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    As a straight man, Ilya Rozanov has never had a gay roommate before, but it’s going pretty well. Shane Hollander is kind, silly, and an even bigger hockey nut than Ilya.

    So when Shane starts bringing men over, and Ilya begins to want to bash their fucking heads in, Ilya comes to a startling conclusion: He must be homophobic.

    (He’s jealous.)

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    26 Jun 2026

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    When Ilya begins spiraling through depression and mania, the carefully controlled story of Shane and Ilya's "friendship" starts to fall apart. As Ilya's mental health worsens, Shane and the community around them struggles to keep him safe. What follows is a public breakdown, a disappearance, world shattering news, and the crumbling of a public image. Can they navigate not only the depression and escalating mania, but most importantly everything that comes after?

    or: A story on how mental illness during depression, mania, treatment, and recovery effects Ilya's life and everyone around him.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    When Shane takes a hard hit on the ice, he wakes up three days later to find his reality has been shattered. But the truth is, it wasn’t reality at all. Just an elaborate set of false memories conjured by a brain injury. 'False memory syndrome' they call it. Shane calls it a nightmare he couldn't have imagined.

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    Shane doesn’t have amnesia. Instead, he wakes up wanting his boyfriend only to realize his brain concocted a bunch of fake memories of a nine year situationship and Shane has no idea how to live in his actual reality that Ilya hasn’t been a part of. Luckily, Ilya is…curious.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    Shane calls a phone sex hotline and gets Ilya crooning unspeakable filth in his ear. It kind of devolves from there.

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    Ilya is a college student in Boston working on the side as a phone sex operator, Shane is still a hockey player. They have toe-curling, dirty phone sex and end up falling in love along the way.

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    19 Jun 2026

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    Weeks later, when the news finally breaks, the headlines will call it a “catastrophic brain injury”.

    They’ll analyze the hit from every angle, trying to find just what went so wrong. It was clean, it was legal… and yet it somehow slammed Shane Hollander into the ice hard enough to end his career.

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    or, another take on shane’s injury in episode 5 being much, much worse.

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    17 Jun 2026