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“I’m sorry for ruining your night.” A deep shuddering breath echoes through the woods. Steve hurts. His chest aching something awful and so tight he can’t breathe. “I’m so-” his voice breaks as does the damn holding back all his tears. Now it’s Eddie’s turn to feel his eyes burn. “I’m so sorry, Eddie. I’m sorry for everything. I never – I never wanted – I never meant things for to end up like this.”
Eddie’s brown eyes meet Steve’s hazel. Tears fill Steve’s eyes and despite everything - despite how broken Steve looks, despite how angry Eddie is, he can’t help but think he’s still so beautiful. Eddie wants to say it. Throat aching with the need to say something, anything to get Steve to stay and let him help. It hits Eddie hard that this is the first time he has ever seen Steve cry. Steve who always put on such a strong front, who hid his sadness and fear under false smiles. All the anger and fury from five minutes ago left Eddie only to be replaced by such a twisted feeling that whatever is haunting Steve won’t be stopping anytime soon, and it’s something so much bigger than he could ever imagine.
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i don't know anything (but i know i miss you) by Notsocoolkat
Fandoms: Stranger Things (TV 2016)
06 Oct 2024
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Eddie never had an issue with his relationship with Steve being kept a secret; he knew the dangers of the general public of Hawkins discovering good ol' golden boy Steve Harrington was dating Hawkins' resident freak. Besides, the most important person in his life outside of Steve, Wayne, knew and that was more than enough for Eddie. If Eddie was being honest anyways, he didn't know who Steve had to tell. The truth of the matter was that Eddie was completely fine with keeping his love for his Stevie pure and untainted by the hatred of his peers. But, he didn't realize that would mean hearing the love of his life died while drinking coffee and watching the morning news.
Or, six months of love goes up in flames when Steve dies in the Starcourt fire with Chief Hopper.
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i'll make it through the winter (if it kills me) by Notsocoolkat
Fandom Stranger Things (TV 2016)
06 Oct 2024
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find your way back home by strange_ghost
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
01 Jun 2026
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"Hi, solnyshko.”
The Russian pet name set a firework off inside Shane's mind as he heard it cooed from behind him. The intonation was just as he remembered, but the voice was much deeper.He turned and felt himself short circuit. It took every ounce of willpower to not let his jaw drop cartoonishly to the floor. Shane would recognize his individual features anywhere, even after 5 years. But it was as if someone had snapped their fingers and the smug, silly Russian boy who had been attached to Shane's hip for 3 summers was transformed into some sort of fucking Adonis right before his eyes.
“Ilya-” was all Shane managed before strong arms were wrapped around his waist and lifting him off the ground in a greeting all too familiar from years ago.
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When Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov spent their summers as teens in an elite hockey camp, they quickly became inseparable friends. But they lose touch when Shane moves on as a prospect for the NHL and Ilya for the KHL.Years later, Montreal makes a bold move to take the hottest player in the KHL. After hearing of the Russian's reputation, the Montreal Captain is tasked with keeping his old best friend and new teammate out of trouble.
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18 Jun 2026
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The one where Shane and Ilya meet as children and grow together before being torn apart.
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01 May 2026
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When Will opens Hannibal's letter, it wakes something primal locked inside of him. He doesn't understand it, but what he does know is that he has to go to Baltimore hospital for the criminally insane, and he has to go now.
Dear Will. He could still see the words, written in the curly elegance of Hannibal's hand, burning behind his eyelids. He breathed deeply through his nose to try and calm the unsteady flutter of his heart. A deep breath. One that clawed at his nose, one that penetrated his nostrils like a liquid, a smothering sting he felt intruding behind his eyes.
One. Deep. Breath.
And then it took him.
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The first time she meets him, he's nothing more than an almost-missed appointment.
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Dean is silent for a long, tense moment, then he gruffly says, "It's not for banishing the angels. It's to summon them. So, it doesn't—it's not to get rid of 'em, but to draw 'em in."
Mitzi can't help but glance up at him at that. His voice is so heavy with so much unexplained pain, and she doesn't understand why, or what angels have to do with it. She knows religion can impact people. She's very aware that it can get complicated, and that it can be a huge source of pain for someone, but Dean sounds grievously wronged, somehow, as if it's a truly personal thing.
She pushes through, focusing back on her job, clearing her throat before murmuring, "Well, I guess we all want angels to visit us sometimes."
"Just the one," Dean mumbles.
"Your guardian angel?" Mitzi asks.
Dean breathes out, "Something like that. As close to one as an angel will ever get."
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"A... deer hit it." Castiel stared at the damage. The car looked worse than he recalled. Like it had been hit with hammers, the front of it bent and broken.
"I keep telling people it's only a matter of time before they pick up semi-automatics," Dean muttered, circling the car, eyes panning over it intently.
Castiel couldn't tell if the mechanic had gotten the message to keep this to himself. He narrowed his eyes, trailing after the mechanic, inhaling more. "Deer can't shoot."
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Ruthless mob enforcer Castiel meets a shady omega mechanic and loses the plot.
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