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Seungmin hadn’t really been on dates before, not even one date at the ripe age of twenty-four. Well, that was until now. While he was out grocery shopping a day ago a guy around his age had asked him out in the baking section, he’d agreed obviously, but it was about time he’d gotten any action because truth be told he was a virgin, and his roommate Jeongin was constantly having girls and guys over. Maybe hearing moans of his best friend's name through the walls had finally gotten to him.

Jeongin was notorious for having sex, almost the entirety of Jeongin’s university years were spent fucking the shit out of anyone he could get his hands on while Seungmin sat in the room across from his studying with headphones on. It wasn’t a shock to Seungmin that Jeongin pulled that much, he was more than attractive. Big hands, strong arms, fit build, and a smile laced with dimples that could absolutely kill.

Seungmin however, spent his university years studying and avoiding as much social interaction as physically possible. He graduated with honors and top marks in his class. He never had time for partying and sex like Jeongin did with his scholarship in swimming.

Seungmin was more than nervous about his date, he was considering asking Jeongin what it would be like to have sex, maybe he would ask when he got home from training. Seungmin hopped up from his bed and walked down the hallway to the kitchen before opening the cupboard and grabbing a few cookies.

“Hi,” a voice said. Seungmin jumped and cursed, seeing Jeongin already home sitting on the couch, watching probably one of his K-dramas.

“When did you get home?” Seungmin asked a hand on his chest calming down from the fright his best friend had just given him.

“Like ten minutes ago, didn’t know if you were busy or not,” Jeongin said shrugging and turning back to his K-drama.

Seungmin looked towards the screen before looking back at a very focused Jeongin.

“Watcha watching?” He asked before walking over to where Jeongin was sitting on the couch and sitting down next to him.

“You know this one c’mon,” Jeongin laughed gesturing towards the TV.

Oh, he was rewatching True Beauty, Seungmin couldn’t even count how many times Jeongin had rewatched that damn show.

Seungmin laughed and shook his head before leaning into Jeongin a bit and watching with him.

It was common for the two of them to chill and watch shows together. About a week ago, they sat down for eight hours and watched the new season of Squid Game. It was a thing they’ve just kind of always done. Ever since Jeongin’s first year, when they’d gotten paired up for a tutoring program, they’d been almost inseparable. Back then, Jeongin was a lot different. He was shy and reserved, that was until he lost the baby fat and bulked up.

Seungmin guessed he’d bring up what he’d been thinking about earlier.

“Hey uh- Jeongin?” Seungmin said quietly, he didn’t know why he was nervous this was his best friend. Maybe it was because they hadn't ever talked about this kind of thing even having been friends for at least two and a half years now.

Jeongin hummed in question his eyes not leaving the screen.

“What is having sex like?” Seungmin finally asked, Jeongin turned towards him face in absolute awe.

“What do you mean? Haven't you-” Jeongin said face still painted in shock.

Seungmin looked away feeling a bit embarrassed, he kinda thought Jeongin knew he was a virgin.

“O-oh, um like with a girl or-” Jeongin asked in a softer tone sensing Seungmin was a bit embarrassed.

“Jeongin I'm gay I thought you knew that,” Seungmin said his cheeks painted a light pink as he looked back at Jeongin laughing a bit.

“Oh- well yeah I just- I don’t know, so with a guy?” Jeongin asked his pink cheeks matching Seungmin’s now.

“Yeah,” Seungmin said, he was a little less embarrassed now.

“Well, topping or bottoming?” Jeongin asked, Seungmin had to think about it for a second before deciding if he was to have sex he’d probably be bottoming.

“Um- bottoming?” he replied, Jeongin paused slightly malfunctioning before responding.

“Well, if it's your first time it’ll hurt a bit, you’d want it to be with someone you can trust,” Jeongin responded with a small awkward smile, the Drama was still playing in the background it wasn’t often Jeongin ditched watching something for a conversation.

“Ah, okay, I see. Thanks,” Seungmin replied with a small, appreciative smile before turning back to the TV.

There were a few minutes of silence before Jeongin broke it, he was still looking at Seungmin lost in thought.

“Why do you ask?” Jeongin finally said his brain starting to piece it together, Seungmin knew he already knew the answer to that question.

“There’s a guy, we’re going on a date and you know how those things go-” Seungmin said looking back at Jeongin who was now picking up the remote to pause the Drama.

A look spread across Jeongin’s face, one he didn’t exactly recognize or understand, He picked the remote back up and turned the Drama back on to start watching with full focus once again. 

