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frequently, secretly fond of each other. by milominderbinder
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 May 2026
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Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”
“Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.
He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.
A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.
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- Part 1 of frequently, secretly.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 222,222
- Chapters:
- 28/28
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02 Apr 2026
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Carrot Cake by Wysperie
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
30 Mar 2026
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“What did you dream about?” Ilya asked, his voice still slightly coarse.
“I don’t remember.” Shane placed a tender kiss over Ilya’s throat. “What did you dream about?”
He continued trailing down, his mouth landing back over Ilya's hard chest. Shane parted his lips and sucked on the skin beneath his tongue.
“I think I’m still dreaming,” Ilya sighed with his eyes slowly shutting closed.
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Shane and Ilya being idiots in love.
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- Part 2 of Whispers of Hollanov
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30 Mar 2026
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Constellations by Pondermoniums
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
19 Jun 2026
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Heartbreak and hockey don't mix.
Boston's Ilya Rozanov decides to do what he'd been putting off for years. He calls off his affair with Shane Hollander, Montreal extraordinaire, right before a Montreal vs Boston game. He gets a hockey puck shot right into his hamstring for it. Right in the middle of the game. Honestly, he never guessed Hollander had it in him to be vindictive.
As for Shane...it works. He didn’t want to see Rozanov anymore. In this game. In this season. And now Ilya’s out. Ball and chained to healing and recovery, pain meds and physical therapy for the next year. Maybe when Rozanov comes back, Shane will be able to stomach breathing the same air as him again.
And Rozanov will be back. That much is guaranteed. Shane just fails to measure how back Ilya Rozanov will be. If he thought Rozanov was a nightmare on the ice before his injury, he’s got a reckoning coming.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 243,170
- Chapters:
- 45/48
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- 2,107
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30 Mar 2026
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courage [it couldn't come at a worse time] by veilofimagination
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
23 Feb 2026
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"Why are you not scared?"
"I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."
"Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.
"Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.
Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."
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Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.
- Language:
- English
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- 81,933
- Chapters:
- 9/9
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- 4,578
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- 22,152
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28 Mar 2026
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“Oh my god,” Hollander squeaks suddenly.
Ilya freezes. “…What.”
Hollander is staring downward. “Are you hard?” His voice is higher, not like the monotone that he's gotten used to.
Ilya instinctively steps back and glances down. Fuck. Yes. Very. He exhales heavily. This is unfortunate. He’s not mortified—he’s never been ashamed of his sex drive—but this situation could easily become awkward and borderline predatory.
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Or, Ilya Rozanov is a legend, one of the greats of hockey, and the new head coach of the Boston Raiders, and his life is derailed by Shane Hollander, the 19-year-old genius rookie from Montreal.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 78,311
- Chapters:
- 6/?
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- 1,154
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- 4,781
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25 Mar 2026
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the golden boy and my worst regret by Goldie020202
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
28 Jun 2026
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In 2022, Ilya wakes up in a hospital in Ottawa with no memory of how he got there. He has hazy recollections of 2015, but he can't remember anything about the past seven years. He is shocked to learn he is now married to Shane Hollander, a fact that forces him to reconcile the decisions of his past self with the expectations he inherited from his father.
--“I have this for you.” Hollander reached into his pocket, pulling out something gold, glinting under the cold hospital lighting. Holding his fist out, Hollander unfurled his hand, and the bottom fell out of Ilya’s heart, cratering through his stomach and spilling onto the floor.
Shane Hollander stood before him, palm outstretched, cradling Irina Rozanova’s golden crucifix.
Ilya flinched back, like he had been burned. Hollander’s warmth had moved too close, too fast, morphing into a threat and a violation. Hollander should not have that cross.
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- English
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- 55,354
- Chapters:
- 18/26
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- 1
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- 2,540
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19 Mar 2026
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They have spent nine years almost. Almost together, almost over it, almost ready to say the thing neither of them has said. Then one night changes everything and almost stops being an option.
or: the toxic Hollanov you have always wanted
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 76,479
- Chapters:
- 8/8
- Comments:
- 784
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- 3,690
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- 1,455
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- 166,950
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15 Mar 2026
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The Knockout Lockout by PillowForte
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
20 Mar 2026
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A handsome, panicked face swims into view, and Ilya isn’t sure, but he thinks the man is calling his name.
“…ya – hey! There you are,” the stranger says shakily, one strong hand clutching Ilya’s face. “Fuck, Ilya, you’ve gotta stay awake, okay? They’re coming, just hold on. I’m here.”
