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  1. Public Bookmark 19

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    He had always known Mello would destroy himself trying to beat him; he had a feeling that deep down, Mello had known it, too.

    Near didn’t want to be as shocked as he was.

    But the fact that Mello had gone as far as he did proved something Near never liked to think about, something he had always brushed aside as soon as it entered his mind.

    Mello truly had hated him.

    Wammy Week day 7: Wounds/Recovery

    TW: Canon-typical violence.

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    10 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 2

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    Being a school for the gifted, it had always been a competitive environment.

    But when L requested it be made into a feeder system for his successorship, the competition had increased tenfold—looking at it from the courtyard, Roger knew that the building had stayed the same; that the walls stood the way they always had, and that the gate had rusted only slightly, yet the school itself had become a stranger to him.

    And every year, the same thing was happening to the students.

    Wammy Week day 1: Memory/Childhood
    TW: Suicide

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    18 May 2026

  3. Public Bookmark *

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    "It’s a road movie, a double-feature, two boys striking out across America, while desire, like a monster, crawls up out of the lake with all of us watching, with all of us wondering if these two boys will find a way to figure it out."

    Canonverse, focusing on events from October 15, 2009 - January 26, 2010 (Ch. 66-99). Mature.

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    12 Apr 2026

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    I’m just another humble etorphine enjoyer in the seas of many

  4. Public Bookmark 43

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    Mello bought the rings but Matt was the one who knelt, in the crust of the linoleum kitchen floor that they never cleaned.

    “Mel,” Matt said, and Mello said, “For fuck’s sake, get off the floor.”

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    30 Mar 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 7

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    He throws a piece of hardware for Matt to fix, like giving a dog a bone.

    And Matt takes it, and he fixes it, because he likes fixing things.

    But the difference between a piece of tech and Mello, is tech doesn’t argue with you—it just lays helplessly, waiting for you to mend it back to use.

    Mello argues with you, and he does not take it lying down. He doesn’t wait, either. He’s not patient like a circuit board is.

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    30 Mar 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 14

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    When Matt wakes, he’s pretty sure he can feel the phantom pain of bullets ripping holes in his body.

    He panics once the realisation hits him, his breathing comes out frantic, the sheets stick to his sweaty skin, and he only just barely manages to stop himself from falling out of bed in pure disbelief. He’s pretty sure he can still hear the screeching of tires over asphalt, the sound of his car engine being pushed to its limit, and the terrible noise of guns being fired even though he was ready to surrender.

    That wasn’t a dream.

    He remembers how much it hurt to get shot several dozen times too vividly for it to have been a dream.

    And yet as he runs his shaky hands over his own body to check for injuries, he finds himself whole, his skin intact, the searing pain of being ripped apart nothing but a faint memory now.

    Something is very, very wrong.

    He knows he’s joked about respawning like in his video games before, but that was said in jest. A joke. Not real.

    This very much is.

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    Or: Matt gets stuck in a time loop until he figures out a way to keep both himself as well as Mello from dying.

    He just hopes he can figure it out before he loses his sanity.

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    14 Mar 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 36

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    In which Matt and Mello live, Matt rediscovers an old hobby, and Mello is really, really into it.
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    Matt tears around a corner, hearing another car’s tires squeal but feeling his own glide smoothly over asphalt as he straightens his angle and keeps speeding ahead. The neon lights from buildings and billboards are a blur, as fuzzy as his thoughts while instinct and long-buried muscle memory take over for him. He’s a natural at this—it’s one of the few things he prides himself on more than anything—and he feels like he’s letting go of years of stress and trauma as he flies.

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    12 Mar 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 46

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    "Tell me something."
    "Anything?"
    "No. Not anything."
    "Then what?"
    "Something you've never told anyone. Something you told yourself you'd take to your grave."


    It's their last night. They both know it. There's no other way this could end.

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    08 Mar 2026

  9. Public Bookmark 10

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    “Can I ask you something?”

    “What?”

    “What does it mean? Coyote Ugly?”

