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I stand before the polished bronze mirror, naked except for the thin linen shift I have not yet tied properly at the shoulders. My fingers tremble as I trace the faint purple bloom of bruises along my upper thighs— as I remember years ago his handprints, still tender after two days. I press down deliberately, chasing the dull ache, and a soft, involuntary moan escapes me.
Gods, how I hate that sound. How I crave it.
I close my eyes and let the memories flood in, unbidden, unstoppable.
We were never gentle, Atem and I. Not once. Even in the beginning, when passion still wore the thin veil of romance, it was always edged with violence. He would pin my wrists above my head with one hand while the other forced my thighs apart, spreading me wide enough that the cool night air kissed the slick heat between my legs before his cock ever did. He never asked permission. He never had to. I would arch into the pain of his grip, the stretch, the sudden brutal thrust, and whisper harder like a prayer.
He understood what I needed before I had words for it.
He would choke me until black stars burst behind my eyelids, until my vision tunneled and my cunt clenched around him in frantic, helpless spasms. Then he would release just enough for me to drag in one desperate breath before he did it again. When I came it was always screaming, always sobbing, always with his teeth sunk into the meat of my shoulder or the side of my throat—marking me so the entire palace would know whose bitch I was.
Afterward he would hold me down by the back of the neck, face pressed into the sheets that smelled of sweat and sex and my own tears, and fuck me through the aftershocks until I was limp, boneless, dripping his seed and begging incoherently for mercy I didn’t truly want.
And when the storm passed, when we lay tangled in ruined linen, he would stroke my hair almost tenderly and murmur, “You took it so well, Neferet. My perfect little whore.”
I believed those words were love.
I was wrong.
But they were truth.
I open my eyes. The woman in the mirror looks feverish—cheeks flushed, pupils blown wide, nipples peaked against the linen like they’re begging for clamps that no longer exist. My cunt throbs with every heartbeat, wet enough that I can feel the slow trickle down the inside of my thigh.
I tried to be refined for him since returning to the palace.
I wore the elegant gowns. I spoke in measured tones. I offered counsel, intelligence, dignity—the things a proper court lady should possess. I thought if I became the woman he now claimed to want, the one worthy of respect and stability, he would see me again.
Instead he grew kind.
Distant.
Polite.
He called me Lady Neferet.
He looked at me the way one looks at a well-bred horse: admired, respected, kept carefully at arm’s length.
He never touched me.
Not once.
And every night I lay in this bed alone, fingers buried inside myself, chasing the ghost of his violence, coming with his name on my lips and tears on my cheeks because nothing—nothing—felt as good as the way he used to ruin me.
I know what he has become. The Grandeur. The god-king building a new Aaru on pillars of dignity and restraint. He has his soft, trembling consort now, his gentle boy who blushes and obeys without ever needing to be broken first.
But I am not gentle.
I am not refined.
I am the storm he once sheltered in.
And today they will bring me to him.
Today I will stand before him in the full glare of daylight, under the eyes of guards and scribes, and I will remind him what we truly are.
No more pretending. No more playing at courtly virtue.
I will walk into that office dripping for him. I will let him see the hunger in my eyes, the way my body still remembers every slap, every bite, every time he made me crawl and bark and beg. I will strip the mask away and offer him the raw, filthy creature he used to own.
Because the only way to get Atem’s attention now is to force him to remember how good it felt to lose control.
To punish me.
To degrade me.
To use me until I was nothing but a sobbing, leaking mess who still crawled back for more.
I smile at my reflection—slow, feral, a little mad.
Let him scold me. Let him call me pathetic. Let him look at me with disgust.
Every word of contempt will only make me wetter.
Every rejection will only make me hungrier.
And when he finally snaps—when the god-king’s restraint finally cracks and he puts his hands on me again, whether to strike or to fuck or to choke—I will be ready.
I will take every brutal thing he gives me.
And I will thank him for it.
I tie the linen shift loosely, deliberately, so the knot will slip at the slightest tug. I leave my hair wild, kohl already smudged beneath my eyes from last night’s tears and self-inflicted orgasms.
