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    Rose volunteers for a nonprofit that rescues sex-trafficked omegas, and Shane thinks it's a great cause. He even attends their fundraising galas.

    Then, one night, Rose calls to ask for a favor: She wants Shane to let a recently-rescued male omega live with him. In his apartment.

    His name is Ilya, Rose explains, and the thing is, despite omega hormone levels, he acts and smells just like an alpha. He can't keep staying in an omega group home because he's scaring the other omegas and endangering the staff.

    But he could live with Shane, Rose insists. "You're a big strong alpha hockey player, so he can't intimidate you physically. But also he needs to feel safe, which he can with you, because you're not like other alphas." She pauses. "You know?"

    By which she means Shane has never had a full rut, his scent glands barely work, he can't form a knot, and he has no interest in sticking his dick in anyone. Which, whatever. It's fine.

    But if being a failure as an alpha means he can help this omega, Ilya, who's apparently as much of a biological anomaly as Shane is…

    Shane says yes.

    And maybe it's a stupid decision. But he knows that it's also the right one.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    It’s easy not to notice cancer, as a hockey player. Ilya is constantly sore from hits on the ice, takes six Advil every few days to deal with the joint pain. And sure, he used to only need two and a shot of something strong, but he figures that comes with getting older and the stress of missing Hollander, thinking about the rest of their lives stretched out between Montreal and Boston, never quite close enough to dream about something shaped like a future. Ten years was long enough. So he calls his agent to look into a team with more wiggle room in their salary cap–somewhere he can fall asleep next to Hollander more than five times a year, ideally– and books his flight to Ottawa. Two weeks at the cottage will never be long enough with Shane, he thinks, closing his laptop and grimacing at the pain flaring down his spine. But he takes a hot shower, nearly falls asleep against the bathroom tile, and he doesn’t even really notice it.

    Ilya Rozanov gets cancer and learns what it means to live. Set right after the HR show with major canon divergence from TLG

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    28 Jun 2026

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    The moment he got the call is branded into Shane’s brain for the rest of his life. He couldn’t tell you where he was or who was with him, but he could vividly recall the sensation of the bottom dropping out of his stomach, the burst of white static in his head, the cold sweat that broke across his skin before his brain had even finished processing what he'd just been told.

     

    Or: Shane and Ilya, through life and death.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    "Rozy," Brian, the team doctor says, "talk to me, buddy. That puck clipped you pretty good, how’s the pain?"

    Ilya blinks. He clenches his jaw against a wave of nausea. He rests his cheek on the ice, and the cold helps a little.

    "Bad. Very bad." He swallows. "Is Shane here?"

    -

    or, in the final MTL/BOS game of the year, ilya takes a puck to the head.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    He knows no one would believe him. Plenty of guys get smacked around by their girlfriends. Pussy-whipped, dog-walked, whatever. She’s talking way too fast for Ilya to understand. It’s just one of her little harmless punishments, when he fucks up. Sometimes she ignores him just to watch him squirm and try to figure out what he did. They don’t talk about his family, and he doesn’t tell her that his father used to do the same thing. Bringing it up will just make her angrier. 

    It’s a little bit more than a slap this time. The edge of her knuckles connects with his nose and blood is running down his chin before he can blink. He runs his tongue over the smooth surface of his teeth on instinct like he always does after he hits the ice face first. Ilya always expects it, yet it always takes him by surprise. 

     

    After the news breaks about Shane and Rose, Ilya gets himself into something...simpler. But simpler turns confusing, and then manipulative, and then violent. And that's when people start noticing. 

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    02 Jun 2026

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    LeClaire’s hand is still on his shoulder, and Ilya knows that it doesn’t look like anything. A coach speaking to one of his players. LeClaire’s heat seeps through his suit jacket, and his breath is a warm, damp wash of air against Ilya’s ear.

    “They’ve finished up with the awards,” he murmurs. “You look like you’re ready to get out of here.”

    Ilya nods tightly and sets his drink down on the table.

    OR:

    Gregori Rozanov was bad in many ways, but Coach LeClaire might have him beat.

    Shane Hollander has something to say about that. It turns out a lot of people do.

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    02 Jun 2026

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    "Shane," Bood says firmly. And it sounds so wrong, because Bood never calls him Shane. Shane is always Hollzy. And Bood's voice is supposed to be loud and steady, not shaky. And Shane finally, finally becomes aware enough of his surroundings to feel the trembling of Bood's hands against his waist. "Shane, please. They're working on him. We need to give them space so they can—so they can make sure he's okay."

    "He's my husband," Shane chokes out, not quite managing to choke down the sob that's been building up long enough to boil over. Bood makes a similarly choked noise at that. "You need to let me go. He's my husband."

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    Ilya gets injured on the ice during Shane's first season with the Centaurs. Shane loses his mind, a bit.

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    31 May 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 58

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    "This disease is like a storm. It starts out slow, then gets worse all of a sudden. It destroys everything in its path."

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    Ilya Rozanov has a year to live.

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    25 May 2026

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    "We're setting you up with a billet situation," Fletcher continued. "It's pretty common for first-year players, especially international guys. Gives you a chance to settle in, learn the city, have someone looking out for you."

    "Okay," Ilya said slowly, not entirely sure what a billet was, but not wanting to admit his ignorance.

     He could guess from the context – he’d heard of rookies being assigned to live with older single players, veterans who could show them the ropes. Maybe that was what Fletcher meant. Connors maybe, he was probably a handful of years older than Ilya. Or perhaps Becker. Ilya just hoped it was someone who–

    "You'll be staying with Nikolai Petrov and his family."