    “Well… have you ever woken up sober after a one-night stand, and the person you're next to is lying on your arm, and they're so ugly you'd rather chew off your arm than risk waking them? That's Coyote Ugly.”

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    Matt is cocooned in a sea of loneliness.

    He is a motherless grub on his bed, disgusting and useless. His limbless body pulsates and squirms as he leeches energy out of his gaming consoles and regurgitates it into frantic, desperate texts to Mello.

    He never hears back.

    Mello is probably swinging his hips around in the Coyote Ugly Saloon, whipping his blonde hair back and forth, accepting a shot from another stranger.

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    02 Mar 2026

  10. Public Bookmark 13

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    ‘It won’t be weird in ten years,’ I promised, fighting frustration with the limits of Matt's effort. ‘You’ll get used to being bored.’

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    28 Feb 2026

  11. Public Bookmark 6

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    Near wants to understand the Universe.

    The universe in every sense.

    The universe as in, the totality of all space, time, matter, and energy.

    And the universe as in the omnipotent, conscious entity that orchestrates all of existence.

    None of it is helpful though. None of it explains why this great, omnipotent force they dub The Universe has done what it has done to him.

    Why, in a macrocosm of people and possibilities, is it Mello that he feels these feelings for? What evolutionary or cosmic or psychic justification is there behind that?

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    23 Feb 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 24

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    “If I don’t sleep I get dull. I need to be on top of my game.”

    “I don’t like the implications behind that.” Matt grumbled, tucking his face back against Mello’s neck.

    “You wouldn't.” Mello’s pointed chin was suddenly resting atop Matt’s head. “Imagine how much smarter you’d be if you slept.”

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    18 Feb 2026

  13. Public Bookmark 14

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    When Matt travels halfway across the world for a funeral, he doesn't expect the past to come back the way it does. With Mello, however, the past seems to have a way of repeating itself.

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    13 Feb 2026

  14. Public Bookmark 2

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    Kinktober Day 23: Worship

    When Mello goes missing again, Matt goes to church.

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    02 Feb 2026

  15. Public Bookmark 33

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    Matt doesn't have a problem being the kidnap victim of an angry mob-boss - he's fully willing to sit in front of a computer somewhere and hack something, alone, for whatever criminal purpose - especially since Mello's going to be paying him. Dragging him directly into the action is a risk he's not sure Mello should be taking...

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    28 Jan 2026

  16. Public Bookmark 7

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    Mello is visited by the ghost of his past, present, and future.
    Or: Beyond understands Mello as his spiritual little brother, and Mello understands Beyond as his alternate reality.

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    25 Jan 2026

  17. Public Bookmark 7

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    A love story told in three parts. Also know as 3 times Mello let Matt distract him, and learned how to dance in the rain.

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    11 Jan 2026

  18. Public Bookmark 11

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    Nausea slammed into him like a truck. A heart attack. For one blistering, muscle-clenching moment, Mello thought Kira had got him after all. He couldn’t breathe, couldn’t think, couldn’t—

    Matt. I never thought you'd be caught. I'm sorry.

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    They live AU, but Matt has big-time PTSD.

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    09 Jan 2026

  19. Public Bookmark 43

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    "We're off the investigation."
    "Is Mello okay?"
    "He died in the explosion."

     

    Despite years of separation, when Matt tracks Mello down again, they fit back where they always were: number two and three, inseparable, unstoppable. Until one single night changes everything—a failed kidnapping, a shootout, and an explosion that blows apart more than Mello’s face. And suddenly things are different, and Matt is done.
    He gives Mello an ultimatum: it’s Kira, or him. If Mello wants to chase a death wish, Matt won’t stop him.
    But he won’t follow him there.

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    26 Dec 2025

  20. Public Bookmark 4

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    "The other kids gave Mello a wide berth, but Matt had a tendency to get himself in trouble more often than not. The sobs seeping through his walls become closer to wails. It’s a siren in his ears that slowly crescendos out of time with his music. Someone had to do the dirty job of cheering the golden boy up."

    Day 6 for Wammy Week: Laughter/Tears

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    24 Dec 2025

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