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"A beast like you belongs in a cage."
"Without orders, men like you would become mindless killing machines."
"I am your master, and you are my tool. You will be used how I see fit."
Those voices of the past echo between his ears and resonate in the hollow cavern of his chest. Those voices among many others, including his own.
I know I’m a beast. It's why I need to be shackled.
He draws a shaking breath as soft leather wraps around his throat, worn with use and already warm from the hands that fasten the buckle at his nape. It bears a simple tag with his trademark henohenomoheji on the front, and not a thing more. Kakashi had wanted something to represent Gai engraved on it, but he had refused every single time.
“I will love you and cherish you for as long as we both may live, but I will never, ever own you. You do not belong to me... because you already belong to yourself, my dear rival...”
His other restraint does not get removed after every use. It has become a staple of his anatomy just as his face mask is. The cage is sturdy and reliable, unfaltering. The lock keeping it closed around his most intimate part bears no mark. If it were ever taken from him, it would be by Gai’s hand, or completely against their wills. But there would be no proof it ever belonged to him to begin with, either.
Kakashi does not panic when he feels himself stir inside, because the cage will keep him contained, and Gai will not unleash it unless it’s safe.
I know that I’m a tool to be used. And that is why I must choose carefully who I allow to wield me. It’s too dangerous otherwise…
He follows the swing of the key hanging around Gai’s neck as he steps around to Kakashi’s front. He had kept that key himself for many years before he finally allowed someone else to lay their hands on it. Every day since, he has been glad he chose Gai for this task.
“I understand what this means for you, Kakashi. I promise, I will not take this lightly. I will make sure you stay clean and healthy. I will make the decision of when to cage you and when to release you for as long as that makes you feel happy and safe. And should I fail you in any way, I will return the key to you immediately. That is my vow to you, Kakashi, my man of destiny…”
I know I need orders. And that's why I need someone whose orders I can always rely on.
“Stand up for me.”
Gai’s voice is gentle. He has never demanded anything of Kakashi he could not give, never pushed or forced him into a single thing. Precisely because of that, Kakashi treats his words as law. He rises to meet him eye to eye. A large, warm hand cups his cheek, and instantly his thoughts quiet and slow.
As long as he’s with Gai like this, Kakashi doesn’t need to think. He doesn’t need to remember. All he has to do is follow Gai’s lead.
He takes Kakashi to the bed. He sits in the middle, exactly where Gai wants him to, and watches as Gai peels himself out of his jumpsuit. He is unbothered by his body responding to the sight of Gai’s bare physique. He is beautiful in the way of a mountain fresh with snow: peaceful and quiet from afar, but up close, daunting and powerful. It is impossible not to be moved by him.
But looking and feeling are two different things. It’s always a shock to the system to feel Gai’s warmth again. When he is naked, he kneels on the edge of the bed and pulls Kakashi to him. He lets him. He lays back, fingers curled with his palms up. I am unarmed. I am helpless, he says without words, staring calmly up at Gai even as the surprise of bare skin-on-skin jolts him upward. Gai knows this is reflexive, waits for Kakashi to go still and flat before he continues trailing his fingers up his sides. Kakashi releases a slow exhale, eyes going half-lidded, gaze floating to the ceiling. He does not have to anticipate now. He is allowed to simply feel it. Knowing and doing are two different things, though... I'll need to keep reminding myself to relax...
Gai’s mouth follows swiftly after his hands, marking Kakashi’s body from hips to throat. Kakashi tries to keep quiet; he never wants Gai to think he’s rejecting him, never wants him to think he’s hurting Kakashi. It’s so far from hurting. Kakashi wishes he’d bite harder, wishes Gai would draw blood, wishes-
“Rival…”
The whisper of Kakashi’s favorite title, the one bestowed on him by Gai himself so many years ago, makes him shiver.
“You’re allowed to speak, you know that, don’t you?”
Kakashi knows; it’s remembering how that gives him pause, trying to rearrange his brain back into the right pattern for human speech.
“Y… Yes…” he breathes at last, Gai’s palm stroking just right down Kakashi’s stomach, making all his muscles twitch at once and an inhale get sucked through his teeth. Gai’s nods, satisfaction written plainly on his face and arousal hazy in his eyes.
“I like to hear you,” he continues. “I like to know what I do makes you feel good. Okay, Kakashi?”
He nods. It’s all he can think to do, entranced by Gai’s perfect form hovering over him, the warm lows of his voice. He’s suddenly aware of the fact that Gai is sitting within the brackets of Kakashi’s legs; his own arousal spikes, and he opens wider for him in invitation. Gai smiles at Kakashi’s willingness, his immediacy in showing Gai how much he likes it, how much more he wants. He just can’t bring himself to ask for it- I don’t deserve it, I don’t deserve it, I don’t deserve to feel so good- but if Gai gives it to him of his own accord, then he can accept it. He’s too selfish not to. Gai grants him a squeeze of his pecs, thumbs teasingly close to petting Kakashi's nipples. He must make some sort of sound- probably of the needy and mortifying variety- but he’s in a place now where he doesn’t care. He just loves to see the way Gai smiles over it.