He’s ethereal under the stadium light. It falls like white water over his dark, messy halo of hair, caresses the edges of his tensed jaw and the anguish etched into his face, outlines the curve of his full, trembling lips as he looks down at Ilya, trying to hold Ilya’s gaze with his own.
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- Part 1 of Knockout
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 23,952
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Comments:
- 456
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- 7,546
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- 1,749
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- 84,084
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11 Mar 2026
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Alligator Bites Never Heal by flawlessassholes
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
15 Mar 2026
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His outstretched glove hangs there, frozen, as the noise of the arena mutates into a ringing buzz. Then he’s moving, pushed away by Marlow, and then Boston’s goalie. There’s a flurry of movement, a trainer with a towel, more blood dripping onto the ice, and he just. Stands there. Staring.
Ilya is helped off the ice. Shane doesn’t even tap his stick.
Remember when Sidney Crosby caught a puck with his jaw? That doesn't happen to Shane. That happens to Ilya.
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- Part 1 of Alligator Bites Never Heal
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 72,072
- Chapters:
- 9/9
- Comments:
- 2,280
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- 11,985
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- 4,266
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- 298,563
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06 Feb 2026
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Alphas aren't supposed to want other Alphas.
For Shane Hollander, that unspoken societal rule doesn't ring true. It's fine, though. He has everything under control, and the people around him are none the wiser.
Unfortunately, he never counted on Ilya Rozanov seeing right through him.
- Language:
- English
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- 40,579
- Chapters:
- 10/?
- Comments:
- 359
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- 2,844
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03 Feb 2026
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“He’ll never forget anything about their first night. Or any night he shared with Ilya. Every detail has been etched into him. Without them, he wouldn’t recognize himself. Without them he was blank.
Stop thinking about Rozanov. Fuck.
He seeks new memories. New… etches.
So when future archeologists dig up his bones they won’t read them like a love letter to Ilya Rozanov.
Shane knows it’s risky.
But he doesn’t know that tonight he won’t be etched, he’ll be broken.”
When Shane hooks up with a stranger after a game, he thinks the worst that could happen is getting outed. He is wrong. What was meant to be a night to forget all about Ilya Rozanov, becomes a night when he needs him most.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 75,054
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Comments:
- 308
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- 5,480
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31 Jan 2026
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we swim in nowhere by flan (bitehard)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 May 2026
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“I can’t understand you, Shane. Weeks ago we had this big fight about a party, and now you want to go to fucking Russia? You don’t have to, uh. Compensate for more. How was the word?”
“Overcompensate. If you don’t want to, we won't. I know you have not been going these past years, but it's not the same not wanting to go back and not being able to and I know you're more aware than me about this that will change after summer."
"It is what it is."
“I thought it could be good for you to go back one last time before we do our thing. Which, for the record, I am dying to do.” A beat. “Maybe you have things to get. Friends to see. Maybe,” and saliva trips for a second on Shane’s throat, because the answer to this could be everything or nothing at all. “Maybe you would like to visit your mother's grave and say goodbye. Maybe you would want me to come with you.”
February 2021. After deciding they are getting married in summer, Shane proposes to accompany Ilya in a last trip to Moscow to get much needed closure. Metaphorical more than literal hand in hand they navigate old friends, memories, and family that had been left behind.
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31 Jan 2026
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I Wanna Be Your Dog by agoose
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Jan 2026
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What the league had once thought was the peak of Rozanov’s savagery was child's play compared to his demeanour playing alongside his husband. Hockey players are never well-known for their smarts, but it doesn’t take a biology professor to know what happens when a rabid, wild animal senses their mate in any danger. He had transformed from an untamed mutt into a certified blood thirsty machine, fiercely protective, and just as fiercely obedient. Whatever Shane said, Ilya did; whatever Shane wanted, he got, courtesy of Ilya.
He now skated like a weapon on a leash, only fighting when he was allowed to; a beast for only his hire.
AKA: Shane Hollander walks Ilya Rozanov like a dog, and the one time he let his beast loose against his previous team.
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25 Jan 2026
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After a fight with Shane, Ilya ends up in a bar trying to forget it. But when the worst happens, who will answer Ilya's call?
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- English
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- 17,203
- Chapters:
- 9/9
- Comments:
- 192
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- 1,715
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25 Jan 2026
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Based on The Long Game by Rachel Reid, in an alternate universe where the Ottawa Centaurs’ plane crashes.
