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Kaveh wouldn't say he's 'famous'.

He's garnered quite an audience during his last year of college before graduating, and even something that amassed to a 'fan club' formed just before he graduated. It seems to still be a thing even now.

Since graduating, he's put out some new works, mostly landscape pieces. Sometimes they would hold deeper meaning to them as well. It's part of what made his work stand out more from a sea of artists.

It's funny how initially he'd planned to major in architecture, but during his first year his inspirations completely veered to focusing more on art instead.

What's even more interesting is how people ended up gravitating to him due to his carefree and welcoming personality.

And the fan club well...

Kaveh knew it was mostly women who favored his looks. Some men were even avid fans of his.

In his first contribution to an art show, he'd been surprised to find a small group gathered outside with signs, waiting to see him for an autograph. Ever since that first show, the group seemed to grow more and more to where even an online presence had been established.

Kaveh is on social media of course because it's a necessity in making sure people continuously see his work.

He posts progress pictures, sometimes streams, and occasionally will post personal photos.

There seemed to be a handful of twitter users that created accounts solely to RT'ing his works, photos, and sometimes even posting about his whereabouts.

Yeah that wasn't something he was entirely keen on, but it couldn't be helped given he's a 'minor' celebrity.

One evening after he's had too much wine with his roommate, Alhaitham, and several friends, Tighnari and Cyno, Kaveh is falling into bed with his phone in his hands.

"Here." Alhaitham's voice calls out to him from the doorway, and he tosses a water bottle onto the edge of the bed.

"Hey! I'm not that out of it." Kaveh pouts, still quietly grateful for it though.

It's a fact that Kaveh is the lightweight of their friend group, and Alhaitham more than knows that since they've lived together for nearly six months now.

"Uh huh. I'd rather not have to scoop you up off the bathroom floor again, so if you'd be so kind as to drink most of that before passing out."

Alhaitham has a smile tugging on his lips as he watches Kaveh glare at him, grabbing the bottle to open it and drink a good bit of it.

After he lowers the bottle from his lips, Kaveh can feel a few droplets of water dripping down his chin, and he's fighting off a blush at how Alhaitham doesn't stop staring at him.

"Happy now?" Kaveh asks, putting the cap back on the bottle before wiping at his chin.

"Ecstatic." Alhaitham waves and bids him goodnight as he heads to the other side of apartment to his own room.

Kaveh rolls his eyes, unable to stop a smile as he resumes scrolling through his social media accounts on his phone. Despite how they have their little moments of banter, it has an underlying playful tone, and Kaveh feels well-cared for by Alhaitham.

As a friend...well-cared for as a friend.

Of course, Kaveh wishes it were more than that. He'd ended up living with Alhaitham given his first few months after graduating had been rough for him financially. His art is noteworthy, but that doesn't always amount to people being willing to pay for it.

Luckily things started to level out for him, but some months are still iffy enough that Kaveh doesn't feel he can move out on his own yet.

Kaveh sighs while looking over Alhaitham's twitter. He sees a photo of himself with Tighnari and Cyno that had been taken last week. It's normal for Alhaitham to not post very often since he didn't seem to care much for social media. Books were usually his preference in terms of a pastime.

After spending some time in his moments of pining, Kaveh does what he normally does once every few weeks - he starts to scour through the fan accounts.

Everything seems normal enough. Some gushing over his latest art piece, the hype over Kaveh attending another art show within the month, and then--

Kaveh has to do a double take. He clicks on what must've been fan art, and seeing the full scale of it has Kaveh raising a hand to his mouth.

He's shocked. Absolutely shocked.

It's a drawing of...himself and Alhaitham.

ALHAITHAM?!

They're...they're seated kind of how they were in the initial picture, but instead of just smiling at the camera, Kaveh is leaning in to kiss Alhaitham's cheek while resting his hand along his chest.

barbatos420: I'm LIVING for this!!! The pictures of them lately have made me lose my MIND - I HAD TO DRAW SOMETHING!!!!

charont1s: omfg ❤❤ I'm so happy I wasn't the only one shipping this!!

pavo_noctua: agreed - dare you to really go for it 🔞🔥🔥

divinaaa: aha - I wonder if @iamhath will draw inspiration from this? ❤

Kaveh's biting his lip as he scrolls through barbatos420's twitter more, seeing how they've been raving over what was some pictures of Kaveh and Alhaitham from last month and then a few weeks ago.

Just as Kaveh goes back to open the fan art again, he's blushing intensely, and he sees how a new comment had been added in those minutes he left the image.

iamhath: seems like we're elevating the reader insert fics, maybe I'll make a poll for it?

charont1s: my answer is yes but FUCK YA RUN A POLL!!!

A poll?? For what???

Kaveh taps over to open this 'iamhath's' twitter. He discovers they're a fanfic writer, and Kaveh starts down a huge rabbit hole.

Apparently 'iamhath' has written many reader insert fics involving Kaveh, some as far back as last year. It seems like he's an established name in the 'Kaveh fandom'. Reading some of the summaries too are enough to have Kaveh blushing. This person didn't hold back in terms of what they envisioned with Kaveh.

Seeing something like this should be strange. It should put Kaveh off, right?

He's oddly flattered though? Maybe because he's never felt good enough for most of his life so...feeling like he's worthwhile on some level is a new kind of feeling he's not accustomed to.

The art with Alhaitham too is definitely odd. Granted, if it were literally any of his other friends that he'd been drawn with in such an intimate way, Kaveh would ignore it and try to act like he'd never seen it but...

Kaveh couldn't stop thinking about it.

He gives into temptation too and starts reading some of these fanfics.

It's nearly two hours later after he's read a handful of one-shots that he realizes how late it is. Seeing it's nearing 1am, Kaveh's managed to finish off the rest of his water and is feeling quite sober.

He's also a little turned on.

As he scrolls through 'iamhath's twitter again, he's undeniably curious to maybe investigate all of this some more. He also...kind of wants to see if this person will write a fanfic about himself and Alhaitham.

There's been a poll posted for at least an hour, one that is asking if iamhath should write a fic with Kaveh and Alhaitham.

Kaveh hits 'yes' without hesitation, and the results are already in huge favor of it happening.

It's now that Kaveh makes what will probably amount to an absolutely stupid decision later on. He's completely sober so he's completely without an excuse for it too.

He starts setting up a dummy account on twitter. After making a throwaway email to do so, he picks a random picture of one of his favorite video game characters as an icon and starts writing out a few general lines in his bio.

'I go by paradisaea, 26 yrs, big fan of kaveh!!'

That seemed acceptable enough, right?

After this, Kaveh makes a bold move of going over to iamhath's poll to comment on it.

paradisaea: I'd love to draw something for this if you do write about it 😊

Kaveh's heart is racing as he posts the comment. Surprisingly enough, he barely has to kill time for an entire minute before he receives a notification on his comment.

iamhath: tempting 😏 you want to do a collab piece?

paradisaea: Yes!! That would be fun 😊 ✨

iamhath: seems like the masses want these two to fuck, so I'll DM you

Seeing how quickly Kaveh is being pulled into the fold, he finds his heart is racing even more whenever iamhath does indeed DM him.

iamhath: hey, you new to the fan base?

paradisaea: yeah! I've been a fan of his for a while, but I finally decided to start contributing

iamhath: happy to have you
iamhath: so you draw?

paradisaea: I do when I have free time
paradisaea: when do you think you'll write your fic?

iamhath: I might be able to within the next day or so

paradisaea: that soon?!

iamhath: yes 🤔 I'm feeling quite passionate about this
iamhath: what if I send you the fic to proof-read in advance and you can draw something then too?
iamhath: I can include it on the fic when I post it

Kaveh thinks it over. He doesn't have too much to do besides working on a new piece which he's already halfway done working on.

paradisaea: I can probably do that!

iamhath: great
iamhath: usually cypress does collabs with me, but they've been busy lately

Seeing that name has Kaveh backtracking to see who iamhath is referring to. It's another artist who hasn't updated anything on their twitter for over a week. Their art is mostly of Kaveh, and he does seem fairly skilled.

paradisaea: I know literally no one 😅
paradisaea: but their art is definitely great! I can see why you collab with them

iamhath: they're awesome, I'm sure you'll get along
iamhath: it's late for me though so I should probably get to bed
iamhath: I'll be in touch soon about the fic 👋🏻

paradisaea: oh yeah of course! talk soon 😊

After the conversation ends, Kaveh feels a strange mix of excitement and then exhaustion.

Fuck how had he stayed up until almost 2am?

He puts his phone on charge before finally managing to curl up under the sheets and fall asleep.

It's approaching noon the next day when Kaveh manages to drag himself out of bed.

He yawns loudly while stumbling out into common area, finding Alhaitham is already seated at his desk in the study just across from the kitchen. He's got a stack of papers near him and appears to be concentrating on whatever he's working on.

"Nice to see you joining the land of the living. I was starting to worry I'd have to come in there myself." Alhaitham says as the sound of his typing doesn't cease even then.

Kaveh waves him off as he enters the kitchen to try and start preparing himself a very strong cup of coffee with espresso.

"Shut up." He preps a mug and the espresso machine before talking again. "You do know it's Saturday right? Why are you working?"

"Because I needed to kill time until you woke up." Alhaitham states plainly.

"What do you need me for?" Kaveh asks.

"Did you already forget?" After Alhaitham finishes typing out a few more paragraphs, he pauses and looks over at Kaveh who is quite disheveled. "You wanted to go out today so you can start looking for an outfit to wear to the art show."

Kaveh balks at that. He did completely forget. With how scatter-brained he can be at times, he's thankful Alhaitham always seems to have things together enough between the two of them. Kaveh would probably fall apart without him.

"I did forget. Let me see if this coffee does anything, and if not, I need another coffee before we go shopping."

"I figured as much. I'll be finished with this by the time you get dressed."

Knowing he'll get to spend the afternoon with Alhaitham has Kaveh feeling mildly more awake and ready for the day at least. He grabs his mediocre coffee to take back to his room so that he can start get dressed for what is most definitely not a date.

