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    Shane makes a list: reasons to Come Out on one side and to Stay Safe on the other. It's definitely not meant to accidentally star in the background of his mom's Instagram post for fans to find.

    But now that the world knows, maybe Shane can finally let himself have everything he's wanted.

    If only Ilya didn't go out and get engaged the next day. Which is fine! Rozanov was settling down? Shane could settle down, too. He would find himself a nice man.

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    17 Jun 2026

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    Shane’s eyes snap open. Wait a second.

    “Ilya,” Shane says, propping himself up on his elbows. “Ilya, wake up.”

    Ilya makes a pained noise, eyes still shut. “I shut curtains already.”

    “It’s not that. Ilya, hey. Don’t go back to sleep.” Ilya tries to bury back into Shane’s chest, but adrenaline knifes through Shane’s hangover long enough for him to peel Ilya off and roll him into his back. Ilya blinks blearily up at him, starfished in the sheets. Beautiful and naked and missing his mother’s cross.

     

    OR: When Ilya’s cross goes missing after the Centaurs celebrate their first Stanley Cup win, Shane is determined to get it back. And so are the Centaurs. And the rest of Ottawa.

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    17 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 77

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    Maybe it was stupid for Shane to assume that when Ilya asked him if he had Valentine’s Day plans that it was a date, but what was stupider was that he opened the door wearing a suit.

    Ilya texts Shane about wanting to come over on Valentine’s Day. Shane assumes it’s a date, he goes all out. When he realizes he misunderstood he shuts down. Ilya makes it better.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    There are many ways to support your favorite player. Attending their games, for instance. Buying their jersey. Or, if you're trying to keep a secret relationship under wraps, you could drive four hours in the opposite direction, wrap yourself in a dollar store blanket with eyeholes cut in it, and attempt to blend in with the locals.

    It's foolproof. Nothing could possibly go wrong.

    The internet would never figure it out.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    He’s about to unlock the door when his phone buzzes, no doubt with an apology or an explanation. Someone screams outside of the bathroom. There’s a loud noise. More screams. What the-

    His phone buzzes again.

    Jane: don’t come out

    Jane: hide

    Jane: guns

    Jane: idk what’s happening

    Jane: call the cops

    Or

    Shane, Ilya, Scott Hunter and a bunch of MHL players find themselves in a hostage situation in the middle of the Las Vegas award ceremony. (Mid-situationship, the year pre-tuna melt).

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    15 Jun 2026

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    It’s the most famous cold case in hockey history. Up-and-coming Russian phenom Ilya Rozanov mysteriously vanishes the summer before his rookie season. Despite extensive police work, no trace of the young superstar is ever found.

    Shane Hollander remembers Ilya Rozanov. Better than most. And now, several years retired and with two highly successful hockey biographies under his belt, he’s taking a crack at the mystery that’s haunted his own career with strings of what-ifs and memories revisited so often they’ve softened like old cotton.

    Perhaps now, with the long eye of perspective between him and those memories, he can unravel the short lifetime of the man poised to become his biggest rival and best kept secret. Travelling to Russia he searches for stories and the answers they hold.

    If only this damn dog that’s apparently a local cryptid would stop raiding his trash cans.

     
    It has wandered this place for years. It knows every stream, every hill, every tree. Every pale, flat face in the place of straight lines. It does not know this face.

    But it remembers dark eyes and star-dots across the cheeks.
    It cannot remember its own name.

    But it remembers him.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    “Ilya,” Hollander breathes, which—Ilya isn’t sure Hollander has ever called him by his first name. Surely he has sometime in seven years of acquaintance? But the sound of it is novel, unfamiliar. 

    And far from unpleasant. 

    Then Hollander says, “Baby,” and Ilya knows for certain that he’s never called Ilya that, because it takes the air right out of Ilya’s lungs and makes his guts twist and fuck, he would have remembered if Hollander had ever called him that. Especially in that reverent tone. 

    It’s nice. 

    Ilya doesn't remember being married to Shane Hollander. Probably, he should tell someone.

    He decides not to.

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    14 Jun 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 65

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    “Hollander,” drawled the familiar voice of Ilya Rozanov. Shane stiffened in his seat as, unbidden, blood rushed to his cock and cheeks “fancy seeing you here.”

    “Fuck off Rozanov” Shane replied, still staring ahead. The Russian didn’t budge so Shane added in a whisper "someone might see us” and if you don’t leave soon I might do something stupid like suck your cock on the spot or finally let you fuck me, maybe over the the hot food bar. It would be unsanitary, but memorable.

    “No, I think I will stay. You are so boring, but is more boring being alone in airport.” He replied cheekily, shifting next to Shane, brushing their shoulders lightly together. Shane burned even hotter at the touch. His desire for this obnoxious man was humiliating.

    “Hollander, look at me” he said softly. Shane, as always, was powerless to resist him. He turned his head to meet surprisingly gentle blue eyes. “Is South, da? Nobody cares about hockey. We are safe.”