God he acting so weird, sex wasn’t a touchy subject Seungmin knew Jeongin had done it probably more times than he could count on all ten fingers. Whatever.

“Thanks, innie,” Seungmin said smiling at him before standing up and walking down the hallway to his room with his uneaten cookie.

~

 Jeongin wasn’t home, Seungmin had gotten a text a few hours after their conversation reading,

‘staying at hyun's for a bit, dw :P’  

Hyunjin was one of Jeongin’s only other friends, he didn’t know much about the older boy except that he was also on the swim team and he was dating a popular jock named Chan. 

Seungmin wasn’t generally an overthinker but he couldn’t help but think maybe he’d made his best friend uncomfortable with their conversation, he knew he shouldn’t worry because for all he knew he was with Hyunjin probably smoking some mad weed right now. 

Sure, it’d been a full day since he talked with Jeongin but the words ‘someone you trust’ would not stop ringing through his head. Did Seungmin really want to have his first time with this random guy next week? Okay, maybe he was a bit of an overthinker.

He guessed he could ask Felix his close friend who shared a programming class with him, but he didn’t know, it was kind of a weird thing to bring up. The only other person he could think of was Jeongin, to be honest, he’d kind of be the perfect candidate.

Seungmin really shouldn’t be thinking about fucking his best friend, but. He knew it’d be good, he trusted him and Jeongin had a lot more experience than really anyone else he knew. He had a nice body and he treated Seungmin with ever so much respect and fondness, he bet his fingers would feel good too.

Maybe he would ask Jeongin. Was it overstepping? Probably, but they were both adults and it wasn’t that bad of a thing to ask right? 

Seungmin picked up his phone to call Felix about it, Felix picked up on the first ring.

“Hey seungmin, what's up?” Felix’s cherry voice rang through his phone.

“I need your opinion on something,” Seungmin asked nervously, Felix replied with silence waiting for him to continue.

“I kinda wanna ask Jeongin if he’d be my first time, but is it weird?” Seungmin finally asked, and a beat of silence followed.

“Are you totally sure that’s a good idea Min?” Felix replied finally, a hint of concern could be heard in his voice through the phone.

“I mean I trust him, why wouldn’t it be?” Seungmin replied a little bit confused.

“Things can get complicated Minnie, just make sure you properly talk to him about it if you do end up asking okay?” Felix replied still a hint of concern lacing his voice.

“Will do, but Lix?” Seungmin asked waiting eagerly for the blonde's reply.

“Mhm?” Felix responded softly.

“It’s not a bad idea right?” Seungmin asked hopefully.

“Not at all seungmin, just looking out for you,” he responded a smile evident in his voice.

“Mkay, I’ll text you later,” Seungmin said before hanging up. He pulled the phone down from his ear and placed it on the bed next to him before leaning back onto his pillows and closing his eyes.

Okay, he’d ask Jeongin once he came home. Seungmin picked up his phone again and opened it flicking a small message to Jeongin asking if he’d be home for dinner. 

Jeongin responded almost immediately.

‘yeah, we can get takeout if u want’ it read.

Seungmin responded with a small emoji of a man holding a thumbs-up.

~

A few hours had passed when Seungmin finally heard the door unlock and footsteps made their way down the hallway to his room, a small knock sounded on his door asking for permission to come in.

“Yea?” Seungmin yelled out to Jeongin who opened the door closing it behind him and sitting at the end of his bed.

“Hey,” Jeongin said smiling at Seungmin.

“Hai, what d’you want for dinner, let's order something,” Seungmin asked patting the spot next to him and gesturing for Jeongin to move up.

“I don't mind, maybe Chinese?” Jeongin replied shrugging a bit before moving up to sit next to Seungmin where he’d patted.

“Okay cool, I’ll just get fried rice and a few dumplings?” Seungmin asked leaning over to show Jeongin what he’d picked out on the Uber Eats app.

Jeongin nodded and pulled his phone out of his pocket to transfer some money to Seungmin.

“Okay, done,” Seungmin said before smiling and putting his phone down, he rested his head down on Jeongin’s shoulder inhaling the pricey cologne he used. Jeongin always smelt really good, Seungmin knew he spent a shit ton of money on his Cologne collection shelved nicely in their shared bathroom.

Seungmin’s mind drifted back to the conversation he’d had with Felix earlier and he decided he could probably bring it up now. He took a few deep breaths.

“Hey, innie?” Seungmin asked, he was still nestled in the younger’s shoulder watching him play some stupid cat game on his phone.

Jeongin hummed in question still playing his game, Seungmin gulped.

“Do you think maybe uh,” Seungmin started before Jeongin turned off his phone and tilted his head a little to look at him.