After their shopping trip, Kaveh returns to the apartment alone given Alhaitham said he had to stop by the publishing firm for a bit.

Kaveh hated coming back to an empty apartment and already missed Alhaitham, but luckily he's able to rely on his newfound pastime as a distraction.

He lays back in bed, pulling up his secret account. The second he logs on, he already sees how iamhath has messaged him not too long ago.

iamhath: hey
iamhath: I finished the draft if you want to read over it

paradisaea: that was fast!!
paradisaea: I've got some time now, how do you want to send it to me?

iamhath: do you have discord?

Realizing now that Kaveh is going to have to add another layer to his lies, he downloads discord on his phone to set up an account there too. Afterward he sends his info to iamhath, and within minutes he's received the draft.

iamhath: let me know what you think 👍🏻

title: all I see is you
author: iamhath

There are too many people at this party.

Alhaitham finds he can't stand how many people want to talk to him, much less to his date. Of course, it's not like Alhaitham can blame any of them since Kaveh is captivating, especially tonight.

He's dressed in a loose blouse that's accented in a way to compliment his features. His tight pants show every sensual curve on Kaveh's lithe body too.

Every time Kaveh looks up at him, Alhaitham is distracted, losing himself in those pretty those carmine eyes.

"What's up with you?" Kaveh asks with a soft laugh. "You've had this faraway look for hours."

"I can't stop staring at you."

Hearing how forwardly Alhaitham confesses this has a blush forming on Kaveh's cheeks.

"Well aren't you being cute." Kaveh bites his lower lip before scooting closer to Alhaitham.

He grips onto Alhaitham's collar, just enough to lean up and press a soft kiss on his cheek. Although that gives Alhaitham the perfect opening to meet him halfway, turning to find Kaveh's lips for a proper kiss.

"I'd say you're much cuter." Alhaitham whispers afterward, staring at him closely. Seeing how that blush darkens on Kaveh's cheeks emboldens Alhaitham to move and speak near Kaveh's ear. "You'd be even cuter naked underneath me and stuffed full of my cock."

Kaveh's fingers tighten their hold on Alhaitham's shirt upon hearing that.

"Y-Yeah?" He exhales a shuddering breath. "Why don't we go home and find out?"

The way Alhaitham chuckles lowly against Kaveh's ear is enough to have Kaveh far too eager for it to happen.

- 🌱🏛 -

Less than an hour later, their impatience got to be unbearable, and Kaveh's writhing and pushing against the tip of Alhaitham's cock that's dragging between his ass cheeks. It's all to tease him since Alhaitham loves getting him so riled up to the point of him begging like a whore.

"H-Haitham please - just fuck me-" Kaveh whines, more lines of wetness dripping down past his balls to cover Alhaitham's cock.

"I love how you beg for me though." Alhaitham admits while groping harder on Kaveh's ass, dragging him closer to finally start pressing into his tight hole.

The feeling of being slowly split open, having that thick cock push and push until it's buried to the hilt, all of it has Kaveh panting and gripping at the sheets. He's staring up at Alhaitham with such need, even more whenever Alhaitham starts to lose restraint in the rhythm that builds, those obscene sounds growing louder with each thrust.

"H-Hah -- t-there - fuck t-that's good--" Kaveh's words are broken with pathetic moans, his cock smearing more pre-cum over his belly as Alhaitham fucks him harder. "Love your cock-!"

He's babbling more the longer Alhaitham grinds in roughly, right on that perfect spot, determined to break him apart until he's a cum-soaked mess.

"I love how you look being fucked open like this - want your hole full of my cum too-"

Alhaitham makes his own filthy confession, and soon he's fucking Kaveh so intensely that Kaveh arches up from the sheets, a broken cry passing his lips as he comes untouched all over himself.

Seeing Kaveh so desperate and still pleading for more has Alhaitham unable to deny him. He shoves in hard, wanting Kaveh to feel how his cock throbs and fills him with waves of cum until it's leaking out of his hole.

Alhaitham leans in close to press his forehead to Kaveh's own, stealing hot, breathless kisses from his lips as he reaches a hand down between them to stroke over Kaveh's cock, pulling more pitiful moans from him as the last spurts of cum cover Alhaitham's hand.

"Is it bad that I already want more?" Kaveh whispers in those half-kisses.

"Never." Alhaitham whispers back, kissing him over and over to leave him breathless all over again.

- 🌱🏛 -

By the time Kaveh finally finishes reading the story, he's sitting with his face covering his hands out of sheer embarrassment.

And fuck he's never been so hard in his entire life.

Not even normal had gotten him this hard before, much less any of his past boyfriends. Somehow this...this story was so insightful. It got their characterization damn-near perfect, although of course, Kaveh can't completely speak to how Alhaitham might act while being in a relationship with someone but still.

It'd been more than enough to have Kaveh aching for it to be real.

paradisaea: oh my god this is so incredible
paradisaea: I'm speechless

iamhath: yeah? obviously I don't know either of them for real so I worry about characterization
iamhath: but it's encouraging hearing that 😉

paradisaea: yeah I'm just 😳
paradisaea: sorry still gathering my thoughts

iamhath: haha, don't tell me
iamhath: did it turn you on?

paradisaea: !!!!!
paradisaea: don't say it!
paradisaea: I mean maybe??

iamhath: it's ok, I get that a lot

Kaveh bites his lip and buries his face in his pillow. He can't overthink this.

iamhath is not Alhaitham. He can't project his fantasies like that. It's too much of a dangerous path to tread.

paradisaea: 😩 well anyways, I'll work on something for this
paradisaea: can you give me at least two days?

iamhath: yup
iamhath: I'm good whenever so just let me know when you've got it done

paradisaea: 🫡
paradisaea: I will do my best to make it as horny as yours

iamhath: I believe in you 😏

Their conversation ends shortly after that, and Kaveh hates how he can't stop himself from jerking off to filthy thoughts of Alhaitham.

Kaveh rapidly discovers that the instant gratification of posting his work online like this is...nice.

It's more than nice honestly. He can see why people get addicted to this sort of thing.

Usually when he releases an art piece, it's withheld for months or longer before the public sees it, so that time period of waiting without any real feedback can be extremely nerve-wracking and sometimes even discouraging.

barbatos420: ohmygooood, you're so amazing senpai!!! 😭❤

thomatobabey: THIS IS SO INCREDIBLE I'M SWEATING

The most important person's input though comes from iamhath. Whenever Kaveh sees their response, his heart flutters.

iamhath: you captured everything so perfectly, we should do this again ❤

Kaveh blushes and immediately starts to type out a response.

paradisaea: @iamhath I'd love to!! ❤

pavo_noctua: how cute, you two match each other

charont1s: heyyy don't forget @cypress too!!
charont1s: oooh ot3!!!! 🫶🏻

Seeing the insertion of the person iamhath previously collaborated with has an uncomfortable feeling settling in Kaveh. Not necessarily annoyance...but maybe a little jealous?

He felt like his collab with iamhath was completely on-point and that everything they did just felt right. Having someone else included like this leaves a bad taste in Kaveh's mouth, but he has to be nice.

paradisaea: haha maybe? I don't know if @iamhath likes to share though 😉

iamhath: I guess we'll have to wait and see 😉

Kaveh frowns. That's not enough reassurance for him. Then again this is someone he only just started talking to a week ago, and regardless of how frequently they talked, Kaveh couldn't consider them even an acquaintance.

Deciding to do something else to brighten his spirits again, Kaveh instead makes an announcement that he's going to stream tomorrow night!

Even in just this past week alone, he's gotten a couple hundred followers, all thanks to his interactions with some of the community.

Which is weird since this is a community about him but - whatever!

paradisaea: Hello, I'll be holding my first art stream tomorrow at 6pm! Hope you join and see what cute #haikaveh things I end up drawing!

After posting the status, it's not even five minutes later that he receives a notification from discord.

iamhath: you're streaming tomorrow?
iamhath: do I get any special inside knowledge on what you'll draw?

paradisaea: depends, what do I get out of it?

Kaveh giggles as he waits for a response.

iamhath: what're you after?
iamhath: more porn?

paradisaea: I'll never say no to porn
paradisaea: but that's not all I'm about!!

iamhath: oh yeah? what else can I offer then hm...what about 1 date?

Seeing the question has Kaveh pausing to think long and hard about this.

Meeting any of these people who are his fans, albeit some a little too intense, is probably a bad idea. He can't deny that iamhath has grabbed his attention quite a bit though, not to mention his stories that are far too easy to imagine being real.

But -- Kaveh knows literally nothing about this person. They could be too young, too old, an absolute creep, dangerous, or well just all around not his type in person.

He sighs and flips back over to his normal text messages, seeing his last thread with Alhaitham. His heart hurts reading it.

Kaveh:

Will you be home soon?

Alhaitham:

I'll be home late so you can make dinner without me

Kaveh:

I was gonna make your favorite tonight!!

It'd been nearly two hours since that last message, and Alhaitham had yet to reply. Seeing as it's nearing 7pm, Kaveh is about to roll out of bed to make dinner, but he works up the courage to respond to iamhath.

paradisaea: keep impressing me and maybe we can go out 😉

iamhath: such a tease
iamhath: fine then, do I still get my hint?

Kaveh rolls his eyes and goes into the kitchen. He decides to ponder on what he's going to draw while cooking dinner.

paradisaea: if I tell you a kink I want you to include in your next fic and you promise to write it then yes

iamhath: deal

Surprisingly enough, the next morning Kaveh awakens to find the unexpected waiting for him.

Alhaitham has just returned home carrying a few bags containing what must be some type of breakfast along with two very large coffees.

"What's all this about?" Kaveh asks, rubbing his eyes as he walks over to their small dining room table.

"Well I wanted to make up for missing dinner last night."

Seeing Alhaitham start to pull out multiple trays of crepes and various sides is enough to make Kaveh blush.

"You didn't have to do that. Really, I know you have to work late sometimes."

"Yeah well, I did it." Alhaitham takes one of the coffee cups to hand to Kaveh after finishing with the bags. "I got your favorite latte too."

