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Ilya Rozanov is reserved and focused; he doesn't allow things like feelings, emotions, and worries to crowd his senses. Until he met Shane Hollander, Ilya considered himself immune to vulnerability. Ilya prioritizes Shane's well-being, considering he's never let himself be helped or cared for by others before. That is, until one night, things get so bad he can't help but let those unwanted emotions out. And because he has been there so many times for Shane in the past, Ilya learns that with Shane around, there will always be somebody in his corner rooting for him and helping him climb to success.
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The three times Ilya Rozanov helped Shane Hollander, and the one time Ilya had to learn to accept the love and care he deserves.
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11 Jul 2026
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All of Me is Tired, So You Can Rest by marblearched
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
12 Oct 2023
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Nicky would do anything for the twins.
When money problems threaten his ability to maintain the home he had managed to create for them, Roland offers Nicky shifts after-hours at Eden's.Nicky sacrifices himself a little more, and soon a person from his past creeps back into his life to push him closer to his limit.
He worked so hard to keep this part of their lives his personal secret, but the desperation of the past never leaves quietly.
_________________________________Nicky turns to sex work to support Andrew and Aaron, and must deal with the toll it takes.
(inspired by "Making Ends Meet" by onedayanauthor and "All we need is somebody to lean on" by AgapantoBlu)
chapter one: pre-canon
chapter two-three: post-canonBookmarked by chemonya
08 Jul 2026
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They sent people to Camp Full Point to change them.
Nicky was a boy made of secrets and lies, and he had broken a long time ago. Camp Full Point might just be the thing that kills him.Or, Nicky's parents send him to Conversion Camp. This is that story.
(Updates Sundays)
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08 Jul 2026
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The Sun Will Rise and We'll Try Again by ThePureMonster
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
18 Dec 2024
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Nicky tried and tried and tried... until he finally realized that it was useless to knock on closed doors. He was just so tired and the only way out he found was in icy water and the merciless steel of a sharp kitchen knife.
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Nicky tried to commit suicide. And after Andrew finally managed to start his heart, they have to find their way back to each other. And who knows, when the sun rises again, maybe they can become a family?
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- Part 3 of Nicky committed suicide💔
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04 Jul 2026
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Everybody knows that Andrew Minyard’s past is full of horror and trauma, but they forget Aaron’s past isn’t full of rainbows and sunshine either.
When an unexpected person from Aaron’s past shows up after a home game, the true depth of all the trauma Aaron has kept secret comes out… Nobody knew just how bad Aaron had it with Tilda growing up.
Aaron’s true “guardian” takes a protective stance… and it’s not Andrew.
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03 Jul 2026
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Buttons On A Coat, Lighthearted Joke by gothpandaotaku
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
29 Jun 2026
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“Two losses in a row,” Bood shook his head. “That must be a new record for the great Shane Hollander.”
Shane snorted. “Yeah. I have it in our Prenup actually that if we lose three games in a row I get to divorce Ilya and keep everything. So if we lose against Detroit, I’m filing for divorce.”
The team surrounding Shane burst into laughter and continued on with their post game routine, removing gear and taking showers. While Ilya’s world silently fell apart.
Or, Ilya hears Shane joking about divorce and takes it seriously. He does not handle it well.
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03 Jul 2026
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Piece by Piece by Springhiller09
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
29 Jun 2026
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Ilya spent most of his life believing love was something he had to earn.
Shane spends years showing him that it never was.
Five moments where Shane loves Ilya in all the quiet ways that matter, and one moment where Ilya finally understands that, piece by piece, he was never as broken as he thought he was.
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03 Jul 2026
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The Long Way Home by kooksie
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 Jan 2026
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Shane can’t stand his college roommate and teammate, Ilya Rozanov. Can’t stand his arrogance and his messiness and his constant sleeping around.
But then the entire team, Shane included, welcomes their families to campus for Parents Weekend.
And Shane also can’t stand that Ilya is alone.
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01 Jul 2026
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It’s Getting Better in the Worst Way by aliencritters
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Thor (Movies)
24 Mar 2025
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The corner of Thor’s lip twitched, his eyes growing stormy. “If you would stop lying to me, I could help.”
“Help with what?” Loki said.
“You know exactly what.”
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OR: Thor takes Loki out to eat. The problem is, Loki doesn’t want to eat. He can only take so much before it reaches a breaking point.
BAD-THINGS-HAPPEN-BINGO PROMPT FILL: Nervous Breakdown
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30 Jun 2026
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It starts gradually, like most things in life do. Like rips forming in the back of his favorite Reebok’s. Like dead, brown leaves falling under late-November clouds. Matt never really sees it all coming until it’s too late.
The stages of Matt’s eating disorder, told in 2 parts.
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29 Jun 2026
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Ilya Rozanov has dinner with the Hollanders now. Once a week at least, at Yuna's insistence because he turns into a young, innocent boy every time she speaks. He looks at her adoringly.
He watches David watch her.
David just watches his wife.
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23 Jun 2026
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The Cottage, The Cookies, and The Cigarettes by Fingers_McTypo
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
04 Jun 2026
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Ilya has been at Shane's cottage for a week when he starts to feel unwell. Shane is booked in to present an award in New York with his mother, leaving David Hollander to hold the fort.
David starts to notice something about Ilya that worries him.
A emotional little fic in three parts.
Ilya really needs a hug, and some IV medication. And then another hug.Bookmarked by chemonya
23 Jun 2026
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'Cause baby I've never seen brown eyes look so blue by UrLocalChaoticLesbian
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
14 May 2026
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Ilya Rozanov was not scared of death.