Let them escort me like a criminal.
Let the courtiers whisper.
Let him sit behind that desk pretending to be unmoved.
I am coming for him.
And this time, I will not leave until he remembers exactly whose cunt used to clench around his cock every time he called me his perfect little whore.
I turn from the mirror.
The guards are waiting.
I smile at them sweetly. “Shall we, gentlemen? His Grandeur is expecting me.”
And inside, my pulse is thunder. My body is already weeping for the punishment I pray he will finally deliver.
The afternoon sun slanted through the lattice windows of Atem’s office, casting long golden bars across the floor. Dust motes danced in the light, oblivious to the heavy atmosphere within the room. Scrolls lay open before the Pharaoh—reports, census records, ceremonial logs—but his mind was elsewhere.
His thoughts were fixed on Neferet.
He had watched her since his return to Aaru, observing the subtle shifts in her posture, the sharp edge in her voice, and the way her eyes lingered too long on things that did not belong to her. There was an imbalance in her—a spiritual dissonance he sensed but could not yet name.
He tapped the desk once, the sound echoing in the quiet room as he asked for his servants to summon Mahad and Lady Isis.”
Moments later, the two Guardians entered, their sandals whispering against the stone. They bowed deeply, their presence bringing a sense of ancient order to the office.
“My Grandeur,” Mahad said, his voice a steady anchor.
“Grandeur,” Lady Isis echoed, her gaze observant and calm.
Atem gestured for them to rise, his expression unreadable behind the shadow of his crown. “I have questions,” he began, his voice low. “About Lady Neferet.”
Mahad and Isis exchanged a glance—not a look of surprise, but a wary acknowledgment. They had clearly seen the same flickers of instability that had caught the Pharaoh’s eye.
“When she returned to the palace,” Atem began, leaning forward into the light, “before I came back to Aaru… what was her mental state?”
Mahad answered first. “She was stable, my lord. Respectable. Kind, even. She carried herself with the dignity befitting her station and your history.”
Lady Isis nodded in affirmation. “She was composed. She spent much of her time in reflection. There were no signs of imbalance then, My Pharaoh. No signs of abnormal behavior"
Atem leaned back, his fingers steepled beneath his chin. “And now,” he murmured, “she is unraveling.”
Mahad frowned, his concern for the stability of the court surfacing. “Why do you ask with such gravity, my Grandeur?”
Atem’s gaze sharpened, turning as piercing as an eagle's. “Because I am considering reviewing her file—including her heart measurement that was taken when I put in the order after the judgements of Shimon, Mana and Teana.”
Both Guardians stiffened. The heart measurement was a sacred thing, the record of one’s soul being weighed against the feather of Ma’at. To revisit it was to suggest that a soul once deemed worthy was now found wanting.
“Every ascendant in Aaru undergoes the trials,” Atem continued, his voice echoing with the authority of a judge. “Every heart is measured. Every soul is weighed. I want to know if Neferet’s heart has evolved—or devolved—since her arrival.”
Mahad bowed his head. “Of course, my lord. The scales do not lie.”
Atem’s tone darkened, the temperature in the room seeming to drop. “We cannot forget what happened with Shimon. He bypassed the trials. Lord Akhenamkhanen allowed it out of mercy and tradition. And look at the result—his imbalance tainted the court. It tainted the very air of Aaru.”
Lady Isis’s expression tightened at the memory of the corruption that had once seeped through their paradise.
“I will not allow another imbalance to take root,” Atem said, his jaw set. He paused, inhaling slowly as if preparing for a strike. “Mahad, I must ask something… unpleasant.”
“Ask anything, my Pharaoh,” Mahad replied.
“Did Neferet ever sleep with my father during our years apart?”
Mahad’s eyes widened, a rare flash of shock crossing his face. “Of course not. The Regent Pharaoh is loyal to the Queen and to his own honor. And Lady Neferet… she has only ever been in love with you. ”
Atem’s jaw tightened. The word devotion sounded like a cage. “She is a courtesan,” he said, his voice devoid of sentiment. “Courtesans often confuse lust with love. They cannot always separate the desire for power from the movement of the heart.”