"Thank you." Kaveh mumbles along the rim of the cup, taking a sip of the hot beverage.

They sit down after that to enjoy their meal. At first they talk about mindless things, what they've been up to with work, and at one point Kaveh ends up shifting his legs to have his foot brush along Kaveh's ankle.

"Sorry." A blush shows on his cheeks as he sees Alhaitham smile.

"It's fine. I think we're used to touching each other by now, aren't we?"

"Oh shush." As Kaveh glances at his phone to see he's got several notifications on his secret account, he remembers he has to stream tonight. "What're your plans for today?"

"I've got some work to finish after this. Otherwise I have plans with someone later."

Hearing this has Kaveh raising a brow. He locks his phone and rests his head on his hand.

"Plans? You're never this cryptic, don't tell me it's a date?"

Alhaitham shrugs. "Maybe."

Maybe?

Kaveh's internally freaking out.

They've lived together for six months, and yes he's seen Alhaitham to go out with a few people during that time but they usually ended up amounting to nothing. That doesn't mean it didn't hurt knowing and seeing it happen.

"Oh well, good luck if it is I guess." Kaveh tries to keep his tone casual to show his support.

"Thanks. What about you?"

It's now Kaveh's turn to flounder again. He can't really come right out and say -- 'yeah I'm going to be drawing hardcore porn of us later on to a group of strangers!!'

"Um well, I have plans too! Mostly boring art stuff, nothing you'd be interested in." Kaveh laughs it off, trying to also keep his intentions vague.

Alhaitham watches him, taking in his flushed cheeks, but he seems to accept the answer well enough.

"I'm always interested in what you're doing, but that's fine. Maybe next time I'll tag along for your 'boring art stuff'."

The suggestion has Kaveh nearly choking on his food, and Alhaitham has to drop everything to come over and help him not die in such an embarrassing way.

Later that night Kaveh is preparing for his first live stream.

He's set-up in such a way to make sure there's nothing recognizable or incriminating in the frame of what his viewers would be able to see so that's good. Made sure all jewelry is off and wearing a generic, red hoodie with sweatpants.

Everything seems good.

Whenever the stream starts, he finds it's already fairly packed with at least thirty people waiting.

paradisaea: hey everyone! I'm going to start drawing in a second!
paradisaea: I've never streamed like this before so - tips are appreciated but there's no obligation for them <heart hands>

It's after that whenever Kaveh starts to draw the initial lines of his piece. 

charont1s: yaaaasss I can already tell this is gonna be 🔥

* Tip received from pavo_noctua for 3,000 Mora *

Kaveh's working intently, glancing at the chat at times, unable to stop himself from laughing at some of the comments. He's muted of course so no one can hear him, but sometimes he pauses to type out a response or keyboard smash.

paradisaea: 😉 we're getting there

Thus far he's drawn the line-art for Alhaitham cornering Kaveh against the wall. Alhaitham is fully clothed in a suit with Kaveh wearing a sheer dress that's hiked up to reveal lace panties.

* Tip received from divinaaa for 5,000 Mora *

iamhath: look at you go

cypress: I'm intrigued

Seeing that name - cypress - for the first time in any sort of community interaction in real-time has Kaveh momentarily forgetting what he's doing. He stares at the chat, seeing how it lights up with so many people talking to them.

barbatos420: AHHHH my og senpai!!!

charont1s: FINALLY MY OT3 DREAMS CAN BE REAL
charont1s: I MISS YOU AND IAMHATH TOO, UGH SO SEXY

iamhath: @cypress finally back from the dead eh?

cypress: @iamhath I know you missed me so much so yes 😉

Kaveh frowns while fucking up a detail and having to actively erase it to correct it. He's getting too distracted reading all this.

It feels like whoever this cypress person is crashing his stream is stealing all the attention. Not that Kaveh needs attention on him, he'd been doing this for fun, and as a stupidly weird way of channeling his feelings for Alhaitham instead of just wallowing in them.

cypress: it's nice to see some new work out there @paradisaea

Seeing the purposeful call out to him, Kaveh taps his stylus on the side of the screen before reaching over to reply.

paradisaea: I love your work too!
paradisaea: thank you for stopping by ❤

Kaveh grumbles to himself while resuming his drawing. He decides to actively ignore the chat now in favor of finishing what he can without screwing it up too much.

Whenever he gets to drawing some of the more porny bits, he hears a loud chime, and a tip has just come through.

* Tip received from iamhath for 50,000 Mora *

iamhath: I want the panties and Alhaitham's hand covered in Kaveh's cum

Seeing this number has Kaveh staring in disbelief as he sees the chat blowing up over it too.

barbatos420: OMFGGGGGG @iamhath YOU'RE MAKING US ALL LOOK BAD

divinaaa: I wish I could horny tip that much 😩

cypress: 🤔 @iamhath you've never even tipped me that much

Having cypress confess to that has Kaveh smirking. He feels a bit better now despite the shock that is definitely still lingering. Kaveh giggles and quickly responds.

paradisaea: just for you ❤

iamhath: lucky me ❤

By the end of the stream, Kaveh's drawn a fully colored piece of art with Kaveh pressed up against the wall, the thin dress on his body shoved up enough to expose a pair of black, lace panties that barely cover his cock and are thoroughly ruined with cum. He's visibly blushing and panting from the way Alhaitham jerked him off.

The cum drips down Alhaitham's long, elegant fingers, and Kaveh's reaching a hand down to start undoing Alhaitham's pants that are barely hiding how hard his cock is.

Seeming pleased, Kaveh draws a heart on the screen at the end before showing a peace sign as well. He ends the stream shortly after that.

As he saves the file, he quickly watermarks it and uploads it to his secret twitter account to let it start circulating through the ship tag.

His phone is blowing up after that, and he manages to pull himself away to go grab a soda before opening discord to see iamhath sent him something too.

iamhath: you did great
iamhath: I might have to personally commission you for something soon

paradisaea: thank you ❤
paradisaea: you don't have to do that!! honestly you didn't even have to tip me that much for me to draw that for you

iamhath: it's okay, I wanted to

paradisaea: isn't it funny that we're making porn for each other?

iamhath: mmm maybe? do you use it?

paradisaea: I mean in what way?? like I obviously read it

iamhath: do you touch yourself because of it?

paradisaea: ...maybe
paradisaea: do you?

iamhath: of course

paradisaea: and you think about kaveh while you do it?

iamhath: always
iamhath: don't you?

paradisaea: of course!!!

Kaveh realizes he needs to nope out of this conversation immediately. It's entering a strange territory he's not ready for.

paradisaea: well anyways, that really tired me out so I'm going to log off for the night
paradisaea: ❤

iamhath: talk soon ❤

Kaveh isn't sure what to think anymore.

He seen Alhaitham less and less in the past week. With the show being days away now too, that looming stress is becoming unbearable.

Relying on this secret outlet of drawing porn and reading fics about things that would never happen has helped, but it's also starting to take a toll on his mental health. Not to mention the confusing feelings for iamhath and Alhaitham haven't stopped plaguing him either.

It's weird because...if he had to envision Alhaitham in this type of setting, iamhath seems like a near-perfect example of him. Kaveh knows that's impossible though. There's no way in hell Alhaitham would ever do something like this.

He'd probably hate Kaveh too if he found out what Kaveh has been living in this land of fucked up make-believe for nearly a month.

Kaveh's been trying not to project his unerring love for Alhaitham onto iamhath, but it's started becoming difficult to differentiate the two. The idea of a date has weighed more heavily on his mind, and he's been trying to ask more personal questions to really figure out if it'd be a true possibility.

He really needs to start finding a way to move on from Alhaitham after all.

iamhath: I'm between the ages of 20 and 30, male, and yes I live in Sumeru

paradisaea: good! I can say the same for me on all fronts

iamhath: and no I'm not married, I'm single, and I'm gay

paradisaea: me too! 😊

Well the general questions being answered had been a start. Kaveh chews on his lower lip while looking up from his phone to see the bartender has placed a fresh, mixed drink in front of him. 

Kaveh takes the blue beverage and drinks half of it within mere seconds.

"Woah slow down. I swear you drink these things like they're nothing." Tighnari orders another drink for himself after that.

"You can't get drunk this early, we literally just got here." Cyno adds on.

"I can make my own bad choices!" Kaveh whines and lays his head on the bar.

Tighnari and Cyno exchange looks.

"What's wrong?"

Hearing Cyno's question prompts Kaveh to grab his drink, and the three of them move back over to one of the booths they'd managed to secure earlier.

The club is naturally loud, and people are still coming in since it's only 9pm. Just as Kaveh is about to divulge his stressors, Alhaitham suddenly arrives and slides in next to him.

"Sorry I'm late, the train was delayed." Alhaitham grabs a shot of vodka off the tray that's sitting in the middle of the table.

They'd ordered a few rounds of them since constantly going to bar got annoying once more people showed up.

"No problem, Kaveh was just about to start telling us his latest woes." Tighnari prompts his friend again.

Seeing as he's going to have to keep his words as vague as possible, and now having Alhaitham here to listen as well...Kaveh grabs a shot to quickly down before launching into his explanation.

"So like okay -- I've been talking to this guy for a month. We haven't gone out yet or anything though."

"Where did you meet him?" Cyno asks with a raised brow.

"Ahaha - erm - online."

There's a minor debate that happens after this about online dating and being safe and blah blah blah. Finally though, they're able to get back on track.

"Anyways, it's been weird. Part of me wants to meet him, but another part of me just..." Kaveh trails off, daring to glance around the table until he looks at Alhaitham.

Seeing those teal eyes intently watching him has Kaveh biting his lower lip out of nervousness.

"Well it's been a while since you went out with anyone, right? It's natural to be a little anxious about it." Tighnari says out of reassurance.

"I guess so." Kaveh sighs and lays his head back against the booth.

"What do you know about him?" Alhaitham asks.

"Not much, I mean, we have similar interests. He's around my age and seems normal enough." Kaveh does his best to explain but keeps it vague.

