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It had been a fucking long day. The job had gone on forever and all Wade wanted to do right now was go home, have a shower and cry from the pain. He hadn’t exactly told Logan but it felt like his cancer got worse when he was tired. It was like he could feel his cells being killed by the cancer and then the cancer cells getting killed by normal ones. It was fucking painful in short. When he eventually got home… after a little fight with the lift, he walked straight to the bathroom and started peeling his suit off.
Now Logan had been home all day. He’d baked cookies and cleaned the kitchen and also their bedroom. He’d watched half of some random show that’s probably aimed at teenagers but it made for good background noise. He’d checked his phone 10 billion times for an update from Wade so when Wade just barged through their tiny apartment and went straight to the bathroom, he raised an eyebrow. There was no comment on the smell of cookies or how everything was sparkly clean or how he was wearing one of his t-shirts that didn’t have holes.
He listened out for Wade calling for him and after a few minutes of getting nothing but silence, he decided to try knocking. He walked over and knocked once on the bathroom door. Nothing. So he knocked again. Nothing. As he was about to knock a third time, his ears pricked up and he heard little sobs. Was his baby boy in the bathroom crying? He was pretty sure it was a bad pain day.
“Wade, can I come in?” he asked softly.
He didn’t hear anything back so he decided to give him a couple of minutes. When it comes down to it, Logan is still an old timey gentleman so he went and grabbed a cookie, Wade’s Hello Kitty water bottle that never leaves the apartment and some of the strong pain meds. He gave it another minute and then he went back to the door.
“Baby, I’m gonna come in, okay?”
He gently nudged the door open and stepped inside the bathroom. Once he was inside, he saw his Wade, his sweet boyfriend, curled up in a ball on the floor with the top half of his suit off, rubbing at his eyes. He was pretty sure that Wade wasn’t going to be saying anything so he wordlessly sat down, held out the water bottle and pills and waited. The whole situation reminded him a little of the videos that Laura had sent him where people coaxed abused homeless dogs out with treats so they could get baths. After what felt like an eternity to Logan, Wade reached out slowly and snatched the water bottle and pills off him. He quickly dry swallowed the pills and then held the water bottle close and sucked impatiently at its straw, drinking half of the bottle in maybe a minute.
Logan took that as a win and so he silently held out the cookie. He hoped that if he got some water and sugar into his boyfriend that he’d more be willing to talk. He knew the pain from Wade’s cancer was bad but he still wasn’t used to seeing his boyfriend like this. He was almost scared to know how Wade coped when he was on his own. Did he just take pain meds and push through it, through the debilitating pain? Before he could get too lost in his thoughts, Wade grabbed the cookie and started nibbling on it. That made Logan smile and it meant that he was pretty sure he could move a bit closer.
He inched forwards so he was only half an arm’s length away from him and Wade didn’t flinch or push him away. He just kept nibbling on the cookie. He inched slightly closer and gently placed his hand on Wade’s knee. It was still covered with the leather of the suit but it didn’t feel too warm so Logan could assume Wade didn’t have a fever and wasn’t sick, rather just in a lot of pain.
Once Wade finished the cookie, he looked over at Logan and seemed to register he was being touched. Frantically, he shoved Logan’s hand off his knee and inched back so he was up against the bathroom sink cupboard. Logan took that as a warning and so he scooched back a tad. He gave Wade a few moments before taking a deep breath.
“Sweetheart, what’s going on? Is it your pain?” He asked softly.
Wade shook his head as he stared down at his hands. He sniffled quietly and mumbled something as quietly as a mouse. Logan had good hearing but it wasn’t that good. So, he took a risk. He inched closer and gently put a finger under Wade’s chin and made him look at him.
“Baby, what hurts?”
Wade looked at him and the pain in his eyes broke Logan’s heart a little. Now that Logan was looking right at him, he could see that Wade’s skin was dry and flaky. He didn’t realize he was having a bad skin day. He would have gone and bought more of the lotion he liked if he knew. He did now also know that a shower probably wasn’t an option tonight as it would just make his skin hurt more. After a moment, Wade whimpered softly and licked his lips like they’d been dry for hours.