“Is everything okay?” Jeongin asked softly a concerned look making its way to his face.

“Yeah I just have a question, you can say no, and like it won’t mean anything or like, uh-” Seungmin stuttered out, it was apparent he was nervous his hands shook a little.

Jeongin just looked down at him concern still apparent on his face.

“You know how we talked about sex and my date the other day?” Seungmin started.

“Yeah?” Jeongin replied, he noticed Seungmin’s hand shaking a bit and covered it with his own bigger hand to try to comfort him.

“Well, I was thinking and, uh-” Seungmin started before stopping and taking a deep breath, Jeongin just watched him in curiosity.

“Was thinking maybe, would you wanna take my virginity? Y’know like, teach me a bit before it happens for real?” Seungmin asked nervously.

Jeongin appeared frozen, he blinked twice comically and opened his mouth to speak before closing it again. About a minute had passed and boy was Seungmin overthinking now if he wasn’t before, Jeongin was still frozen and Seungmin thought maybe he hadn’t even heard him.

Jeongin took a deep breath before finally responding.

“Are you sure?” He asked in the smallest softest voice, there was a certain look in his dark eyes and Seungmin felt a little intimidated at that moment.

“Yeah, just thought because I trust you and-” Seungmin started before Jeongin interrupted him.

“Seungmin, you’re sure? Isn’t that something you’d wanna save for a lover?” Jeongin asked seriously.

“I’m sure, I haven’t even dated before I’m twenty-four Jeongin, I need to try,” Seungmin replied solemnly.

“I’ll need a night to think about it, if you still want to let me know tomorrow okay?” Jeongin replied warmly.

“So you’ll do it?” Seungmin asked hopefully.

“I said I'll think about it Min,” Jeongin replied before rubbing the back of his hand.

“Okay,” Seungmin replied with a soft smile.

“If I agree, I'll get some stuff tomorrow, wanna make it good for you because you deserve that,” Jeongin replied, his cheeks were a soft pink and he averted any eye contact.

Seungmin’s heart fluttered at the thought of someone like Jeongin who liked it hard and fast being so soft and sweet to him. He knew Jeongin would make it good, he’d thought about it a lot recently, that was normal, right?

It was totally normal to think about your best friend fingering the living daylights out of you right?

Jeongin shifted next to him and yawned before leaning his head down onto Seungmin’s which was still resting on his shoulder.

“Let's go watch something while we wait for the food,” Jeongin said after a beat of silence. Seungmin nodded and sat up, he hopped off the bed Jeongin following closely behind him.

~

Seungmin woke way too early for his liking the next day, he guessed he was anxious. Last night Jeongin had finished his food fast before saying goodnight and heading off to his room, it wasn’t uncommon for Jeongin to do that but it made Seungmin a bit nervous nonetheless.

It was eight in the morning on a Friday and still, the only thing Seungmin could think about was Jeongin. And worst of all it was not in a very innocent way either. 

Seungmin rolled out of bed to put his socks on before opening the door and walking across the hallway to Jeongin’s room, he knocked twice.

Nothing.

Seungmin decided maybe he was still sleeping so he turned the handle opening the door a crack to peek in. And his best friend was absolutely nowhere to be seen.

Jeongin’s curtains were open and his bed was made. Seungmin went to shut the door before stopping noticing a small piece of paper on the ground in front of him with small words on it.

‘Text me’ it read, and Seungmin couldn’t help but chuckle, god was Jeongin always so cryptic?

Seungmin shut the door fully leaving the note where it sat on the floor and walked back to his room to get his phone. He sat back down on his bed and picked up his phone from the floor to open the messenger app.

Jeongin’s account was at the top, it always was, Seungmin didn’t have a reason to text anyone else excluding Felix. He clicked on Jeongin’s icon and contemplated drafting a text before deciding it’d just be easier for him to call him.

Seungmin pressed the call button it rang a few times before Jeongin picked up breathing heavily.

“I said text,” Jeongin said sounding out of breath, Seungmin stayed silent, hearing a very out-of-breath Jeongin did that to him.

“Sorry- you know how I am with texting,” Seungmin replied in a small voice, he didn’t mean to piss him off or interrupt anything.

“It’s okay, I’m at the gym doing some stamina practice, competition season and all,” Jeongin answered his tone softening at Seungmin’s small voice.

“Um so,” Seungmin said nervously knowing Jeongin would know the exact reason for his calling, Jeongin took an audible deep breath through the phone speaker.

“Okay, yeah I know- about last night, I’ll do it, talk later once I’m home?” Jeongin said finally, Seungmin gulped a bit before answering.