"I say go for it! As long as you're in a public place and we know where you are, what's the worst that could happen?" Cyno finally seems to give the group's opinion, and that has Kaveh mildly satisfied enough to let the topic die off for now.

It's certainly strange though. After Tighnari and Cyno leave to go dance, Kaveh can't help but feel as if there's a tension between himself and Alhaitham.

"I haven't seen you in a while so, how was your date from last week?" Kaveh asks as the alcohol gives him some courage.

Alhaitham has to take a moment to think about it as he shrugs and finishes off his own drink.

"Was fine. We're still in touch, and I might see them again."

"Yeah? When do I get to meet them?" Kaveh drags his fingers along the rim of his empty glass before shifting in the booth.

He faces Alhaitham more, causing his knee to press up against Alhaitham's thigh.

"You want to give your seal of approval?" Alhaitham asks with a coy smile.

"Something like that." After Kaveh says this, he sees the way Alhaitham doesn't shy away from his touch. In fact, he reaches out to tuck a strand of blond hair behind Kaveh's ear.

"It's cute how you worry."

Kaveh blushes darkly. "C-Cute?"

"Yeah, you've always been that way."

With his heart racing, Kaveh blushes even more, and he reaches out to gently shove Alhaitham's shoulder.

"Whatever. It's not like I'm ever going to stop caring about you." Kaveh mumbles and looks away.

"I don't want you to." Alhaitham stares at him, seeing those carmine eyes meeting his gaze once more.

"What will you give me then so I don't stop?"

Kaveh's words are much softer than before, a strange surge of anticipation causing him to impulsively run his hand along Alhaitham's arm.

Alhaitham glances at his hand before reaching over to lightly cover it with his own.

"Well..."

The sudden rush of footsteps and Cyno calling for them seems to break the spell. They're both dropping their hands and seeing how their friends hastily approach the booth.

"Come on!! You two better get out here before it gets too crowded!" Tighnari grabs Alhaitham's arm to pull him out of the booth.

Kaveh tries not to feel too crestfallen, although having Alhaitham grab his hand and pull him along too does make him feel a little better.

paradisaea: so you'd say you're 'kaveh-sexual'?

iamhath: most definitely
iamhath: what about you?

paradisaea: I mean I'm, maybe kind of also alhaitham-sexual lately?

Kaveh feels a little bad admitting to that given this is a fandom devoted to Kaveh, but luckily iamhath doesn't seem to judge him for it.

iamhath: is that right?
iamhath: well here, I just posted something we can both enjoy

paradisaea: !!!!!!

Kaveh's quickly clicking on the link that iamhath sent over for his latest fic.

good for me
author: iamhath

"Did you do as I asked?"

Alhaitham sits back in his seat, watching intently at the way Kaveh stands before him. As Kaveh nods, he slowly slides off the straps of his dress, letting it fall in a pile on the floor. The high heels still on his feet echo until he's standing mere inches from Alhaitham.

"See? Wasn't I good?" Kaveh reaches out to take Alhaitham's hand, pressing it along the top of his chest to graze over his nipples. He then lets it descend in a steady path to reach the top of the lace panties on his hips.

The lace is already wet with pre-cum as Alhaitham takes control now by pushing his hand inside, lightly gripping over Kaveh's bare cock to watch how his lips part with a faint moan.

"So far yes." Alhaitham pulls him closer by grabbing Kaveh's ass with his free hand and pushes into the back of his panties as well to drag his fingertips along his hole.

Feeling how it's already slick and gaping has Alhaitham humming in approval.

"Tell me what you want."

Alhaitham's gaze is as commanding as his words, and Kaveh shivers from it.

"I want daddy's cock." Kaveh says, words trailing off with such need.

He starts to straddle Alhaitham's lap from that look alone as well, and soon he's loosening Alhaitham's dress pants to free his cock.

"What a good boy, I love when you're such a cock-slut just for me."

Kaveh lets out a breathy whine of need as Alhaitham lets Kaveh stroke over his cock a few times to smear pre-cum up and down the length of it. Afterward Alhaitham keeps the lace pulled aside to expose his hole, and Kaveh easily aligns himself.

He's gasping as he's filled, seated perfectly on Alhaitham's thick cock. Alhaitham groans at how tight Kaveh is around him, practically enticing him to fuck him hard. And so, Alhaitham does just that.

"A-Am I being good?" Kaveh whines as he bounces on Alhaitham's lap, riding his cock at that fast, rough pace he set. "Tell me I am daddy please-"

Alhaitham gropes on Kaveh's ass, thrusting up into him intently to fuck over that blissful spot as a way of rewarding him. He eats up how Kaveh gasps over his mouth, seeing how obscenely his hole is spread open around his cock.

"Very good. I'll make sure you're nice and full of cum, but only after you give me yours first."

The underlying command has Kaveh moving to obey. He grips onto his slick cock, wetness dragging along his fingers as more broken moans are fucked out of him. It only takes Alhaitham rutting into hard and speaking more filth along his lips to have Kaveh streaking cum over his hand and dripping down his wrist.

As Kaveh whines and is fucked through his release, he's writhing on Alhaitham's lap, and Alhaitham drags Kaveh down over his cock, feeling how tight he is around him as he fills his hole with hot cum.

Kaveh's breaths catch even more when Alhaitham's cum fills him so much it drips from his hole, and the shallow thrusts Alhaitham purposefully makes with each throb of his cock has Kaveh whimpering so pathetically.

"D-Daddy, I want - all of it-" Within his breathless moans Kaveh says this, and he's shivering from how Alhaitham's cock throbs with more spurts of cum smearing inside his hole.

It's as Kaveh's gaze drags down to the last lines of the fic that he notices a picture included.

Attached at the end is a fully colored piece with Kaveh sitting on Alhaitham's lap, the black, lace panties covered in cum from how Alhaitham fucked him open and remained shoved inside to give him a creampie.

author's notes: thanks to paradisaea on twit for the kink request and cypress for collaborating with me on the art!

Suddenly Kaveh's mood plummets from absolutely thrilled to confused and hurt.

Why did iamhath go to cypress for these drawings?? Why wouldn't he have Kaveh do it since he's the one who wanted this kink to begin with?!

iamhath: thoughts?

paradisaea: it was great, you always write the best fics 👍🏻

Kaveh isn't even sure what else to say beyond that. Nothing but negative feelings weigh on him, and he doesn't want to admit that most of them are jealousy.

iamhath: I thought you'd be more excited? I wrote it just for you

paradisaea: yeah I am, I mean thank you

iamhath: what's wrong?

paradisaea: nothing, it's stupid
paradisaea: I'm not feeling well, so I'm gonna log off

Meanwhile, cypress has since posted the art piece on his own twitter and tagged iamhath in it.

@iamhath's latest fic has me thirsting so much, we collab'd together again because they know just what I like ❤

It's exactly 48 hours now until the art show, and Kaveh doesn't want to even get out of bed today.

How fucking stupid is it of him to be depressed over this kind of bullshit? None of it matters after all.

Kaveh doesn't even think he should bother checking any of his accounts given it'll probably just make him feel worse.

He sees his phone lighting up though, and it has him reaching over to grab it.

Alhaitham:

Did you ever decide on what to wear?

Kaveh whines and shoves his face into his pillow. Fuck. He forgot that he never actually found anything he liked enough to wear to the show.

Yes he found some outfits he liked for everyday use, but nothing nice enough to wear out to an important event.

Kaveh:

No, I'm a fucking disaster

Alhaitham:

Is everything ok?

Kaveh can't bring himself to reply. Instead he pushes his phone away and curls up in his fluffy comforter again.

Although he only manages to do that for another five minutes before Alhaitham is busting into his room to pull the comforter off him.

"Get up."

A disgruntled noise of protest comes from Kaveh as he tries to grab another blanket nearby, but Alhaitham beats him to it and ends up kneeling on the bed in the process.

"Come on Kaveh, get up." He repeats, tossing the blankets aside before shifting more onto the bed to push Kaveh onto his back. "What's wrong with you?"

Kaveh stares up at him, suddenly realizing how vulnerable he is in this position.

His tank top is hiked up past his belly, and his thin pajama shorts are so short they barely cover the top of his thighs.

"I'm just...depressed I guess." Kaveh mumbles and averts his gaze.

This has Alhaitham switching gears even as his gaze trails down Kaveh's frame a little more than what would be considered appropriate. "Can I do anything?" Alhaitham asks, kneeling next to Kaveh but still keeping his gaze firmly on him.

It's now that Kaveh isn't sure what to say. Something possesses him to reach out though, to grab onto the front of Alhaitham's shirt and pull him down until he's lying next to him.

"Do you remember that one night when we were in high school...after my dad died when you..."

Kaveh doesn't even have to finish whispering those words to have Alhaitham drawing him in close so that they're back to chest.

"I'll hold you as long as you want me to." Alhaitham's words are warm against Kaveh's ear, and he brushes his thumb along Kaveh's forearm out of reassurance.

"Just for a little while."

Kaveh closes his eyes, and Alhaitham doesn't let him go for what must be an entire hour.

After that Kaveh finally feels level-headed enough to get out of bed, and Alhaitham promises to buy him his favorite coffee as a means of enticing him out of the apartment for the day.

The depressed part of his mind wants him to stay home of course, but he knows Alhaitham is doing what's best for him. He needs to leave the apartment and this weird headspace for a while to clear his head.

Most of the afternoon passes before Kaveh feels in high enough spirits to dare and check his social media. They've just been seated at their table and Alhaitham's left to meet Tighnari and Cyno out front, so Kaveh uses this moment to take out his phone, scrolling through his normal twitter and then his secret one.

Seeing everyone still losing their shit over cypress's latest art has him rolling his eyes. Of course Kaveh would be the one to present the idea to iamhath and cypress would benefit from it.

Something about this person annoyed Kaveh to no end. It's almost as if they're purposefully trying to come between him and iamhath.