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I do not condone misconduct with any of my AO3 publications.Series
- Part 1 of Time Comes in Roses
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 24,232
- Chapters:
- 5/5
- Comments:
- 146
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- 1,216
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- 268
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23 Jan 2026
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back and forth from new york by alphalupi
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Apr 2026
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After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.
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Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.
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- Part 1 of back and forth from new york
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 255,418
- Chapters:
- 55/55
- Comments:
- 15,382
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- 34,682
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- 12,846
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- 2,171,517
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22 Jan 2026
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something you can build by some1_around
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
21 Jan 2026
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Six months ago, Shane’s intimate conversation and break-up with Rose Landry was recorded and leaked. In those six months, his life had completely upended and everything had changed, for better or for worse. Except for Ilya. He still has Ilya, and he’s beginning to understand that he always will.
It’s 2018. Shane Hollander has to figure out his new life, in a new city, on a new team, while being out to the world but not by his own choice. Ilya, along for the ride, also has to learn what it means to be connected to a place, to a person, and to his own inner truth.
(Sequel to “something you can fix,” set post-Heated Rivalry, pre-The Long Game)
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- Part 2 of something you can fix
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 96,881
- Chapters:
- 13/13
- Collections:
- 4
- Comments:
- 8,607
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- 44,556
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- 1,046,796
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22 Jan 2026
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Shane Hollander knows he’s not a small guy. Years of hockey and workouts have built up his muscles, and lucky genetics from his father’s side places him just shy of six feet. He’s checked hockey players half a foot and several pounds more than him, knocked Scott Hunter into the ice in the one fight he’s ever actually thrown hands in. But as much as Shane loves the game, the fast movements, passes, and team camaraderie, there were times where he could only feel regret at following the path of athletic fame. He puts on the media smile he practices in the mirror as he brushes his hair each day, uses the bright lights of press conferences to erase his view of the audience, and keeps his answers simple and focused on hockey.
The number of people outside the arena still makes him feel crushed in on all sides, small. Eyes trained on his face, cameras flashing, pens and cell phones being passed into his hands. The itch of it all settles under his skin.
@OttawaPoliceDispatch: Police have been dispatched to a house alarm in Galetta, On. Possible break in, destruction of property.
@OttawaOfficialPoliceDepartment: Recent Missing Persons Report filed for Shane William Hollander at 9:25 pm
Epilogue: 3/1
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- Part 1 of 1100200's Hollanov Fanfics
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 81,009
- Chapters:
- 9/9
- Comments:
- 762
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- 9,526
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- 3,746
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- 458,201
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19 Jan 2026
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What Happened in the Silence by misplacedmetaphor
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Feb 2026
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In the months between Sochi and Vegas 2014, Shane Hollander decides he’s done watching Ilya from a distance.
He stops waiting.
Told through alternating POV, this fic explores what happens when Shane moves on, and what it does to Ilya to realize he doesn’t get to decide where Shane stays.
It was never just sex. It was never just a game.
And when Shane finally chooses steadiness, it changes the rules.
And who is that man?OR
Shane is trying to build something honest.
Ilya is trying not to lose him.
And the silence they used to live inside is no longer an option.filled with angst. slow burn.
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- Part 1 of What Happened in the Silence
- Part 1 of In the Margins
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 222,969
- Chapters:
- 34/?
- Collections:
- 4
- Comments:
- 1,514
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- 2,440
- Bookmarks:
- 1,241
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- 146,312
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18 Jan 2026
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Here, After by BlckOnyx
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
20 Jan 2026
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Ilya opened one of his messages.
Have you seen the news?
Ilya, call me. Now.
Please tell me you already fucking know.
Jesus Christ, man.That was it. No context. No explanation. Just panic wrapped in vague bullshit.
His jaw locked. “Are you fucking serious right now,” he muttered, thumb scrolling harder than necessary. Say it or don’t, you assholes. The half-answers made his skin crawl. It felt like they were all circling something awful, whispering around it, waiting for him to step close enough to get hit.
His chest felt tight now, pressure building, so he did the one thing that made sense. He opened social media.
Shane Hollander’s name was everywhere.
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Shane was hurt in ways everyone could see, and in ways only Ilya would carry.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 21,807
- Chapters:
- 2/2
- Comments:
- 390
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- 10,641
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- 2,248
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16 Jan 2026