“Cancer hurts, all of it,” he mumbled before whimpering again.
Logan nodded softly and after a moment, he moved closer and pulled Wade onto his lap. Wade flinched at first but then relaxed against his chest. Logan gently stroked his baby’s back as he started to rock him slowly. Now that he knew what was going on, he had a pretty good idea of what to do. First, he was gonna get Wade’s suit off him. Then he was gonna calm Wade down and carry him to their bed. Once on the bed, he’d use up the remaining lotion and make Wade’s skin hurt a bit less. He’d then gently wrestle him into his Care Bear pjs and put on Golden Girls in the background. Once all that was done, what happened next would be pretty dependent on Wade. Wade could want to sleep or he could want to sit on the couch and watch My Little Pony or he could want to go and eat more cookies. It wasn’t an exact science.
They sat on the floor for a while. Logan kept rocking Wade and every so often, he’d pick up the water bottle and Wade would take a few sips. Slowly, he tugged off the suit’s pants so Wade was on his lap in just his boxers. Once the water bottle was empty, he pulled Wade close to his chest and slowly stood up, taking care to not jolt his baby. He carried him to the bed they shared and gently placed him down in the middle. He’d remade the bed that morning so Wade’s favourite fluffy blanket covered it. Wade made a small sound of approval and smiled softly which melted Logan’s heart. Sometimes he still couldn’t believe that his life had sucked for so long and now he got to share a bed with the cutest man he’d ever met.
Logan grabbed the bubblegum scented lotion from their bedside table and sat down next to Wade. He gently started rubbing it into his baby boy’s back and then his chest. It started to soak into Wade’s skin and Logan then gently started putting it on his face, taking care to not get any in his eyes or mouth. After his face was done, he rubbed it over Wade’s head and he smiled softly. Wade watched him as he did all this and he made little dazed happy noises as the lotion started to soothe the pain.
Once Logan had finished making Wade’s skin feel better, he got up and grabbed Wade’s Care Bear pjs from the chest of drawers. He sat back down next to Wade and smiled softly. “Hey, ready for your pyjama’s?” He asked quietly. Wade nodded quickly and climbed off the bed slowly so it’d be easier. Logan chuckled and held up the shirt. Wade instinctively lifted up his arms and let Logan put the shirt on.
Logan grabbed the pants but Wade shook his head. “I wanna put new boxers on,” he said quietly as he fidgeted with the elastic of the boxers he was wearing. Logan smiled and nodded. “Yeah, we can do that, baby. Go pick some out, yeah?”
Wade grinned and turned around to grab some new boxers from the drawers and Logan was so glad he was sitting down because he would have crumbled to his feet if he was standing. Wade’s grin gave him a reason to live. He loved this man so fucking much. After a few moments, Wade turned back around, holding up his duck boxers. Logan chuckled at the sight of them. “Need help putting them on?” He asked with a smile.
Wade nodded and handed them over to Logan before kicking his old ones off. Gently, Logan helped his baby put the boxers on and then he picked up the pants again. Wade nodded this time and so he helped him put them on. His beautiful boyfriend was now in his cozy pjs so he kicked his jeans off and then laid down on the bed. Wade hopped on the bed and snuggled next to him. He rested his head on his chest and Logan grabbed the remote for their little box tv and turned it on.
Golden Girls started playing and Wade cooed happily. He knew all the scenes off by heart so he closed his eyes and listened to the sound of Logan’s heartbeat with Golden Girls playing in the background. Cuddles always made his day better. After a little while, he drifted off to sleep, safe and cozy.
Logan smiled when Wade fell asleep. He knew they’d stay here a while and then Wade would wake up with a rumbly tummy and he’d make him dino nuggies and pasta and they’d watch the latest episode of whatever procedural show Wade loved on their big TV out in the living room. And he couldn’t wait.