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    Shane had told his manager, verbatim, that he “trusts her judgment” to pick the opener for his first ever world tour.

    Her “judgment” shows up to soundcheck with a parking ticket in his hand and a crimson hickey on his neck. Her “judgment” is Russian DJ, Ilya Rozanov.

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    29 May 2026

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    As a straight man, Ilya Rozanov has never had a gay roommate before, but it’s going pretty well. Shane Hollander is kind, silly, and an even bigger hockey nut than Ilya.

    So when Shane starts bringing men over, and Ilya begins to want to bash their fucking heads in, Ilya comes to a startling conclusion: He must be homophobic.

    (He’s jealous.)

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    24 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander wasn’t stupid. He knew his body was changing. It was hard to ignore the imperfections that made him question if he truly had any control left and made him unable to look at his body without feeling disgusted. But he wasn’t pregnant.

    He couldn’t be.

    He was an omega. Ilya was an omega. It was impossible. Biology didn’t work that way.

    However, he learned far too late that impossible didn’t mean much to Ilya Rozanov.

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    Shane Hollander doesn’t realize he is pregnant until he is giving birth and, despite only giving birth to one child, he somehow ends up with two.

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    17 May 2026

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    Shane had been used to being alone. He'd never thought of himself as lonely. He honestly often craved the solitude, found it grounding. But that was before he knew what it was like to have someone to call, someone to touch. He was never lonely before Rozanov, but he'd been lonely ever since.

    April 2017: Shane does not get laid out on the ice.

    Ilya goes through with ending it.

    Shane lets him.

    What follows is eleven months of distance, denial, and a quiet kind of devastation neither of them knows how to name, let alone fix.

    They learn how to live without each other.

    (Or at least, how to pretend.)

    And then, almost a year later, the infamous collision happens and Shane goes down cold.

    And suddenly, neither of them can pretend it doesn’t matter.

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    11 May 2026

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    “…You want to?” he asks.

    Shane blinks. “What?”

    “Kiss someone.”

    The question makes Shane’s brain short circuit.

    Shane swallows. “I mean—yeah.”

    “Then why haven’t you?”

    “I don’t know.” Shane shrugs again, shoulders tight. “Timing. People. It’s just… not something I think about like that.”

    That’s not entirely true.

    He does think about it. Just in a different way. Abstractly. Like something other people do, but not he himself.

    Ilya watches him for a long moment.

    “I could show you.”

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    21 Apr 2026