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Soul-bonding is a statistical impossibility for most, the kind of thing that happened to someone’s cousin’s neighbor in Topeka, only a few thousand bonds confirmed each year in the United States. The vast majority of the population sailed through life with nothing more than the usual friendships and lovers.
People talked about soul-bonding the way they talked about the stars: distant and perfect, a fixed point to steer by, even if it was light-years out of reach. They talked about it in the language of fairy tales and prophecy, a thing that happened to heroes and to the very lucky; the privileged few. The hope is that it would happen to you if you just kept looking up.
In the media, soulmates are always beautiful, always tragic, always on the verge of losing each other to fate or misunderstanding. The most famous ones from history are canonized. Their faces are printed on postage stamps, their names turned into hashtags, their anniversaries celebrated with fireworks. Museums commission paintings of famous Bonds, whole wings dedicated to the letters, the artifacts, the impossible odds.
The rarest soul-bond, the one gilded in every legend and regulation, was the Twinflame. The metaphoric gold standard. According to literature, it was a bond that not only survived death but actively sought reunion, drawing the paired souls back together again and again across every permutation of flesh and circumstance. The way it’s described, it was not just love. It was an immutable law, like the speed of light or the conservation of energy.
The Alexandrine Institute for the Study and Tracking of Soulmates had spent the last century and a half mapping the metaphysics of soul-bonds. It unironically referred to itself as “the foremost authority on sacral affinity,” and if you called their help line, you were put on hold to the sound of a thousand murmured love poems. The Institute maintained the world’s largest database of confirmed soul-bonded pairs. It published the only taxonomy of bond types recognized by the United Nations. For a substantial fee, it would send a notary to your living room to administer the official Bonding Survey and, if you passed, issued a certificate suitable for framing.
The Institute’s own definition was as clinical as it was poetic:
"Soulmate: A person with whom you form an immediate connection the moment you look directly into each other’s eyes—a connection so strong that you are drawn to them in a way you have never experienced before. As this connection develops over time, you experience a love so deep, strong and complex, that you begin to doubt that you have ever truly loved anyone prior. Your soulmate understands and connects with you in every way and on every level, which brings a sense of peace, calmness, and happiness when you are around them. And when you are not around them, you are all that much more aware of the harshness of life, and how bonding with another person in this way is the most significant and satisfying thing you will experience in your lifetime. You are also all that much more aware of the beauty in life, because you have been given a great gift and will always be thankful."
There’s a statistic that gets buried: two percent of soul-bonded couples break up or divorce. Every case gets dragged through the media; people obsessed with knowing how something so "sacred" could fall apart, desperate to see what went wrong.
But maybe worse are the couples who stay. The soulmates who grit their teeth and don’t leave, because leaving is unthinkable; because soulmates are supposed to stay together, even if it means a life defined by disappointment they never saw coming.
Tony’s own parents are proof of the truth nobody wanted to see. Soul-bonding was not sacred, not miraculous, not the perfect magic that people spin into stories. Not everyone who is bonded ends up happy; not every soulmate lives a dream.
Tony’s earliest memory of learning about soulmates was his mother’s voice, soft and stretched thin with vodka, reciting the story of how she and Howard met: “I knew the moment he looked at me; I’d never love anyone else.” Tony remembered thinking it sounded more like a curse than a gift.
He learned the rest by watching his parents drag their bond like a ball and chain through rooms lined with expensive art. The public saw glamour, saw the photo ops and the black-tie galas. Tony saw the fights. The official biographies never mentioned the shouting matches, or the way Howard would stare into his bourbon glass as if it held the secret to dissolving the cord that tied him to another human being.
Howard’s loyalty was a three-headed beast: the company, the bottle, and Captain America. The search for the super soldier serum, for Captain America himself, was an obsession no magical bond could overcome. Tony’s mother told him, once, how it used to be. How Howard was her whole world, how he called her his Cinderella, how it all seemed like the stories said it should be.
Tony came to understand, with the clarity of a child raised on both science and disappointment, that the glamorized stories left out the ugly parts. They never mentioned how a soul-bond could corrode, how resentment could echo from one partner to the other until it was impossible to tell whose anger was whose. The pamphlets never said what to do if you woke up hating the person you were supposed to be grateful for.
He was thirteen when his mother tried to explain the difference between love and obligation. They sat on the parquet floor of the Hamptons house, her back against the wall, and she told him, “Sometimes the bond is a miracle. Sometimes it’s just a leash.” She made him swear not to tell his father.
Maria tried to be a good mother, but over the years there were more days when she couldn’t get out of bed. Jarvis was the one who took care of Tony, told him that his mother wasn’t feeling well today, maybe tomorrow, and Tony didn’t understand until much later that it wasn’t her body that was sick.
Eventually, antidepressants helped. The days when Maria could get up, could function, could look at Tony and try to be present, become more numerous. By the time Tony had headed off to college, his mother was a smiling presence in his life again. Up until the day Howard and Maria die.