As he exhales a noise of frustration, Kaveh finally opens discord.

iamhath: hey, so, I don't know what happened
iamhath: I can tell something's wrong, and I feel like I'm the reason why
iamhath: if it's because I collab'd with cypress this time, please don't take it personally, I didn't want to overwhelm you since you just did a stream and everything

Kaveh huffs. He's still mildly annoyed.

paradisaea: I'm fine now, but yes it upset me a little bit since I told you I'd like you to write it
paradisaea: because of that I assumed you'd want me to draw it for you

iamhath: I'm sorry, I wasn't trying to upset you
iamhath: I love your art, and I want to collab with you again

paradisaea: and what about cypress?

Kaveh types out the question before he can even stop himself. Seeing the words in the chat is definitive proof that he's jealous.

Before he can see if he'll get a reply, his friends approach the table, and soon they're all seated and placing their orders.

It takes a bit before it seems appropriate for Kaveh to be able to pull out his phone and check his messages.

iamhath: what about cypress?
iamhath: don't tell me you're jealous?

paradisaea: we should just stop talking about this
paradisaea: it's really stupid

iamhath: it's not stupid if it upsets you
iamhath: do you not like them?

paradisaea: I don't know them well since I only got into this a month ago, but they seem like they're all over you

iamhath: oh? is it time that we had our date then?

"Hey! Kaveh!"

Cyno waving at him has Kaveh dropping his phone on his lap. He looks up to see all three of his friends watching him curiously.

"Everything okay?" Tighnari asks and Kaveh nods.

"Yes sorry, just got distracted with messages."

"Are your fans bothering you again?" Cyno recalls the last time Kaveh got barraged on social media to the point that he had to close his DMs.

"They've been behaving lately."

Kaveh doesn't get another chance to check his phone without issue again until after they've eaten and are waiting for the check.

He glances at his friends, seeing how Tighnari and Cyno are discussing something while Alhaitham also seems to be preoccupied with his phone.

paradisaea: maybe ❤
paradisaea: depends on what you had in mind for it

iamhath: I know a coffee shop downtown
iamhath: we could meet there

paradisaea: my schedule will be a little crazy soon
paradisaea: I only have free time tomorrow

iamhath: works for me ❤

Kaveh's extremely nervous.

They'd made arrangements to meet at a coffee shop that actually isn't too far from Kaveh's apartment.

He'd bring a black notebook with a padisarah flower to signify it's him. Honestly though, if this is a hardcore fan of his anyways, they'd be able to pick him out of the crowd regardless.

As Kaveh gets there five minutes early, he orders a drink and takes a seat near the back but still in view of anyone who enters.

He's so anxious he can't even bring himself to open up discord to see if iamhath has sent him anything.

But after sitting there for nearly 15 minutes with no sign of him, Kaveh relents and opens up discord to find that his supposed 'date' hasn't said a word since last night.

Unbeknownst to Kaveh though, iamhath is mere steps away from the shop.

As Alhaitham peers through the window of the little coffee shop around the corner, he sees a familiar face sitting at the table in the back. On top of the table is a black book with a padisarah flower resting in-between the pages.

There at that table sits his roommate and best friend Kaveh.

It's then Alhaitham suddenly realizes far too many things.

Kaveh is paradisaea.

Alhaitham had his own suspicions. From the first time he saw paradisaea's art style, he compared it to Kaveh's own. They were nearly identical to him.

Not to mention the live stream. Alhaitham had watched Kaveh sketch and draw on his tablet when they sat out in the living room together enough to know his mannerisms even while drawing.

Seeing Kaveh now sitting there waiting for a faceless person, someone that Kaveh assumes isn't him -- Alhaitham isn't sure what to do.

He sighs and looks at his phone. So far, his secret pseudonym, iamhath, is at least twenty minutes late.

Making an impulsive choice, Alhaitham climbs the steps to enter the shop. The second he does, he sees those carmine eyes look at him, and there's an obvious panic reflected in them if only for a split-second.

Alhaitham smiles and approaches the counter, quickly ordering a cup of coffee before heading over to speak to his friend.

"H-Hey, what're you doing here?" Kaveh asks, trying not to appear nervous as hell while doing so.

Fuck, what is Alhaitham doing here?! What if iamhath shows up now and-

"Was just passing by on the way home. I noticed you through the window." Alhaitham takes a sip of his coffee before asking. "What about you?"

"Oh ahaha - well you know -" He's fumbling for an excuse, and he feels like he's backed into a corner the moment Alhaitham's gaze drifts down to see the book and flower on the table.

"Are you meeting someone?"

"Erm...kind of." Kaveh mumbles and bites the inside of his cheek. It's obvious he's extremely embarrassed.

"Oh? Is it the guy you met online?"

Feeling this embarrassed has Kaveh blushing darkly.

"Perhaps." Kaveh looks up at Alhaitham again. "Since we're asking those kinds of questions right now, what's going on with the person you're seeing?"

Alhaitham raises a brow. Somehow it feels like Kaveh is becoming defensive from being caught like this.

"I'm not sure." He shrugs. "Things are in a weird place right now."

"Okay well, maybe you should figure that out." Kaveh doesn't mean for the words to come out as rude as they do, but he's anxious and needing Alhaitham to not be here.

"Ah. I get it." Alhaitham says in an indiscernible tone, showing a smile even as he does so. "I'll head home."

The second Kaveh watches Alhaitham turn away, a wretched despair overtakes him as he leaves.

Everything feels hopeless again after he walks out the door.

Kaveh gets home later that night after waiting for two hours.

At some point his phone died, and he couldn't even see if iamhath had sent any messages to him.

But even upon returning home, he found no sort of explanation for his absence.

paradisaea: I waited for you tonight for nearly two hours. I waited until closing and feel like such a fool for doing so. In that time, I had to see the one person I didn't want to see, because they've been the one person I'm trying to forget.

paradisaea: I guess in a way that isn't fair to you either. I shouldn't be using you as a way out of anything. I don't know if you could've been who I truly wanted or needed, and I guess I'll never know that now.

paradisaea: But I also realized that maybe that's okay. I have other things going on in my life that are more important. I can't keep chasing after something that'll never be real. I need to focus on what is real.

paradisaea: If you decide you want to try to be a part of that though, let me know. Otherwise I probably won't be on as much anymore.

Finding he's absolutely exhausted and heartbroken, Kaveh can't even bother waiting for a reply. He's done his share of waiting after all.

He puts his phone on silent mode and climbs into bed, not even changing into his pajamas before doing so. He just wants to sleep and not exist for a while.

Across the apartment, Alhaitham stares hard at the words in the chat log.

paradisaea: I waited for you tonight for nearly two hours...

For the first time in Alhaitham's life, he feels like he truly fucked up.

Most of his life he's done well to live by logic and facts, to calculate things so precisely that the chance of them ending with a negative result would be very minimal. But this...

Kaveh had always been an anomaly in comparison to those facts.

Alhaitham accepted that long ago, but he hadn't expected this horrible turn of events. He didn't want to hurt Kaveh at all, much less to this degree.

With a heavy sigh, Alhaitham leans back in his office chair, running his hands over his face.

All of this is a fucking mess.

For two years, he's been living a double life. In his sophomore year of college, Alhaitham found he didn't know what to do with his feelings for Kaveh anymore. It felt like it was becoming so unbearable that he needed to find a way to deal with them.

At that time, Kaveh was dating more frequently too, so it's not like Alhaitham felt right just outright confessing his love out of nowhere. Not to mention, what the hell would it do to their friendship? They'd been friends since the 9th grade!

So he ended up finding a very tiny community online that seemed to be forming a 'fan club' for Kaveh.

Initially Alhaitham thought it to be rather juvenile. Who has a fan club for a fully grown adult, much less a real person?

However, Alhaitham realized that he could express a side of himself he'd been suppressing for seven years.

At first he watched from the sidelines, making appreciative comments. Then he took the plunge one night while a little drunk and wrote his first reader insert fic.

That just started an avalanche from there, and there'd been no going back.

Obviously he'd been extremely careful about how he went about doing any of this. All location tracking had been off, no personal details were ever given to anyone, and anything he might've said about 'himself' was 100% fake. Well anything besides his adoration for Kaveh, that always remained 100% real.

He probably should've been jealous as well seeing so many people fawn over who he'd been in love with for so long, but honestly, he couldn't really blame people for finding Kaveh to be incredible and beautiful. The only difference for Alhaitham is, he's actually experienced it for himself in real life.

So imagine his fucking surprise to one day find Kaveh stumbling into the community. It'd clearly been a secret move of Kaveh's, maybe out of boredom, maybe out of some need to be desired - who knows? Ever since then, Alhaitham has just been...trying to find the right moment to reveal himself though.

He didn't expect to screw up this badly though, and now he has to find a way to fix it.

iamhath: I'm sorry I got held up because the elevator in my building broke down and I had no signal and...

Alhaitham grits his teeth and quickly hits backspace. That excuse wouldn't fucking cut it.

iamhath: I got extremely sick and my phone's been dead all day

No. That wouldn't work either. With how often they'd been talking and how eager they both seemed for this, it felt wrong to imply he didn't care enough to even try to find another way to let 'paradisaea' know he wouldn't be able to show up.

Ultimately, he decides to tell the most of a half-truth that he can.

iamhath: I'm sorry I did that to you, it wasn't my intention. Before leaving tonight, I had some realizations of my own. I can't quite reveal what those realizations are, all I can ask is that you give me some time. Because we should meet, and I do want to be a part of your life beyond just words on a screen.

iamhath: until that day comes though, I'll still be here ❤

Kaveh's in an unfamiliar headspace the next day.

He slept in of course seeing as he'd been all around exhausted after what happened the night before. He's honestly surprised to find a reply to his message so soon too after he opens up discord while still lying in bed.

It's not much of an explanation...but it does make Kaveh feel a little more at ease than before. Obviously the minor hurt lingers, especially when he recalls seeing Alhaitham last night too.

Waiting for a mystery man only to have the one he can't stop loving show up in his place, it's maddening in a way.

paradisaea: I can overlook it this once only if you promise to write me something ❤

Kaveh almost moves to get out of bed, but he sees a reply come through almost immediately.

iamhath: I'll write whatever you want and you can draw it if you want to ❤

paradisaea: just me?

iamhath: just you

paradisaea: all right ❤

iamhath: can I ask you something?

paradisaea: yeah

iamhath: who are you trying to forget?

