fearingdark
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Growing up as neighbours, they'll always notice each other but they won't always like each other.
Bellamy and Clarke's off and on relationship through the years. -
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The thing with her neighbour is, he doesn’t seem to realise the walls aren’t lead. He blasts his music, cheers loudly at sports games, and every weekend, like clockwork … he has very loud, very aggressive sex in the room on the other side of her own bedroom wall. She wishes she could just say it’s annoying and rude, but it happens to get her super hot.
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A New Girl Inspired AU/Adaptation - Clarke moves in with Bellamy, Octavia, and Miller after she finds out Finn has made her the other woman. She's rebuilding her life with new roommates and new friends.
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Modern AU - Clarke needs a place to crash but her options are limited. Octavia persuades a reluctant Bellamy to let her stay in his den but then the pandemic hits. Suddenly, the situation isn't as temporary as it was supposed to be.
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when you hold me it holds me together by hollidayparty
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Dec 2025
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They sat in silence for a few seconds and watched the surf rolling in and out, in and out. Shane eased one knee up and rested his arm across it, watching Ilya out of the corner of his eye with infinite patience.
“You wanna talk about it?” he asked, voice soft enough that the wind almost stole it.
He did want to talk. His chest was full of words. Too full. But the idea of opening all that up? Of watching Shane recoil, or worse, watching him care? It was unbearable. The thought of being comforted by Shane, of feeling that warmth and knowing he couldn’t keep it, nearly crushed him.
Ilya kept his eyes on the water and his jaw tight.
Shane reached out slowly and carefully and let the tip of one finger trace the outside of Ilya’s forearm. Just a whisper of contact. A question, not a demand.
Ilya looked at him. Shane gave a small tilt of his hand, beckoning him closer.
“Come here.”
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A deviation from the All-Star weekend in Tampa:
Instead of finding Shane on the bench, it’s Ilya alone with his ghosts and falling apart in ways he never lets anyone see.
Until Shane sits beside him.
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- Part 1 of hollanov one-shots & shorties
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01 Jul 2026
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no one's ever had me, not like you by hollidayparty
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
03 Mar 2026
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“Look, I know I’m boring. And lame and… weird. I just… can you not say it? Every time? Or at least not every ten seconds.”
And suddenly Ilya saw the way Shane was trying to fold in on himself. Like he wanted to hide the parts of his life he had just let Ilya see. Now it looked like he regretted letting Ilya in. Or he expected him to laugh. Or leave.
He crossed the room.
“Shane.”
Shane shook his head once.
“I’m sorry. Forget it.”
“No,” Ilya said gently, crouching in front of him. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it like that. I was teasing. I didn’t realize.” He paused, then said more firmly, “you’re not boring.”
Shane scoffed under his breath.
“I mean it,” Ilya said, ducking his head to try to catch his eye. “You’re the most specific person I’ve ever met. It’s fascinating. I love the way your brain works. And the way this house feels like you.”
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A fluffy/smutty one shot set some time between Tampa and Boston in 2017 where Shane invites Ilya to spend the weekend with him in Montreal.
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- Part 3 of hollanov one-shots & shorties
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01 Jul 2026
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White Silence, Dark Heat by Zavia
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
24 Apr 2026
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After Ilya breaks Shane's heart in Sochi, Shane builds a life out of control.Three cups. Captaincy. Precision. Routine. Emptiness.
When no achievement manages to make him feel anything, he turns to a mysterious phone service instead.
Intimate in ways that should be impossible between strangers. A man who understands exactly how to pull Shane apart without ever touching him. Who gives him structure instead of chaos. Relief instead of performance.
Shane finds himself pulled toward something he thought he buried years ago.
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Set 4 years after Sochi, where both Ilya and Shane were left with shattered hearts, this is a story about second chances and being brave enough to trust again. To want anew.Series
- Part 1 of The Things We Survive
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30 Jun 2026
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Just Another Day in Paradise by Zavia
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Jun 2026
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Shane Hollander is on vacation.
This is, objectively, a great idea. There is sun. There is a private villa. There is Luca, who fits into Shane’s life with the ease of something long-established. Brotherly, familiar, and currently eyeing the entire resort like it’s a personal challenge.
There is also Ilya Rozanov.
This was not mentioned. This was not in the plan.
It’s fine. They’re fine. They’ve always been fine. Years later, different lives, perfectly capable of sharing a beach, a drink, and conversation that slips a little too easily into something familiar.
Fine enough not to think about it.
Around them, things stay uncomplicated. Luca is already making decisions Shane will have to deal with later. Marley is encouraging him. Svetlana is watching like she already knows how this ends.
And Shane, who is absolutely, completely fine, starts to realize something mildly inconvenient:
nothing else ever really measured up.
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28 Jun 2026
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jersey boys by hollanovaas (makeadealwithdean)
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
18 Apr 2026
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You know the Boston Raiders shirt Ilya wears at the cottage to meet Shane's parents? Yeah, what if Shane bought one of those in the hookup stage and it had ROZANOV 81 on the back.
Consider this Porn With Feelings.
(a three part series, I think so, probably)
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24 Jun 2026