    The words hit Ilya like a punch to the gut. For a moment, he forgot how to breathe.

    "Petrov?" he managed, his voice coming out strangled.
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    The Bears decide that Ilya should be set up with a billet for his first season. The idea of spending a year living with a man that Ilya is sure hates him is completely terrifying. And yet, it ends up being the best thing to ever happen to him.

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    04 May 2026

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    In a world where alphas are considered less than animals, Felix buys Chan to keep him as pet.

    Or Felix struggles with intense heats and terrible nightmares, so his shrink recommends getting a companion.

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    03 May 2026

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    The first sound Ilya hears is a thin, discordant symphony of beeps and whirs. Something vibrating. 

    The next thing he hears is…wet. A sort of shaking, gargling sound, that feels like the ugliest crying he’s ever heard. And through it, Shane’s voice. 

    “I’m with him now, mom. He’s— he’s not fine. He’s not. I know—”

    Ilya wants to ask who's not fine, but he can’t feel his own body, his mouth, enough to ask.

    “Yeah,” Shane is saying, only slightly calmer. “I know. He wasn’t breathing—"

    Ilya knows there's a link, between the clinical musicality of medical settings, Shane’s audible, awful distress, and his own physical incapacity. It’s just, it’s so tenuous, and the air around him is so thick, so heavy. It would be easy, to sleep, a little. 

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    Footage of the last game between Ottawa and Montreal is everywhere; it’s breached containment from the sports world, and now it seems like everyone is baying for Montreal’s blood. Except, Ilya is oblivious. Not exactly blissfully so, but as the fight for accountability within the league rages on without him, Ilya just wants someone, anyone, to tell him what happened.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    Mystery Work

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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    23 Mar 2026

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    Alphas are considered brutes that need to be tamed. They are separated from the real world, living in training centers until they learn how to be useful and chosen by a beta or omega.

    Eighteen year old Shane recently lost both of his parents, leaving him without a pack. He is lost and hurting, and his health is declining rapidly from years of suppressants and losing his pack. He is told he needs an alpha to balance out his hormones, reduce stress, and help him get through his irregular and painful heats. He gets given multiple options, but he can’t help but be drawn to a particular Russian alpha.

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    15 Mar 2026

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    Ilya is terminal ill. It’s his and Shane’s first (and last) wedding anniversary and he wants it to be good for Shane.

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    13 Mar 2026

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    A handsome, panicked face swims into view, and Ilya isn’t sure, but he thinks the man is calling his name.

    “…ya – hey! There you are,” the stranger says shakily, one strong hand clutching Ilya’s face. “Fuck, Ilya, you’ve gotta stay awake, okay? They’re coming, just hold on. I’m here.”

    He’s ethereal under the stadium light. It falls like white water over his dark, messy halo of hair, caresses the edges of his tensed jaw and the anguish etched into his face, outlines the curve of his full, trembling lips as he looks down at Ilya, trying to hold Ilya’s gaze with his own.

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    11 Mar 2026

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    “Where are you going?” Troy asks.
    Ilya rolls his eyes, “Taking a piss. Why? You want to come?”
    Three steps later the plane falls from beneath him.
    He knows when his head smacks the ceiling: They’re going to crash.

    Or
    Ilya is standing when the plane drops. When he's taken to the hospital Shane has to figure out what he's willing to do to be with him.

    ON HIATUS

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    06 Mar 2026

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    At age 46, Ilya Rozanov, retired former Captain and star forward of the Ottawa Centaurs, six time Stanley Cup Winner, and widely regarded as one of the most talented hockey players of all time, is diagnosed with dementia.

    Five years later, the legacy he leaves behind is beautiful.

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    31 Jan 2026

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    There’s a sudden cacophony of yells. As Shane turns to find the source of the noise, the only thing he can see is red splattered across the ice and a #81 jersey.

    For an absurd moment, all he can think is “my parents are at this game. Hayden and Jackie are in the stands. Thank god the kids aren’t here.”

    He doesn’t remember moving, but the next thing he knows, he’s kneeling in a pool of blood with his hands on Ilya’s neck, certain that he was about to die.

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    24 Jan 2026

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    “How long has this been here?” Shane asked.

    Ilya frowned. “What?”

    “This,” Shane said, pressing gently.

    Ilya flinched, more surprised than hurt. He twisted awkwardly, reaching back, fingers searching. “I don’t feel anything.”

    “You don’t feel that?” Shane asked. His voice sounded wrong to his own ears.

    Ilya sighed, irritation creeping in. “You’re poking me. Of course I feel that.”

    “Ilya.”

    “It’s probably nothing,” Ilya said, already pulling away, sitting up. “Muscle knot. I don’t know.”

     

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    Ilya is used to surviving alone. Shane won’t let him. When illness forces their lives to change overnight, they learn what marriage really means. Not in vows, but in the relentless decision to stay.

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    22 Jan 2026

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    After The Quiet Fight, the battle was supposed to be over.

    Ilya survived cancer. He made it back to the NHL. He finished his first season back on the ice. From the outside, it looks like a victory.

    But survival doesn’t mean peace.

    This sequel picks up in the aftermath—when the adrenaline fades and the real cost begins to surface. Ilya is fighting a body that still hasn’t fully forgiven him. Shane is fighting a mind shaped by months of fear, hospitals, and the constant threat of loss. And together, they’re fighting each other—trying to love, plan a future, and breathe again while remission looms quietly in the background.

    This is a story about what comes after the battle, when Shane and Ilya are learning how to live when they are no longer in crisis—but not free from it either. A story about the tension between gratitude and grief, strength and fragility, love and resentment.

    The fight feels louder than ever.

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    20 Jan 2026

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