Lady Isis stepped forward gently, her voice a soothing contrast to Atem’s growing coldness. “My Pharaoh… Neferet has lived in isolation in her villa for years. She has her own land, her own attendants. She has not sought the palace or the company of the court since you were gone.”
Atem’s gaze snapped to her. “Then what made her return?”
Mahad shook his head. “I do not know, my lord. Her arrival was a surprise to all of us. She appeared shortly before your return, as if sensing a change in the wind.”
“Did she know anything about Yugi and me before I returned to Aaru?” Atem asked.
“No,” Mahad answered immediately. “She learned of the Divine Consort only after your arrival. The news was… difficult for her to digest.”
Atem exhaled—not with relief, and not with anger, but with the cold calculation of a strategist. He realized now that Neferet hadn't returned for him; she had returned for the version of him she held in her head. And Yugi was the reality that shattered that fantasy.
Lady Isis stepped closer, her eyes steady. “What do you seek from Lady Neferet, my Pharaoh?”
Atem’s voice was cold and clear, ringing through the office like a bell. “I am going to vet her.”
Mahad and Isis both straightened, recognizing the finality in his tone.
“I will determine whether she is fit to remain in this court,” Atem continued. “Now that my consort will soon rule by my side, I must ensure that every member of Aaru is balanced for this realm, loyal, and worthy. There is no room for bitterness in a kingdom of light.”
Lady Isis nodded slowly. “This is wise. A house divided against itself cannot stand, even in Aaru.”
Atem’s tone sharpened further. “This is not the first time corruption has touched someone close to me. Mana fell to darkness once because we did not see the signs early enough. I will not be surprised if Neferet has begun to do the same. I will not be blinded by nostalgia.”
Lady Isis bowed her head. “Then you must look at her heart measurement. And you must not fear taking the action necessary to protect our paradise—no matter how much history you share with her.”
Atem’s eyes hardened into rubies. “Lady Neferet does not want to make a story for herself. She wants to live in mine. And I will not tolerate her histronics any longer.”
He stood, his posture regal and unyielding, the golden light of the sun crowning him in fire.
“I have a marriage to prepare for. Aaru to protect. And a consort whose future must be secured.”
Mahad and Isis exchanged a glance—surprised by the intensity of his protection, but deeply moved by his conviction.
“My consort will have power in this court,” Atem declared. “Real power. And soon, I will elevate him further.”
Mahad blinked. “Elevate him, my lord?”
Atem nodded. “Yugi will not be an ornamental figure. He will not be a secret kept in the shadows of the palace. He will become a noble. A ruler in truth. He will have the authority to command and the status to be obeyed.”
Lady Isis smiled softly, a glimmer of pride in her eyes. “Do you believe he is ready ?”
Atem’s voice softened—but only for a fleeting second, a glimpse of the man behind the crown. “He has always been ready. He has the soul of a king and the heart of a true ruler. He has more strength in his silence than Neferet has in all her bragged tales of seeing herself as a descendant of proud nobles. I will do whatever is necessary to elevate him.”
He turned back to Mahad, the softness vanishing. “Retrieve Neferet’s documents. And her heart measurement. I want every deed, every word, and every weight recorded since she entered Aaru.”
Mahad bowed deeply. “At once, my Pharaoh.”
Atem dismissed them with a sharp wave. “You are both excused.”
As the Guardians left the office, their expressions thoughtful and heavy with the task ahead, Atem remained alone in the fading light. He knew Neferet had requested to see him again. He knew she would come to him with tears, with pleas of "old times," or perhaps with the sharp tongue of a woman scorned. He knew she would try to manipulate his guilt or seduce his memory.
But he was ready.
He would protect Yugi. He would protect Aaru. He would protect the future he was building with the soul who had saved him from the darkness of the puzzle.
Even if it meant breaking the past into pieces and scattering them to the desert winds.