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    Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”

    “I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”

    ***

    Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.

    Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.

    Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.

    As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.

    Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    During the quiet stretch of the off-season, when the world slows and the rink sits nearly empty, Shane and Ilya make a life-changing decision, they become foster parents.

    They expect paperwork, waiting, and time to prepare. Instead, they get three children that same night.

    Logan, Kaitlyn, and Maggie arrive with everything they own in trash bags and more weight on their shoulders than any child should carry. What follows is their journey of learning how to comfort, navigate anger, and how to build trust with kids who have only ever known instability.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    Being a good father and a good husband turned out not to require anything extraordinary. All Ilya had to do was hold his son upright while he cried. Reach for his husband’s hand when everything else felt fragile enough to break. Explaining why. Explaining it again. Apologizing when he was wrong, and let himself be forgiven, too.

    Stay—especially on the days when staying felt like a decision he had already, once, been afraid he might not make.

    Do it again tomorrow.

    And tomorrow, Ilya learned, was no longer frightening when it looked back at him through brown eyes.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov, captain of the Boston Raiders, has a boyfriend. A definitely real, suspiciously (and boringly) handsome, conveniently offline, consistently unable to meet up in real life boyfriend.

    Who lives in Canada.

    Unfortunately for him, absolutely no one believes him.

    The more serious Ilya gets about his Totally Real Canadian Boyfriend™️, the more concerned his teammates become that someone either needs to call MTV and get him on the next episode of Catfish or that he's slowly losing his mind.

    Shane Hollander is, fortunately, very real, very sarcastic, and increasingly delighted that an entire NHL locker room seems to think that he's a government psyop to distract Ilya from his game.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    Stranger: u play hockey?
    You: Yes. You?
    Stranger: ya
    Stranger: what level?
    You: University, what about you?
    Stranger: mlh
    You: Yeah, sure lol
    Stranger: am serious
    You: Okay, well I don’t believe you. Why would an MLH player be on Omegle to talk about hockey lol
    Stranger: maybe i like to inspire people

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    23 Jun 2026