Kaveh stares at the question, trying to decide how to go about responding.

paradisaea: well...he's been a best friend of mine since high school. I've had strong feelings for him for a long time, but I've never gotten the indication he might reciprocate them. I also don't want to mess up our friendship so...it's just a weird situation.

iamhath: that sounds rough, I'm sorry
iamhath: I can understand why it scares you to try and confess

paradisaea: yeah he's also dated others, I mean we both have, so there's never been a good time to even try
paradisaea: ugh it's too confusing to even think about
paradisaea: I just believe...at this point I've held onto these feelings for too long, I need to start trying to move on from them

iamhath: I get it
iamhath: I really am interested in you, the great porn is just a bonus

Seeing that has Kaveh laughing to himself.

paradisaea: yeah you too

Kaveh smiles as he gets up to start his morning routine. Although he's surprised to find Alhaitham is seated on the couch reading a book when he heads into the kitchen.

"Are you still annoyed with me?" Alhaitham asks, not even looking up from his book as he does so.

The question causes Kaveh to stop and instead walk into the living room area to properly resume their conversation.

"I wasn't annoyed with you." Kaveh sighs and sits down on the end of the couch. "I...got stood up."

Alhaitham raises a brow, placing his bookmark in the pages before giving Kaveh his full attention.

"Really?"

"Yeah." After saying this, Kaveh buries his face in his hands. "It's stupid, I feel stupid."

"You're not stupid. Look at me-" Alhaitham leans up more to gently push away Kaveh's hands so he can stare at him directly. "-- what have I told you before? If something makes you upset, then it's not stupid."

Carmine eyes go wide at hearing that. For some reason it has Kaveh recalling a conversation he had with iamhath a few weeks ago, and back then he'd said something similar.

Of course, Alhaitham has also said this numerous times in the past as a way of helping Kaveh acknowledge and work through those negative feelings.

"What?" Seeing how Kaveh is staring at him, Alhaitham sounds worried.

"Nothing, you just reminded me of something that's all."

Kaveh smiles and shakes his head. Again, they must be two different people, but it's interesting how similar they are.

"Well is this guy going to make it up to you at least, or are you planning on never seeing him at all?"

"It sounds like he wants to still meet at some point." Kaveh grabs one of the couch pillows to hold against his chest.

"Do you still want to meet him?"

"I mean, maybe? It's not like I have anyone else I'm interested in." Kaveh has to ignore the way his heart hurts when he lies so openly.

"I see. If it's any consolation, my prospect for dating has also crashed and burned. At least you have a chance."

Hearing that Alhaitham is most definitely single has Kaveh trying not to feel a surge of hope.

"Damn, sorry to hear it." Kaveh lays his head against the back of the couch as he fixates his gaze on Alhaitham.

"It's all right, I have more important things to focus on."

"Me too. We can keep each other motivated then." Kaveh offers and Alhaitham grips on Kaveh's thigh reassuringly.

The touch has Kaveh's heart skipping a beat, and he blushes.

"Sounds good to me, but first, how about we figure out brunch? You have a big night ahead of you, remember?"

Somehow amidst all this bullshit drama Kaveh completely forgot that today is the day of the art show.

"Oh my god you're right -- let me grab a hoodie and we can - we can go!"

Kaveh nearly stumbles over the rug on the floor as he makes a mad dash to get what he needs. Seeing this has Alhaitham chuckling softly.

He's intent on making sure he spends as much time with Kaveh that he can from this point onward.

iamhath: kaveh's art show is tonight
iamhath: I know a group of fans are actually meeting up to go to it

paradisaea: that's fun! I have to work so I can't go 😭
paradisaea: are you going to go with them?

iamhath: not sure yet
iamhath: cypress invited me, but I told him I wasn't sure

Seeing cypress referred to as a 'he' just heightens Kaveh's natural dislike for him. He doesn't like to view people as competition, but in this instance, if he's really hoping to try and date iamhath at some point then there's no other way around feeling this way.

paradisaea: somehow that doesn't surprise me

iamhath: even if I did go, I wouldn't go with him

paradisaea: 😩 I can't tell you what to do
paradisaea: we aren't officially anything either, so like, if you want to go then go

iamhath: I don't want to upset you

paradisaea: then don't
paradisaea: I have to log off so we can talk later

Kaveh doesn't wait to see if he gets a response to that either. His nerves are already frazzled enough now before the show, and the last thing he needs is to get annoyed on top of it.

So what if this guy he's interested in might end up seeing someone who's obviously been after him for a while?

Being preoccupied with getting dressed and heading downtown to the gallery seems to calm his earlier annoyance a bit by the time it's early evening. The art show has been in full swing for close to an hour by now, and he's been slowly making his way throughout the entire gallery to look at each piece.

His is somewhere in the middle where it's gotten a fair amount of attention so he's as pleased as he can be.

"Hey, you look great."

A pair of hands rest on his waist from behind and Alhaitham's voice is warm and low against his ear.

Kaveh blushes intensely at the touch. He turns to look up at Alhaitham who's wearing some black dress pants, a teal button-down covered by an unbuttoned, black blazer.

"Says you. I'd almost think you're trying to out-do me." Kaveh teases, and his blush deepens from the way Alhaitham visibly gives him a once over.

Obviously Alhaitham already was privileged in knowing what Kaveh would be wearing, but he's yet to actually see it on him.

A black, sheer dress hugs along Kaveh's frame quite nicely with a slit cut along his right thigh. Every time he walks the dress moves, exposing the length of his thigh.

"I think you're the most captivating person here." Alhaitham admits with a smile.

"You're too much." Kaveh nudges Alhaitham's arm gently with his own, and he doesn't step away afterward.

Alhaitham hums and runs his hand along Kaveh's lower back. It has a shiver running down Kaveh's spine, and he's content to stay this way for a few minutes as they talk about some of the pieces near them.

Although the sound of a slight commotion by the large window towards the front has them both turning to look outside.

There's a group gathered there, some with signs, and those signs indicate that they're Kaveh's fans. They must be freaking out due to Kaveh and Alhaitham lingering so close to one another.

"Ahh, I don't know if I should be embarrassed or flattered." Kaveh says lowly, moving around a pillar as Alhaitham follows him.

"Heh well I think it's cute. People adore you that much."

"I guess so." Kaveh blushes and looks up at him. "Does that mean you're part of that fan club too?"

With Kaveh's teasing, Alhaitham shrugs and steps closer. It has Kaveh backed up against the pillar, and his breath catches whenever Alhaitham stays close.

"I would assume that by being your friend I'd be a permanent member of your fan club."

"Mmm friend? And here I thought you were one of my best friends?" Kaveh challenges him despite how much his heart is racing.

"So then...as a best friend, that would make me the president of your fan club?" Alhaitham coyly suggests.

Kaveh dares to reach out and grip on the lapels of Alhaitham's blazer, a smile tugging on his lips.

"That makes sense to me. As president, you should absolutely worship me more than anyone else."

"Alhaitham - there you are."

Before Alhaitham can give a reply, Kaveh's having to drop his hands back at his sides, and they're turning to see a man with light blue hair and striking lavender eyes approaching.

"Ayato, I thought you were in Inazuma?" Kaveh says with a confused tone at seeing one of his acquaintances from the art world.

"I was, but I actually ended up flying back in earlier than expected so I thought I would stop by." Ayato shows a warm smile as Kaveh feels as if he must smile back.

Although another artist calls Kaveh away, so he's apologizing and stepping off to the side to speak to them.

It leaves Alhaitham and Ayato alone for a moment.

"So things seem to be going well for you, hm?" Ayato says in assessment, and Alhaitham pulls Ayato away from anyone that might hear them.

"You need to stop." Alhaitham whispers and Ayato raises a brow.

"Stop? Why I have no earthly idea what you're on about."

"Ayato." As Alhaitham grits out his name, Ayato rests a discerning look on him.

There's a tense pause before a grin starts to show on Ayato's pretty pink lips.

"Oh no, don't tell me-"

It seems Ayato has already managed to read between the lines without Alhaitham having to say anything.

"It's none of your business. Besides, I think we've done each other enough 'favors' for the past few months now, haven't we?"

Ayato raises a hand to his chin as if lost in thought.

Truthfully their arrangement began as a beneficial one for them both. Alhaitham, being so direly in love with his best friend who he thought to be oblivious to his affections, discovered an outlet through writing.

Ayato just so happened to join the community on a whim, or well, mostly because he found one of the 'fan club' members too interesting and cute to ignore. He'd seen him at a few other gatherings like the one happening outside, and if he wasn't just the cutest thing he'd ever seen. It didn't take long to track him down on social media either given he posts selfies occasionally.

Because of that, Ayato's been trying to get Thoma's attention for nearly four months, doing whatever he can to make him jealous.

So Alhaitham helped in the ways that he could by 'putting on a show' with their online personas. In return, Ayato would make art of Kaveh for him.

Probably not the healthiest interaction Alhaitham's ever had, but the damage has been done.

"I suppose that's fine. I mean, I am getting what I want out of this after all." Ayato shifts his gaze out towards the window now, focusing on a young man with blond hair and vibrant green eyes standing outside talking on his phone.

"Glad we're in agreement." Alhaitham chooses to end their conversation shortly after that, and he moves past Ayato to find Kaveh's been curiously watching them for a bit.

"He's usually chattier, I'm surprised he's leaving so soon." Kaveh mutters while watching Ayato leave the art show entirely.

