HolyCafe

fanart by @forgetyourtroubleshappyday (tumblr) of Jason Todd looking over his shoulder and winking while holding a gun above his head



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    Shane Hollander is tired of wanting someone he cannot have, and he’s dying as he waits for someone who will not stay. Someone who doesn’t want to stay, not when there are so many others waiting for him. Fun of another variety, Shane left a treat amongst many.

    It’s humiliating. It’s distracting. And it feels like shit.

    He wishes he could erase his feelings, move on as easily. In an effort to gain back control over the ‘situation’ that has become his romantic attraction to a notorious player, Shane attempts at imitating Ilya Rozanov’s methods until he perfects them and becomes as good as keeping it light and casual as his rival.

     

    Or Shane tries to Hoe Phase himself into a self discovery journey to choke and kill his feelings for Ilya Rozanov. Ilya is not the only who suffers from it, but he sure feels like he’s being choked and killed.

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    Story ends after chapter 6 but I keep writing bonus because the hyper fixation doesn’t end.

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    29 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Main story stops at ch6 (approx 12.5k)
    Ch7 onwards are a series of epilogues

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    “Why are you out here alone?” Ilya asks. “Who left you here?”

    Hesitantly, Shane’s eyes cast up at the apartment building. Ilya follows his gaze, confused.

    “I’m sorry,” Shane says softly, “I went home with someone.”

    Ilya’s head snaps in his direction. “What?”

     

    -an episode 4 au where shane goes home with the bartender instead of rose, and it goes very, very poorly-

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    27 Jun 2026

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    Ilya hums, playing the card he's been considering for this entire conversation. “We could make more interesting, yes? A bet.”

    “A bet,” Shane repeats, eyes flashing. “Like what?”

    The reporter cuts in. “What about wearing the other player’s jersey?”

    They both turn to her, and Shane says, “Like, the loser wears the winner’s jersey?”

    “Maybe at the next game in a couple of months?”

    “Is a good idea,” Ilya muses, nudging Shane’s elbow. “You will look better in my jersey than in Montreal jersey.”

    Shane makes a low noise, his eyes holding a bit of a spark when he looks back to Ilya. It’s what Ilya was hoping for—the tiniest crack in the mask. He can see a hint of exasperated affection around the corners of Shane’s eyes, a little bit of fire burning just beneath the surface. It sends a thrill down Ilya’s spine, and he wonders if Shane will be snarky when Ilya gets him naked tonight.

    “That’s not happening,” Shane replies, shaking his head. “Because you’re not winning.”

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    Ilya should have known better.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    "Roz?"
    Everything was too loud around them. From the outside, these moments, a player getting hurt, had always been disgustingly silent, but Cliff's ears couldn't stop ringing.
    He shoved a foot forward, the muscles on the side of his thigh smarting as he tried to skate closer, but the referees were already there.
    Hands on his shoulders pulled him back, pulled him close.
    "I didn't mean to." A whimper. The arms around him tightened, pulling him further back, off the ice. "I didn't mean to. Didn't mean to. Didn't -"
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    What if Cliff Marlow had hit Ilya in a game against the Ottawa Centaurs and had to deal with the confusion that was his crazy former captain and best friend high on pain meds. At least those meds were hopefully the reason for his craziness. Why else would Rozanov be calling Shane Hollander his sweetheart?

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    21 Jun 2026

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    The problem is that Shane’s not just a sweet, occasionally funny, soon to be famous millionaire. He’s also fucking hot. He’s got these warm brown eyes, perfect skin, and abs. Actual, literal abs.

    But when Jessica licked them last week, he didn’t even get hard. He said he was too stressed about the scouts coming to his next game. Her entire Centaurs loving family would be disappointed in her, but she’s really starting to hate hockey.

    Or: 5 times someone wanted Shane (and later found out why they couldn't have him), +1 time Shane wanted someone back

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    21 Jun 2026