“Okay uh- cool, talk later,” Seungmin replied before pressing the hang-up button and flopping back onto his pillows hands covering his face.

Okay, great. Amazing. Epic. He was going to have sex with his best friend. Oh god, he was going to have sex with his best friend.

The weight of the whole situation finally bore on him and oh god wait, did Jeongin mean tonight? Seungmin sat up head spinning a bit before scrambling up and making his way to the bathroom, he’d shave probably, that was what you did right?

Seungmin spent a whole hour in the shower shaving every surface of his body he could reach, he may have gone a bit overboard on the shaving but you could never be too prepared for something like this. It was just experience, a favor.

After fully showering Seungmin hopped out, the cold hitting his body after showering for so long was dizzying, he held the sink for stability while getting dressed into a new set of clothes and leaving the bathroom.

Seungmin walked to the kitchen feeling refreshed before pulling out some cereal from the pantry and milk from the fridge and placing it onto the benchtop. He poured his cereal into a bowl followed by the milk and carried it over to the couch to sit down and eat.

It was weird to think after all these years of being a virgin his best friend and roommate was gonna be the one to take it from him, to be honest, he was more than excited. It was probably wrong to be excited about this sort of situation, it’s not like he was dating Jeongin or anything like that, he couldn’t lie he’d thought about it though.

Seungmin quickly finished his breakfast and placed his bowl on the coffee table to lie down on the couch for a bit, his brain couldn’t help but drift thinking about how it’d be for him. He wondered if Jeongin would be gentle with him, his warm calloused hands all over him. Seungmin shivered a bit, he wouldn’t dwell on it for too long.

Maybe Seungmin was a tad bit touch-starved, the most he’d done was make out with someone at a party when he was just eighteen, god he’d hardly even touched himself let alone anyone else.

Sure, he’d fingered himself a few times, he jacked off a normal amount like a normal twenty-four-year-old would, but someone else touching him like that? Never.

He was restless, fuck this whole thing was getting to him. Seungmin hopped up from the couch picked up his bowl from the table and dumped it in the sink before walking back down the hallway and deciding he would maybe nap on Jeongin’s bed for a bit.

The sun didn’t hit Seungmin’s room this early so sometimes he’d nap on Jeongin’s bed, Jeongin didn’t mind, he always did this. Seungmin opened Jeongin’s door picked up the note still on the ground and shoved it in his pocket before making his way to the bed and flopping down on it.

His bed always smelt so good. Jeongin knew he smelt good, and Seungmin was sure he prided himself on it. He always joked about how Seungmin was like an omega from one of his fantasy novels when it came to how Jeongin smelt. He didn’t really understand what that meant, but whatever.

Seungmin could feel himself drifting off to sleep while holding his phone, so he decided to let the sleep take over.

~

Seungmin woke up to Jeongin rubbing his shoulder softly, he was sitting next to Seungmin now looking down at him fondly. Jeongin’s hair was wet, Seungmin singled in on a drip running down his neck and he blinked sleepily finally making eye contact with him. Jeongin had a dark look in his eyes and he clenched his jaw before pulling his hand off Seungmin’s shoulder.

“Good afternoon sleepyhead, it’s one,” Jeongin said slipping off the bed and pulling his phone out of his pocket.

“Oh- I slept for a while, how was training?” Seungmin said sitting up on his elbow and rubbing his eyes hazily.

“Was good, wanna talk?” Jeongin replied before leaning down putting his phone on charge and slipping back onto the bed next to Seungmin.

Oh god.

“Mhm,” Seungmin said smiling softly.

“Okay, did you still wanna you know-” Jeongin asked before scratching the back of his head sheepishly and looking away.

“Yeah, if that’s okay?” Seungmin replied quietly biting his lip nervously.

“Yep, how do you want me to be?” Jeongin asked a bit more confidently, he looked back up to Seungmin and his eyes drifted down to where Seungmin was biting his lip for a second.

“Um- just patient, gentle maybe,” Seungmin replied quietly looking down at the bed.

“Eyes up here yeah?” Jeongin said shifting closer to Seungmin and lifting his chin softly.

Seungmin took a deep breath before looking up and meeting Jeongin’s dark eyes.

“You can tell me to stop whenever, is now okay for you?” Jeongin asked still looking at Seungmin a shadowy look in his eyes.

Jeongin moved forward toward Seungmin their knees touching slightly, and his hand still sat on Seungmin’s chin.

“We kiss first right?” Seungmin stuttered out his face warming up at the prospect of kissing his best friend.

