, and on the ice, and in his dreams—but he hasn’t heard it this closely and alone in years.

    For a split second, he thinks no one will be there. That Svetlana was right, and becoming a recluse was making him crazy.

    When Ilya finally does turn around, Shane Hollander is standing there, looking at him warily.

    “Ilya?”

    The ghost is back, only he speaks, and he’s not really a ghost at all.

    Or, Shane and Ilya never speak again after the tuna melt debacle and Shane marries Rose. Seven years later, news hits that they are getting a divorce. Somehow, Shane shows up on the doorstep of Ilya's remote cottage, with only a duffel bag and a small hope. For Ilya, time has changed both nothing and everything.

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    02 May 2026

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    Shane's eyes squeeze closed again. “We had reason to put rules in place. Protocol. If ever—if it got to a place where, if he was ever feeling like he might—"

    Hayden’s body understands before his mind catches up. His blood runs cold for a second, stuck on the scrunch of Shane’s face, the clench of his fist, how desperate he’d been to see Rozanov—Ilya—just now. To make sure that he was okay. Here, in person.

    Not hurt. Alive.

    “Oh,” Hayden hears himself say distantly. “Oh, fuck, Shane.”

    --

    or, Ilya needs a place to go, and Hayden's happens to be the closest. It turns out to be a good thing.

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    01 May 2026

  19. Rec 1149

    Mystery Work

    Part of Thanks For Supporting <3
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    28 Apr 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    this hurt but so good

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    “Got someone special waiting for you?”

    Shane’s breath hitches and he looks up, big, brown orbs settling on the person behind the camera. There’s a blush crawling across his freckles, his voice unsteady as he answers.

    “I wanted to celebrate with Lily, but she isn’t here.”

    The video ends shortly after, and the internet collectively loses its mind. Within minutes #FindLily is trending across all social media platforms, women from across the globe begging Shane to dump her ass.

    OR on the night that Shane wins the cup for a second year in a row, the internet learns of Lily and goes absolutely nuts.
    Inevitably, so does Ilya Rozanov.

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    152,157

    15 Apr 2026

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