"I wouldn't worry about it. Lets keep looking around."

iamhath: hey, how was work?

paradisaea: it was okay
paradisaea: did you go to the art show?

iamhath: I stopped by and saw a few people
iamhath: there's something else you need to know too

paradisaea: hm?

iamhath: me and cypress had this deal going for a while
iamhath: he'd draw art for me of kaveh, mainly for my stories, and I would let him openly 'flirt' with me
iamhath: because he wanted to get someone else's attention

paradisaea: seriously?

iamhath: yeah, it's been a thing for a few months
iamhath: you know thomatobby? that's the person he's been after
iamhath: I have zero interest in cypress romantically, I never have either

paradisaea: ah
paradisaea: well that makes more sense

iamhath: I'm sorry if I made you worry or stress at all over it
iamhath: I didn't really know you and me end up like this, otherwise I would've told you sooner

paradisaea: it's okay, I'm just happy you told me now

iamhath: I told him to stop too
iamhath: that arrangement is over with now

paradisaea: you're cute ❤

Kaveh smiles after that, seeing how iamhath's status is set to Away.

A knock on the door has him setting down his phone and looking up to see Alhaitham standing there.

"Hey, I was just about to--" Kaveh starts only to be cut off by the sound of many things powering down at once.

Suddenly the apartment goes completely dark.

Kaveh makes a confused noise as he turns the flashlight setting on his phone to stand up from his bed and walk over to Alhaitham.

"The hell? It's not storming or anything, right?"

"It's not. I wonder if something happened to the power line?" Alhaitham also pulls out his phone to see if they'd gotten any sort of communication yet about when the power might be back on.

It's at least a few hours wait until it might be back on. Seems like some kind of accident took down a pole in the area and knocked some lines over in the process.

"Well then, it's a good thing I love to collect candles!" Kaveh says as they steadily start to grab the ones from Kaveh's room, a few from the bathroom, and then utilize the rest that are already in various spots in the living room.

Fifteen minutes pass before they've got a pretty good set-up in the living room area.

A warm glow is cast throughout the room, and they've grabbed their pillows and some blankets to use on the pull-out bed.

"This isn't how I envisioned spending the rest of my Saturday night." Kaveh mumbles as he flops down onto the bed.

It's not the most comfortable bed in the place, but with the comforter and nice pillows they have it's well enough.

"Didn't want to have a sleepover with me?" Alhaitham smirks a bit.

"I never said that." A smile shows on Kaveh's lips as he grabs his laptop from the table they pushed off to the side. "I guess we are overdue for one. We haven't had a sleep over since high school."

At that time, they'd initially planned to have all four of them sleeping over together. However, apparently that was around the time Tighnari and Cyno started 'dating' without either of them knowing yet. It resulted in them giving one another whatever sickness of the month that had been going around.

So it's no surprise they ended up having to bail, leaving only Kaveh and Alhaitham to have a night alone together.

"Well, they missed out. I recall us getting very drunk on what was left of my father's vodka and then still winning many games in co-op despite how out of it we were."

Alhaitham now moves to rest on the bed as well, watching Kaveh smile even more as he's looking up something on his laptop for them to watch together.

"I know I couldn't stop laughing either." Kaveh feels those fond memories, so much that even though they correlate a bit with unpleasant ones he still doesn't mind remembering them.

"I think that was my favorite part about them."

Not expecting Alhaitham to say something like that, Kaveh stops what he's doing to look over at him.

"Seeing you happy that is. I know the last few years of high school weren't easy for you and..." Alhaitham stops for a moment as if to carefully think of how to express himself. "...I just wanted to do what I could to make sure you had some fond memories looking back."

"Haitham...I'm happy we're all friends, but honestly you were always the best part of those years." Kaveh tries not to weigh down those words with too much emotion, not wanting to scare Alhaitham away while still being truthful.

Alhaitham reaches his hand out across the sheets, gently covering Kaveh's own.

"You were the best part for me too, and you still are."

Kaveh glances at their hands, swallowing uneasily and not really knowing how to respond now. It's not unusual for them to be a little touchy feely, but this feels more purposeful than most past instances.

It must be Alhaitham simply being a good friend like he always has been. That has to be all it is. Falling back into that trap of believing something could happen to just break his own heart again has Kaveh impulsively finding a way to divert the conversation elsewhere.

"If you really mean that...then you'll watch a crappy horror movie with me." Kaveh forces a playful smile.

"Are you going to make me play with your hair until you fall asleep too?"

Hearing Alhaitham voice the other thing he used to do when they were younger has Kaveh blushing profusely.

"I mean...only if you want to."

Alhaitham smiles knowingly as Kaveh sets up the movie to play it. They're getting comfortable afterwards with Kaveh damn-near snuggling up against Alhaitham.

The entire movie, Alhaitham doesn't stop playing with Kaveh's hair, letting his fingers brush gently along the side of his neck and shoulder. They have playful banter at times, that is, until Kaveh eventually falls asleep about 3/4ths of the way into the movie.

"You have no idea how much I want this to be real." Alhaitham whispers, pressing a gentle kiss on Kaveh's forehead as he feels Kaveh's soft breaths against the crook of his neck.

iamhath: I think we should meet

paradisaea: when?

iamhath: on thursday, in the afternoon
iamhath: does that work for you?

Kaveh has to take a second to respond. Thursday...is his birthday.

paradisaea: hah that's my birthday

iamhath: really? 😲
iamhath: well then even more reason to meet
iamhath: we can celebrate it together 🎉

paradisaea: celebrate me getting old 💀
paradisaea: but okay, I don't have any plans yet so that works for me

iamhath: you're not that old
iamhath: as I recall you, you said you're younger than 30
iamhath: even then anything past 30 isn't old 🫶🏻

paradisaea: as always you're being cute ❤

iamhath: I can be cute in person too

paradisaea: you better live up to that for real this time!!

iamhath: I will, I promise ❤

paradisaea: all right if you promise ❤
paradisaea: where do you want to meet?

iamhath: lets meet at the park outside of the Akademiya, do you know it?

paradisaea: I definitely do

iamhath: there's a fountain in the central area, just past the gardens
iamhath: I can be there at 2pm

paradisaea: I'll be there too ❤

iamhath: looking forward to it ❤

Thursday morning, Kaveh is the most nervous he's been in such a long time.

He's spends his first hour trying to decide on what to wear, and after he finally manages to throw on some casual clothes and leave his room he finds Alhaitham is walking out of the kitchen with a cup of coffee in-hand.

"There's some left in the press if you want any." Alhaitham says to Kaveh, watching his roommate head into the kitchen.

"Ahh yes please." He already smells the aroma of hazelnut which is one of his favorites.

After preparing himself a cup, he moves back into the living room where Alhaitham is currently reading over some documents.

"Lots of work to do today?" Kaveh asks as he sits on the arm of the couch near him.

"Mm unfortunately. I'll probably be busy most of the day with this." Alhaitham sets his gaze on Kaveh. "Did you take the day off since it's your birthday?"

Kaveh nods, blushes, and sips some of his coffee.

"You know me so well. I um...actually have plans later too."

There's a long moment of silence as Alhaitham ponders the meaning, although he realizes it when Kaveh refuses to meet his gaze.

"So you're going to meet him today. I'm honestly surprised you forgave him so easily."

"You think I shouldn't have?"

"I didn't say that, it's not my choice either."

"What would you have done?"

"It depends on the person and circumstances. Overall though, I think what matters is your happiness."

Kaveh stares at Alhaitham, searching his eyes as if to try and somehow impart what his heart really wants.

I want you. I've only ever wanted you.

"You think so?"

"You deserve to be happy Kaveh, so do what's best for you to achieve that."

It takes what little patience and will-power Alhaitham has left not to say more than that.

Kaveh takes a moment to think over his words. It's not as if he's wrong. Clearly Alhaitham wants what's best for him as a friend, and Kaveh is grateful for it despite still pushing down that ever-present feeling of wanting more from him.

This is a step in the right direction then...finding a way to get over Alhaitham for good.

This is what he needs to do to truly be happy again.

"You're right."

They fall back into a prolonged silence again as Alhaitham resumes working and Kaveh checks a few things on his phone long enough to finish most of his coffee.

"Well, I need to run a few errands before I get ready so..." Kaveh starts to move off the arm of the couch, and Alhaitham grabs his free hand before he can get too far.

"Hey - we should do something later for your birthday if you don't get home too late."

"I'd like that." Giving a gentle grip to Alhaitham's hand, it's then Kaveh pulls away with a smile.

After he set his mug in the sink, he's grabbing his jacket and purse from the coat rack before heading out.

Alhaitham stops working all together afterward, thinking of what he still needs to do as well before 2pm.

The sun filters through the trees as Kaveh has just reached the entrance of the park.

Kaveh kept himself busy for most of the morning, so by the time he returned to the apartment to change he found Alhaitham had left to do his own errands. As he got dressed for his date, Kaveh tried not to feel disappointed that he wouldn't see Alhaitham before leaving.

Part of him almost wished that...Alhaitham would stop him.

That he'd ask him again if this is really what he wanted for himself.

Thinking of iamhath does still make Kaveh feel a little excited though. Hopefully their online personas would match up well in real life too.

As he heads through the path that leads through the gardens in the park, he can't help recalling so many past memories.

During college, himself and Alhaitham would often come here to relax after hiding away in the library for hours. Kaveh sees the small table they'd often sit at to have lunch together.

Imagining that provokes what happened mere nights ago too.

Alhaitham telling him that Kaveh has been the best part of his life.

It has Kaveh stopping to steady his breaths, closing his eyes tightly so that he can keep himself together. He won't leave. He needs to do this.

As he glances at his phone, he sees it's 1:59pm, and he's holding his breath while exiting the gardens. The sound of the fountain is close-by, and Kaveh's exhaling a shaky breath as he looks around the area to see some students but no one is near the fountain yet.

Kaveh starts walking down the brick path that leads up to the fountain, and he looks over his shoulder when he hears a few students meeting up and walking through the gardens.

A heightened anticipation causes him to look near the fountain again, and the second he sees a familiar face he's close to tears.

The one person his heart has been desperately wishing for is right here in front of him.

Alhaitham walks over to him, holding a single red rose in his grasp, and Kaveh's laughing with stray tears falling down his face.

"I can't believe it -- is it really you?" Kaveh asks between bated breaths, feeling as if this is too impossible to be real.

The agonizing days, months, and literal years that have led up to this moment have Kaveh overwhelmed.