“I don’t usually kiss during sex but, if you’re getting the full first-time experience, sure,” Jeongin said with a small smirk his eyes singling in on Seungmin’s lips.

Before Seungmin could reply Jeongin had closed the gap between them, his lips moving against his smoothly. Seungmin gasped a bit at the impact before he melted into the sensation and kissed him back, it should not feel this good, holy shit.

Jeongin pulled back to look at Seungmin whose eyes were fluttering softly before moving back in for a more heated kiss, his arms wound around Seungmin’s waist pulling him even closer and Seungmin’s hands flew to his hair.

Jeongin’s hands made their way down Seungmin’s waist and brushed softly over his hip bones and Seungmin gasped and jolted forward a bit practically sitting on his lap now. Jeongin smiled into the kiss before sliding his tongue expertly across Seungmin’s lips and making its way into his mouth.

If Seungmin wasn’t turned on before, he was now. He pushed Jeongin down a bit now fully seated and straddling Jeongin’s waist lips still connecting roughly. Jeongin’s hand slid from his hips to under his shirt finally making contact with Seungmin’s bare waist.

Seungmin muffled a small moan into Jeongin’s mouth as he started rubbing up and down the small of his back, Seungmin didn’t even realize when he was grinding his hips forward until Jeongin pulled back cursing.

“Shit okay, can I take this off?” Jeongin asked breathily, his voice had shifted lower by a few pitches and his eyes met his with hunger. Seungmin nodded and Jeongin wasted no time pulling Seungmin’s shirt up and over his head.

With new-found confidence, Seungmin crashed his lips back into Jeongin’s and his hands found their way to Jeongin’s hair pulling experimentally. Jeongin gasped into Seungmin’s mouth and suddenly pushed Seungmin across and down by the hips, he was on top of Seungmin now.

“So pretty down here,” Jeongin said before reconnecting his lips now to Seungmin’s neck making his way down his collarbones and chest.

“Ah- embarrassing,” Seungmin gasped before trying to cover his face with his hands, Jeongin however was not having that. He grabbed both Seungmin’s hands and pinned his wrists to each side of his head, before having at it on his chest.

“Don’t hide baby, wanna see you when I have my way with you,” Jeongin said in a sultry tone before adjusting his mouth to one of Seungmin’s nipples.

“J-Jeongin-” Seungmin stuttered out at the feeling, his hips jutted forward rolling into Jeongin’s, fuck he was hard, in fact, both of them were now.

Jeongin circled the bud with his tongue before biting it softly, Seungmin let out a small whimper.

“Sensitive poor baby, never had anyone touch you like this but me yeah?” Jeongin said, fuck his mouth was filthy, all Seungmin could do was moan and roll his hips forward again in search of any kind of friction.

Jeongin sat up and pulled off his shirt throwing it somewhere, Seungmin wasn’t paying attention anyway felt too good.

“Hurts,” Seungmin whined his eyes tearing up a little, Jeongin looked down at him darkly his hands coming to his hips.

“What hurts pup, tell me c’mon,” Jeongin replied softly his fingers rubbing small circles into his hips soothingly.

Seungmin blushed a darker pink, averting eye contact further.

”If you don’t ask, you don’t get,” Jeongin said sternly his fingers drifting from Seungmin’s hips to the waistband of his pants.

“Finger me?” Seungmin finally asked softly, his eyes were hooded and his hands still sat placed on each side of his head where Jeongin had left them.

Jeongin didn’t reply just smirked and slowly slipped Seungmin’s pants off, Seungmin lifted his hips to assist, he was just in his boxers now, hard on sitting against the material.

“One-second princess,” Jeongin said before leaning over the side of the bed and rustling around in a plastic bag. He pulled out three different small bottles of lube his face blushing a warm pink.

“Um, I didn’t know which one you’d want so I got all three,” Jeongin said averting his eyes blushing, it was heartwarming that he had put in that much effort for him. Seungmin giggled and looked at each label carefully before picking the one that read ‘vanilla'.

Jeongin dropped the other two onto the floor and sat back down between Seungmin’s now-lifted knees.

“Take these off,” Jeongin said gesturing towards Seungmin’s boxers, he uncapped the lube and squirted a bit on his fingers warming it up. Seungmin pulled his knees to his chest finally squirming out of his boxers and dropping them off the bed with the abandoned lube bottles.

He was fully naked now, everything exposed for Jeongin to see, Jeongin raked his eyes down Seungmin’s body hungrily before smiling and pulling both Seungmin’s knees up and around his waist.