He didn’t understand how anyone could be. Death was not scary to him. That doesn’t mean he was being careless or actively seeking out ways to die.
I mean sure, he could admit he didn’t look both ways before crossing the road, or stop drinking when on medication or even drink responsibly at that. He didn’t panic when he held his breath underwater for just that bit too long it started to burn his lungs and yeah, he could get a bit clumsy when using kitchen knives, sometimes wondering what would happen if he just moved his blade that bit closer to his wrist, thinking about how it would cut deep and bleed and then he-
Ilya Rozanov wasn’t scared of death and he wasn’t actively seeking it out. Not that he would tell anyone if he wasOR
Ilya rozanov is depressed, traumatised and slavic so he refuses to accept help from the people who care about him and tries to just man up and take it (but shocker he can't)Series
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21 Jun 2026
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Nothing by finelinelive
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
07 May 2026
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He looked down at the dirty floor; he needed to clean up. To get rid of the evidence that this had ever happened. Not that anyone was ever coming over anymore, it had been just him for months. He couldn’t bear the idea of someone being in his house, not after… Not after he was the last person here. And he ran away. And that settled something in Ilya about his worth that so deeply told him that that was the end of everything. Of them. Of himself. That he wasn’t worth anything. He was nothing.
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ORIlya knew he was depressed, he feared he took after his mother that way. No one else knew Ilya was depressed, and maybe that was part of the problem. Facing the aftermath and the guilt from failing to kill himself seemed to be a whole other issue. Especially when it came to Jane and Jane finding out what he did.
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21 Jun 2026
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You Said Fuck Off and I Said Nothing for a While by Disventure_123
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
27 May 2026
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After the Boxing Day fight ends with words neither Shane nor Ilya can take back, their relationship quietly fractures under the weight of hockey, secrecy, and everything left unsaid.
Weeks later, the breakup still echoes louder than either of them admits. When Shane starts moving on, Ilya tries to convince himself he’s fine—until a game in Boston forces everything he’s been avoiding straight to the surface.
On the ice, something breaks.
In the locker room afterward, Ilya finally says out loud what he’s been carrying since that night: the fight, the feeling of being someone’s second choice, and the words that never stopped replaying in his head.
Because sometimes the hardest part isn’t losing someone.
It’s realizing exactly when you started to.
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20 Jun 2026
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Shatterproof by ilyasweed
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
08 Jun 2026
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Ilya refuses to cancel dinner with Shane's parents, terrified that showing weakness will make them think he is lazy, broken, or a disappointment. But when a severe depressive episode causes his hands to shake, he accidentally drops a crystal water glass.
The sound of the shattering glass triggers a violent childhood trauma, sending Ilya into a full-blown, terrifying panic attack on the dining room floor as he frantically tries to clean up the mess before he gets hit.
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20 Jun 2026
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All Love Must Leave but Search For It I Will by TeaTimeAllOverTown
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
13 Jun 2026
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Again, Ilya feels the shame flare in his belly. He imagines his father across the counter from them, watching this unfold. Watching Ilya be babied by his fucking boyfriend over an injury. He remembered how he’d yell at his mother for babying Ilya, the word soft being thrown around a lot.
But Ilya likes being babied. He likes watching Shane fuss and frown as he portions out the pills, filling a glass with Ilya’s favorite juice to wash them down with, then bustling up and back down the stairs with Ilya’s favorite pillow and the sleep mask he keeps in his travel bag for planes and hotels.
He is soft. Weak too, probably. His father’s voice spits through his thoughts, sharp and disgusted. Ilya feels them settle on his shoulders, tug at his spine.
“You okay?” Shane asks, hair messy from the shower, Ilya’s pillow against his chest.
His father’s voice fades.
“Yes, moya lyubov. I am okay.”
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Or, a shoulder injury takes Ilya out for the season ten games into his second year with the Ottawa Centaurs. With one good arm and an empty house, Ilya battles with memories of his parents and his mental health.Bookmarked by chemonya
20 Jun 2026
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Diversion by SarahJeanne
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
18 Jun 2026
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Ilya is married. He is married to Shane and has Shane in their bed and their house every day. He has Shane as a part of his life more fully than he ever has. People know about them. He holds Shane's hand in the grocery store without Shane pulling away. They are on the same team, getting ready to share the ice for a whole season.
Ilya has everything he'd been longing for over the past four years. Maybe longer. Probably longer.
Ilya has a hole in his chest. The edges push aside his heart and lungs, digging up under his ribs so everything feels tight and cramped while the core of his being vacillates between aching and emptiness.
In which Ilya collects pills, distracts Shane, and has a great time doing it.
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20 Jun 2026
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Hide It Away by Ficswithcloud for allfortheBoyds
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
12 Feb 2026
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Kevin Day, guitarist and lead singer for their three-man band, is on his third tour down the East Coast. He is also madly in love with their manager, Jeremy. It´s difficult, sharing car spaces and motel rooms with him, and Kevin´s anxiety is not making things easier for him. There has never been a plan for him to confess, to talk about his feelings, but life is nothing if not unpredictable.
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- Part 5 of Yes or No : A Soundtrack
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19 Jun 2026
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Ruin to Rescue: An HGTV Renovation Special by bleuvelvet
Fandoms: The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV), Thunderbolts (Movie 2025)
16 Apr 2026
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Due to a family emergency, Lemar (John's best friend and co-host) has to take a leave from their hit renovation show just before they're set to begin filming the newest season, leaving John with the possibility of hosting on his own. Not to worry, however, Yelena has a solution in the form of the once wildly popular restoration expert, Bucky Barnes.
Too bad they already hate each other.
(AKA, the HGTV AU nobody asked for.)
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17 Jun 2026