"Yes it's me...and now that you know, I need to tell you that I've been in love with you for--"

Kaveh's gripping on the front of Alhaitham's shirt to pull him down into a kiss before Alhaitham can even finish breathing those words into existence. He doesn't have to after all, because Kaveh can feel it with the way Alhaitham pulls him in close and deepens that kiss even more.

Alhaitham grips on Kaveh's waist, kissing Kaveh over and over as Kaveh smiles into each gentle passing of their lips.

When Kaveh finally manages to take a breath, he stares up at Alhaitham, running his hand along the side of his neck to thread into silver locks.

"I love you, so much." Kaveh says as he's overcome with such happiness.

"I have to kiss you again just for that."

Alhaitham smiles and gives Kaveh a series of gentle kisses, letting them continue so effortlessly as Kaveh drags his fingers along the back of Alhaitham's neck and presses in tightly against him.

"What do I have to say...to get more than just kisses...?" Kaveh whispers between those sweet kisses, a shiver running through him as Alhaitham slowly flicks his tongue into one of them.

He prolongs that sensual moment, guiding the kiss to show yet again how much he wants Kaveh in so many ways.

Alhaitham presses a single kiss on his lips to momentarily break it long enough to whisper back.

"Well it is your birthday so, let me take you back home so I can do all the things I ever wrote about with you."

"It better be every single thing." Kaveh says breathlessly, his cheeks darkening from how Alhaitham tightens his grip on him.

"Guess we'll find out." Alhaitham smiles in such a way that Kaveh knows he's going to get what he asked for.

The entire walk back to their apartment, Kaveh remained pressed in close to Alhaitham, leaning up to occasionally meet halfway for soft, sweet kisses.

They barely manage to make it through the door when they get home. Kaveh has enough presence of mind to set the rose down on the counter before he's lured back into another kiss by Alhaitham cupping his face and leaving him breathless.

"You've written so much about me in two years...I wish I knew sooner." Kaveh whispers as Alhaitham lifts him up, and Kaveh instinctually wraps his legs around him.

Alhaitham's door is kicked open as Kaveh can't resist grinding his hips more into Alhaitham's own, earning a hard grope on his ass because of it.

"Well now you do, so I think it's only fair you tell me how much you touched yourself because of me." Alhaitham offers as he deposits Kaveh onto his bed, running his hands along Kaveh's legs to spread them wide.

"I-I lost count..." Kaveh whimpers, shivering whenever Alhaitham boldly loosens the dress pants on Kaveh's hips and drags them off his body. The thin panties underneath already show how wet he is from mere kisses. "...I almost sent you pictures a few times though..."

"Pictures of you like this?" Alhaitham asks, fully knowing the answer, but his cock twitches at seeing how wanton Kaveh looks up at him.

After leaning up enough to tug off his blouse, Kaveh lays back as he's only wearing a pair of red, lace panties now.

"Y-Yes...maybe wearing even less..."

He feels Alhaitham's hands run back onto his thighs, gripping on them once before running two fingers along the front of Kaveh's panties to tease from his hole up to the underside of his cock.

"Less than this?" Alhaitham's question is met with a soft whine from Kaveh as he reaches to start dragging down those red panties, streaking wetness along Kaveh's skin.

"Yeah...just like this." Kaveh's cock beads with more pre-cum as he's lying beneath Alhaitham completely naked now.

"I might still have to take some pictures of you."

After Alhaitham leans back enough to tug off his shirt, he's unzipping his jeans, and Kaveh's breath catches while watching him.

"Y-You can do whatever you want to me Haitham, just you."

Once Alhaitham shoves off his jeans and boxer briefs, he grabs lube from the bedside drawer and stares down at how gorgeous Kaveh looks like this.

"And I want to be the only one who sees you like this...so get on your hands and knees for me."

Kaveh's cheeks darken as his heart is racing. He moves to the new position, pushing his ass out as he hears the lube being opened.

"Who would've thought my biggest fan would be you..." Kaveh leans onto his elbows more, shivering from Alhaitham's long fingers starting to drag between his ass cheeks.

"I have been for years." Alhaitham chuckles lowly, tracing his fingertip on the rim of Kaveh's hole before barely pressing inside.

"I'm gonna need some proof." Kaveh tries to be playful, but his words are practically moans by this point.

"Spoiled as always."

The way Alhaitham slowly inches his finger inside tempts Kaveh, causing him to roll his hips back, eager to have Alhaitham reaching even deeper. He grips onto the sheets as Alhaitham curls his finger in, working him open and brushing along that perfect spot.

It has Kaveh shuddering, choking out a moan as Alhaitham leans in closer to press down along his back, voice warm near Kaveh's neck.

"I wondered how tight you would be...can't wait to break you apart."

Alhaitham becomes more intent as he adds another finger, the lewd sounds growing louder the longer Alhaitham spreads his hole wide with teasing thrusts. Breathy noises of need constantly escape Kaveh as he tries to rut down against the sheets, fucking back on those fingers until he's drooling and pleading for Alhaitham's cock.

"-- F-Fuck me - please, I n-need you--"

Watching Kaveh beg and rut back into his every touch like a needy slut is even better than Alhaitham imagined. He withdraws his finger, giving Kaveh's bare ass a firm grope as he sees Kaveh resting his head down against the sheets, panting so desperately in a need to be filled.

Alhaitham's own hands are shaking as he grabs the lube to slick up his cock, hearing how Kaveh breathes out a whine from the sounds of it.

"Never thought I'd hear you say that." He mutters, gripping on Kaveh's hips as his hands then slide to spread his ass cheeks.

Seeing his wet hole and the way Kaveh pushes back with a soft, pleading sigh, Alhaitham gives in and rubs his thick, cock-head on the rim.

"I'll say it as much as you want, just fuck me." Kaveh says, choking on a moan whenever Alhaitham pushes the tip inside.

That initial sensation leaves Kaveh craving more. Alhaitham's nail bite into sun-kissed skin, a low, shuddering moan escaping him as well as he gives in and loses all restraint.

"So needy for my cock, you've made such a mess already." Alhaitham accuses quite fondly, pressing in to the hilt.

Before Kaveh can even get a word in, Alhaitham leans his weight down against his back, forcing Kaveh to rut down along the sheets.

"I-I am -- makes me want to come on your cock too--"

Alhaitham's hands find Kaveh's own, covering them with a firm grip, their fingers tangling together with the sheets. Such closeness has Alhaitham's every word and breath hot along Kaveh's ear as he fucks into him, barely sparing any time between his thrusts.

Practically pinning Kaveh down beneath him allows him to grind in deeper, the deafening, slick smacks making Kaveh even more hot and desperate for Alhaitham to hold him down just like this and fuck him through his release.

"I want you to, I want you to keep being good for me." Alhaitham grits out within hot, bated breaths, such possessiveness writhe and push back over Alhaitham's cock. "Only for me."

How Alhaitham practically growls that is what breaks Kaveh completely.

"A-Alhaitham--!" Kaveh chokes on a whine of his name, becoming so tight around Alhaitham's cock buried inside of him that he pulls a breathless groan from Alhaitham.

The streaks of cum that hit the sheets beneath him smear as he grinds with Alhaitham's rough, erratic thrusts. He can't even keep up, letting Alhaitham fuck into his hole as he's overwhelmed and whimpering through that rush of release.

Kaveh's absolutely delirious at feeling Alhaitham suddenly shove in hard, hilting to let hot cum throb into his hole. The waves of it have Kaveh unable to resist coming even more on the sheets, panting and whining Alhaitham's name as cum drips out down his thighs from how much Alhaitham gives him.

"Fuck I love you..." Alhaitham mutters, his lips brushing over Kaveh's cheek as the last of his cum ruins Kaveh's spent hole even more.

All of this is filthy yet so perfect all at once. Kaveh is still trying to catch his breath as he turns his head just enough to have Alhaitham kissing him.

They exchange soft, slow kisses between their uneven breaths. Alhaitham reaffirms his grip on Kaveh's hands and fingers again, enveloping Kaveh in that same love all over again from merely a kiss.

Kaveh smiles as he's whispering over and over in return how much he loves Alhaitham too. They seemingly can't stop repeating it to one another, kisses added in-between the playful give and take.

They don't leave Alhaitham's bed for hours.

When they finally manage to tire themselves out enough for a break, they've taken a warm bath together and ordered take-out.

As they wait for the food to arrive, they're sitting in the living room together, curled up on the couch, and Kaveh's smiling as he grabs his phone.

"So...should we make it official then?"

"You beat me to it." Alhaitham smirks, leaning in as Kaveh opens his camera.

After angling his phone in front of them, he leans back against Alhaitham's chest, waiting for him to wrap an arm around him to pull him close.

Various pictures are taken. A few cute ones of them smiling at the camera. The ones that end up on Kaveh's twitter are one of them smiling at the camera and another of  him tilting his head back for Alhaitham caress along his neck and kiss him.

The tagline on the tweet says:

Kaveh: I'm in love with my best friend, and I can't imagine anything more perfect.

Alhaitham reads it as Kaveh types it out then posts it. He can't even describe how much happiness he feels at seeing it and knowing it's a reality.

It makes him hug Kaveh from behind all over again, kissing on his neck and enjoying everything about this moment.

"You're going to break so many hearts." Alhaitham says playfully, kissing Kaveh's temple afterward.

Kaveh blushes and leans more into Alhaitham's embrace.

"Maybe so, but I think plenty of people were rooting for us so it'll be fine."

After giving Alhaitham a long kiss, they decide to get up and grab some plates in prep for the food arriving, although Kaveh can't help asking at one point.

"Are you gonna keep writing?"

Alhaitham laughs. "I think it's time I retire. I can admit I'm a little possessive when it comes to you."

Kaveh smiles and bumps his shoulder on Alhaitham's.

"That's cute. I am too though; I mean with you."

Seeing Kaveh smile is everything to Alhaitham.

He pulls Kaveh into his arms again, intent on kissing him every second that he can.

"Sounds like we're a perfect match." Alhaitham says between the loving kisses.

Kaveh smiles even more. He can't help but to agree.

❤

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