“Okay gonna need you to relax baby, may hurt a little just bear with me yeah?” Jeongin said softly before leaning up to kiss Seungmin, Jeongin’s finger prodded against the rim experimentally pulling a small whine out of Seungmin before slipping his finger in fully.

“Hold my hand?” Seungmin whined quietly, Jeongin leaned forward and intertwined his hand with Seungmin’s stopping to whisper small words of encouragement in his ear as he started stretching him, thrusting his finger slowly. Seungmin was a mess beneath him, he breathed more heavily the deeper Jeongin pushed into him.

“More?” Seungmin said in a small voice, his eyes were watery, mouth ajar. Jeongin smiled and kissed him deeply while slipping a second finger in. Seungmin moaned loudly throwing his head back onto the pillow.

“Such a good boy taking my fingers so well Minnie,” Jeongin cooed into his ear, one hand still holding Seungmin’s the other inside of him. In this position, Seungmin was almost bent in half.

Jeongin scissored him consistently each thrust eliciting a gaspy moan from the older boy, Jeongin pressed his fingers deeply into a particular spot and Seungmin whined loudly cussing softly to himself. Jeongin stored that information for later.

Seungmin never would’ve thought someone’s fingers in him like this would feel so good, especially Jeongin’s they were thick, and long, and fuck he could come like this.

“Innie- enough, ah- need you,” Seungmin whined, Jeongin pulled both fingers out at once, and Seungmin clenched around nothing whining at the loss of being filled.

“God I’ve wanted this for so long,” Jeongin murmured into Seungmin’s neck softly before releasing his hand and finally getting out of his pants and boxers. Seungmin malfunctioned the words playing over and over in his head.

 Wanted. This. For. So. Long. 

Jeongin wanted this? 

Did he want him?

Jeongin realized his mistake noticing the gears turning in Seungmin’s brain and he grimaced a bit looking away.

“How do you want me baby,” Jeongin asked finally, he had rolled on a condom and slicked himself up Seungmin having not even noticed, too lost in his head.

In closer attention Jeongin wasn’t huge, he was big, bigger than Seungmin was. It was still somewhat impressive, Seungmin wished he’d asked for a third finger now, too late.

“Earth to Seungmin?” Jeongin asked waving a hand in front of his face with an amused smile on his face. Fuck was Jeongin always this fucking sexy? He hadn’t even registered how hot he was until now, maybe he did want it hard and fast.

“Wanna see you,” Seungmin replied in a small voice, Jeongin pulled him in by his legs and wrapped them around his waist Jeongin now leaning over him.

“Ready?” Jeongin asked quietly into Seungmin’s ear, his cock resting against his rim.

Seungmin took a deep breath and nodded before looking up at Jeongin pleadingly.

When Jeongin finally pressed in the feeling was indescribable, it was addicting. Seungmin winced a tad as Jeongin slowly pushed in further.

“Hurts,” Seungmin said breathily before squeezing his eyes shut and wrapping both his arms around Jeongin’s shoulders tightly holding onto him.

“I know baby, taking me so well, nearly there,” Jeongin replied, his voice was breathy, and soft adoration sprinkled in his tone. 

After a moment of silence, Jeongin finally pushed in completely. He cussed at the sensation, his breathing was still unsteady.

Seungmin moaned loudly, his head flew back down onto the pillow his bare chest heaving as he tried to maintain composure.

“M-move,” Seungmin said finally after a beat of silence, he still had his arms wound around Jeongin’s shoulders. Jeongin wasted no time with his request, he slowly pulled out and pushed back in roughly eliciting a moan from both of them. Seungmin’s back arched off the bed chasing the pleasure before Jeongin pulled out again to fully press back in deeply.

“Oh- fuck, ah-” Seungmin whined and Jeongin finally got the memo to start thrusting slowly. Small groans left Jeongin’s mouth at each press, sweat dewed on his forehead his hair sticking down to it wetly. Seungmin ground his hips forward chasing the feeling as much as he could, fuck he’d feel him for days.

“You feel so good, Min- fuck-” Jeongin groaned again before capturing Seungmin’s lips on his own and kissing him deeply as his pace fastened. Small whines were pulled out of Seungmin at each deep thrust and Jeongin moved from Seungmin’s lips to his neck slowly kissing down his jugular and sucking harshly a few times.

“M-more innie,” Seungmin gasped, and Jeongin immediately sped up. The sound of skin on skin filled the room and on one intense thrust inwards Seungmin’s hips jolted forward a loud whiny moan leaving his mouth. Jeongin kept hitting that spot with point accuracy breathing hotly into Seungmin’s neck.