    When a freak snow storm forces Shane and Ilya to stay in Tennessee following the 2011 All Stars weekend, they are brought together by an airport lounge, the open road, a mountain cabin, and the music of Dolly Parton.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    A storm strands Yuna Hollander in Boston with no flights, no taxis, and no hotel rooms. Her unexpected rescuer? Shane Hollander’s biggest rival, Ilya Rozanov. But one night in Ilya’s apartment reveals hockey’s greatest secret: the NHL’s fiercest enemies have been secretly, hopelessly in love for ten years.

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    12 Jun 2026

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    The day after attending a charity event in Vancouver, Shane, Ilya, Scott, and a few other players board a plane to take them to Tampa for 2017 All Stars.

    The plane goes down somewhere in the wilderness, in the middle of a storm.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    Shane leaves that Vegas penthouse suite feeling wretched, and like an idiot, and like he never wants to see Ilya Rozanov again.

    Except, well. Then there are zombies.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    “Where are you going?”

    “To the arena, Hollander. We are playing a game in three hours.”

    “That’s tomorrow, Rozanov,” Hollander says, smirking like Ilya might be fucking with him and he wants to make sure he’s in on the joke. He looks behind and around him. “Um, can I come inside?”

    “Hollander, we have game today. You were here yesterday.”

    Hollander is striding toward his kitchen, looking over his shoulder at Ilya like he’s getting tired of the joke. “Very funny. I was in Montreal yesterday, Rozanov.”

    “Hollander.” Ilya goes to stand in front of him. Hollander’s eyes flicker up and down his body the way that Ilya usually craves, but is rather unwelcome right now. “Today is Thursday. Game is today. Yesterday, you came to my house. We ate tuna melts, watched Buffalo game. Then, you left.”

    “Rozanov, it’s Wednesday morning. And I’ve never been to your house before.”

    “Hollander…”

    “Look at your phone if you don’t believe me.”

    Ilya snorts like a bull and pulls his phone out of his pocket, swipes down on the screen to look at the date.

    Wednesday, November 9th.


    Or: Ilya Rozanov in Groundhog Day!

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    10 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander doesn't understand why everyone thinks he and Ilya Rozanov hate each other. He's pretty sure that in all the years they've been playing in the league together, they've never even talked before.

    Well, he's kind of sure. He thinks he would remember. He would remember something about Rozanov, if it was really important.

    Right?

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    10 Jun 2026

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    “Ilya, what are we gonna do?” Shane says.

    Ilya finishes whatever he has been doing on his phone, and tosses it gently to the bed beside him. He crosses the room to Shane, stands in front of him, squeezes into his shoulders with his big hands, rubbing them like he means to warm them up.

    “Looks like we will have a little vacation,” he says, with a big obnoxious grin.

     


     

    Boston and Montreal are sent to Paris to play against each other in an exhibition series in January 2017. Ilya and Shane decide to stay in Paris for one more night. Just one more night, so they can talk. Maybe finally understand each other.

    They aren't expecting a volcano to erupt in Iceland and close all the airspace in Europe, leaving them stranded there. Together.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    Hayden invites Shane on holiday, determined to use the winter break to convince his best friend that he can do better than Ilya Rozanov, asshole extraordinaire. But he certainly didn't count on his boyfriend coming along for the trip.

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    08 Jun 2026

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    “What’s his name?” Yuna asks.

    “Ilya,” he says. A second later, as if they might be confused, he stumbles out, “The, um-” He barely stops himself from saying, ‘the one from hockey?’ like a buffoon. “Rozanov.”

    (or: david sees shane with a man at the cottage, but doesn't quite see who. shane tries coming out on his own.)

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    07 Jun 2026

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    “Marley.” Ilya says evenly, suddenly knowing he can actually breathe. He had a plan and he knew what he needed to do. And he couldn’t do it from the locker room bench. “If he is very injured, if he cannot play again, if he is very bad, I will kill you. I will kill you painfully.”
    Cliff gapes at him.

    In which the hit that Cliff Marleau had on Shane Hollander goes a little different. For one, they’re in Boston. For another, Ilya realizes he might be panicking? Which is probably not something to do in the middle of a game. And, oh yeah, he just outed both himself and his not-boyfriend to an entire locker room of hockey players.

    But that’s okay, because while Boston may be vicious, they do take care of their own. And they quickly realize that their captain’s happiness and willingness to stay with the Bears is tied to Shane Hollander. The solution is easy, they’ll just have to make Shane Hollander a Bear.

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    06 Jun 2026

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    She's got her mouth open, too, ready to snap at him to leave, because Shane does not need this right now. He can come back, if he has to, when her son's less fucking vulnerable, high on painkillers and reeling from mood-swings; not that she thinks he will, which, good. Really, she's just about to, when Shane's voice sounds.

    "Ilyaaaaa!" he lets out delightedly.

    For another long moment, nobody moves.

    Rozanov's face has contorted. His brows are furrowed and he's looking only at Shane. Is he confused? Yuna's pretty damn confused. Because–

    "Il-yaaaa!" Shane repeats, loud and sounding – ecstatic, really. Absolutely ecstatic.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    Shane makes some changes to protect his privacy. People notice.
    *5+1 of Shane establishing his boundaries. AU where Shane and Ilya were never caught at the cottage.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    03 Jun 2026

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