“Fuck-” Seungmin moaned out, his hands found their way to Jeongin’s hair pulling tightly, Jeongin let out a soft moan before kissing back up Seungmin’s neck.

Seungmin never would’ve thought sex would feel this good, maybe it was just Jeongin. Fuck he was so close.

“Jeongin- 'm gonna-” Seungmin breathed out, he once again pulled onto Jeongin’s hair tightly as he continued to fuck into Seungmin.

“Untouched baby? Go on then- ah- me too,” Jeongin replied in a sultry tone, he sucked roughly on Seungmin’s collarbone and that was what did it. 

Seungmin whined loudly, his eyes shutting tightly before finally coming all over his stomach. Jeongin wasn’t far behind him eventually taking one final thrust and groaning into Seungmin’s neck as he finished, spilling into the condom.

Jeongin sat up and pulled out slowly earning a small noise from Seungmin, he took off the condom tying in a knot, and dropped it in the plastic bag that was previously holding the lube. He then flopped down onto Seungmin, the pair breathing heavily still coming down from their highs.

Jeongin rolled off Seungmin before pulling the brunette into a soft embrace, Seungmin was still breathing heavily his face resting in the nook of Jeongin’s neck. Jeongin rubbed his back soothingly and Seungmin started crying, sniffling into Jeongin’s neck. It's not that Seungmin felt bad or was in pain or anything he just was a bit overwhelmed at that moment.

Jeongin quickly realized he was crying and he held Seungmin’s face gently pulling it from his neck so he could look at him.

“Shit, are you okay? Did I hurt you? was I too rough?” Jeongin asked worryingly before leaning forward and kissing Seungmin’s cheeks where tears were running down. Seungmin smiled softly before shaking his head.

“No innie it was perfect, just kinda overwhelmed,” Seungmin said looking away shyly. Jeongin’s face softened before pulling him into a tight embrace and leaning down to kiss Seungmin’s head gently. Jeongin whispered small words of comfort and praise into his hair as Seungmin slowly started regaining his bearings.

After a few minutes, both of their breathing had slowed back down to mostly normal, Jeongin pulled away to lean across the bed and grab a small pack of wet wipes from under a pillow.

Jeongin opened the pack and started wiping himself. After he finished he moved back over to Seungmin and began to wipe him off as well, he winced a bit at the overstimulation as Jeongin tried to clean him as gently as possible.

“See? All better right?” Jeongin said putting the pack away and smiling warmly at Seungmin. Seungmin’s heart jumped at the view he was getting right now, Jeongin sitting next to him naked smiling at him. Seungmin gulped, Fuck did he have feelings for Jeongin?

“I’ll cook us dinner?” Jeongin asked softly still smiling at Seungmin.

“Um- I think I might just go and nap in my room, tired,” Seungmin replied quietly putting on his best ‘everything is okay’ smile for Jeongin. Jeongin wasn’t stupid, his smile faltered a bit before nodding.

“Seungmin?” Jeongin asked now averting eye contact with him. Seungmin tilted his head in question beckoning Jeongin to continue.

“It was okay, right? For you?” Jeongin asked softly, his eyebrows were furrowed. He must be nervous.

“Perfect, amazing innie,” Seungmin replied laughing softly before sliding off the bed and putting his clothes back on slowly.

Jeongin’s face softened and he followed pursuit also putting his clothes back on.

“Okay, nap well Min,” Jeongin said smiling warmly at Seungmin before finishing getting dressed and walking out of the room to the kitchen.

The moment Jeongin left the room Seungmin took a long deep breath, okay. Well, that just happened. Seungmin just lost his virginity to his best friend and roommate, oh god. Oh god.

Seungmin left the room and walked directly back to his room shutting the door behind him, he picked up his phone from his bed and opened Google.

‘How do you know if you have a crush on your best friend’

Seungmin looked through the results his heart beating fast. Okay well. Fuck.

He turned off his phone and flopped down on his bed grabbing a small cat plushie to hug, maybe he would nap. Seungmin closed his eyes to try to sleep but all he could think about was Jeongin, the way he looked on top of him, the way his lips felt, the way his fingers felt- oh he was so fucked.

Seungmin sat up annoyed and groaned frustratingly before picking up his phone again to text Felix, it was three in the afternoon now, and surely he’d be online.

‘felix’ 

‘feeeelixx’

Felix replied immediately.

‘whats up?’ 

‘i fucked jeongin and now i think i like him idk what 2 do’

Oh, Felix was calling him now oh god, Seungmin braced for impact as he pressed the answer button.

“Kim seungmin you are fucking stupid,” Felix’s voice rang through the phone loudly, Seungmin couldn't help but laugh at the insanity of the situation he was in right now.

“I didn’t think this would happen he was just so- and I think maybe I've always kinda liked him,” Seungmin blurted out before Felix could continue to slander him anymore.

“I knew this would happen oh my god,” Felix said sighing through the phone, there was a moment of silence before he spoke again.

“Was it good?” Felix asked in a sneaky tone, Seungmin could practically hear his smirk through the call.

“Insanely,” Seungmin murmured back a bit embarrassed, Felix laughed loudly through the phone.

“You’re gonna have to talk to him about it Min,” Felix finally said after a beat of silence, Seungmin took a deep breath before accepting his inevitable fate.

“I know,” Seungmin replied quietly into the phone.

“It’ll be okay, please talk to him, okay?” Felix said warmly.

“Mhm, love you,” Seungmin responded his voice still soft.

“Love you too” Felix replied before Seungmin pressed the hang-up button, now just lying there in silence.

How the fuck was he gonna do this, telling his best friend he has feelings for him? Seungmin sighed to himself thinking about how the conversation would go, he didn’t want any weird feelings he’d just tell him and then they’d both forget about it. Right?

Right. Yeah.

~

Seungmin had not told Jeongin yet. In fact, he’d spent the last day and a half in his room overthinking the whole thing, he avoided Jeongin entirely and was ignoring his texts too. Yet no Jeongin came knocking on his door.

Seungmin hadn't eaten since then, he was too nervous to leave his room in case Jeongin was there, fuck he knew what he was doing was stupid he was being immature he knew that. 

Seungmin guessed he’d see Jeongin, accidentally spill his guts, Jeongin would be mad, and then he’d kick him out and he’d be homeless forever.

God, he was hungry it was six pm the next day and he still hadn’t eaten. Okay, maybe Seungmin would go grab something and then eat it in here.

Seungmin stood up and made his way to the door opening it as quietly as he could and walking down the hallway as stealthily as he could, he made it to the kitchen and opened the pantry.

“Why’re you avoiding me?” Jeongin’s voice said sternly, Seungmin jumped back from the pantry looking over to see Jeongin sitting on the couch his arms crossed, and the TV was off.

Seungmin looked at the ground a bit ashamed, the silence was deafening.

“Seungmin, you’re avoiding me,” Jeongin said again, his voice trembling a bit and Seungmin looked up to see his eyes glassing over. 

Was Jeongin upset?

“Is it cause of what I said- when we- it slipped out I just,” Jeongin stuttered out he looked away and viciously wiped his face.

Huh? What did he say?

Oh

‘God I’ve wanted this for so long’

The seven words rung over and over in his head, fuck wait.

“Jeongin no, oh my god I just um-” Seungmin rushed to say quickly walking over to Jeongin and trying to grab his hand. Jeongin pulled his hand away defensively, and Seungmin winced at the action.

“Jeongin you don’t understand-” Seungmin started to say before getting cut off by Jeongin.

“I think I do- It’s okay, It's just I've liked you so long- I shouldn’t have agreed,” Jeongin rushed to say before shifting away and rubbing his eyes.

What? Jeongin actually liked him?

Seungmin sat there in silence while Jeongin sniffed and tried desperately to stop crying.

“Jeongin,” Seungmin said before moving to sit on the couch next to him.

Jeongin looked at him finally, his eyes were red and watery from crying.

“Innie, I was avoiding you because I realized that I liked you more than a friend should, Felix told me to tell you but I was too scared and-” Seungmin stammered out before Jeongin cut him off.

“Seungmin?” Jeongin asked, he leaned forward cupping Seungmin’s face in his hands. Seungmin didn’t reply just pushed forward to press his lips against Jeongin’s.

Jeongin immediately started kissing back, it was nothing like when they’d first kissed. It was soft and gentle and Seungmin could almost feel the love seeping off Jeongin’s lips and onto his.

Jeongin was the one to pull back first, he was still holding Seungmin’s face a warm smile now plastered across his.

“Don’t go on that date, be mine instead- be my boyfriend, Min,” Jeongin finally said with blushing cheeks. Seungmin smiled and laughed before leaning forward and kissing Jeongin’s cheek softly.

“Thought you’d never ask,” Seungmin replied before leaning in to kiss him again, this time deeply. He crawled into Jeongin’s lap and grabbed Jeongin’s hands from his face to put them around his waist.

Seungmin pulled back.

“Wanna be my second time too?” He said smirking deviously.

“Thought you’d never ask loverboy,” Jeongin replied smirking back, before diving into his neck.