“That’s it. Now where was I…?”
Gai hasn’t forgotten, it’s merely more teasing; he picks up right where he left off, hands drifiting onto Kakashi’s throat, leaning down, their bodies pressed together, and oh that pressure-
Kakashi can’t hold back the whimper that tumbles out when Gai allows his body weight to sink into his own. Gai uses his teeth, his half-chub resting beside Kakashi’s locked cock. He can feel the heat radiating from it already, Gai’s entire body warm and heavy and making sparks dance across Kakashi’s body with even the littlest movements. So good, so good-
“That’s it,” Gai encourages, “just like that. Make those sounds for me, my beloved rival…”
Gai’s thumbs fit perfectly over Kakashi’s nipples, the slow roll of them making Kakashi arch off the bed again with a pitiful, high noise. His next breath has fire carving a path down his middle. He sinks his nails into Gai’s back. Please, don’t stop, they beg where his mouth cannot. Gai hears his plea all the same, pinching Kakashi’s nipples as he mouths his way back down his body, all wet lips and scraping teeth. His hands abandon Kakashi’s chest in favor of his sides, gripping them as he sinks his teeth in around Kakashi’s nipple.
“Gai…!”
The gasp of his lover’s name is completely involuntary, as is the buck of Kakashi’s hips. He burns at the loss of control, stills himself and refuses to do more than breathe those whimpers and moans Gai loves so much. He switches sides and his hands smooth down Kakashi’s flanks, thumbs either side of his very center, fingertips marking trails down to the place Kakashi cannot allow himself to touch.
“You’re allowed to move, too,” Gai encourages. “I won’t let it go too far, I promise.” I won’t let either of us get hurt. But Kakashi is adamant in this, and Gai knows.
Kisses down Kakashi’s stomach have him panting, forced to concede the heaving of his chest. Gai’s dark eyes blaze with desire, mischief in the crooked curve of his smile before he takes Kakashi’s cock cage into his mouth.
“Agh…!”
He strangles the moan in his throat, but it’s too late; Gai hears. He sucks hard, and Kakashi’s vision goes blurry as another exits his lungs. He is at Gai’s mercy, and will be until he decides Kakashi’s had enough. Gai is in control. I don't have to worry about anything right now.
His tongue glides through the bars. Kakashi’s too distracted to hear the click on a bottle of lube, yelping at the sudden cold of it in the crevice between his cheeks.
“Shh, shh, shhh, it’s okay,” Gai assures hurriedly, a string of saliva still connecting them. “Just me, just wanna make sure you’re well-prepared.”
“Ah… uh… u-uh-huh…”
“Won’t hurt you, I promise…”
Kakashi knows he won’t. Gai always keeps his word.
He relaxes back into the gentle suckle Gai gives his cage, teasing the encased flesh as one slick finger returns to Kakashi’s hole. He feels it wink, sensitive, but once Gai breaches him, all his thoughts disappear in a cloud of smoke. Kakashi makes a deep noise this time, one that leaves his jaw slack and his eyes closing without conscious permission. But it’s okay. Gai won’t hurt me, and he won’t let me hurt him, either…
“Relax, Kakashi… my dearest rival, please relax…”
A clean finger taps at the back of his hand, and it’s only then Kakashi realizes he’s curled his own hands into tight fists, white-knuckling the sheets. He forces himself to let go, to breathe, and Gai smiles up at him from between his legs.
“There, there. Isn’t that better?”
Kakashi knows he’s supposed to respond, but Gai is back to teasing, his finger sinking deeper with a wet squelch that makes Kakashi’s face burn.
“Fuck…”
It’s all he manages. Gai’s head turns and now he’s littering love-bites along the inside of Kakashi’s thighs while a second finger strokes around his hole and all Kakashi can do is shiver about it.
“Mm… being so good for me, Ka-ka-shi…”
He heaves a breath, trying desperately not to squirm. He can feel tears already wanting to form, and they’ve barely done anything yet. I could come like this if I wasn’t caged. Ridiculous… I should have more stamina than this, I can endure so much, the fact that I’m losing myself so quickly is-
“It’s okay.”
It’s like Gai can read his thoughts. The second finger takes its time sliding in alongside the first. All the while, Gai’s voice weaves between the dull ringing in Kakashi’s ears.
“You can relax, Kakashi. I’m right here. I promise, fated one, that I will never let you break. I promise. Do you trust me?”
I do. More than you know.
Kakashi forces his lower body to release, and Gai’s finger bottoms out all at once.
“Oh, that’s my good boy-”
“Ahh…!”
The moan pitches upward at the end, betraying Kakashi’s swiftly unraveling self-control. It frightens him for all of a single second, until Gai sucks his cock harder and scissors the fingers in his ass and his body absconds with his mind again. He groans, rocks his hips needily, and Gai hums a satisfied tone that vibrates up Kakashi’s spine and nestles in the back of his head, pressing it hard into the mattress. Gai keeps making those low, appreciative noises as a third finger edges in.
“G-Gai- Gai!- no no no, don’t-“
“What is it, rival?” he murmurs, kissing the bars of Kakashi’s cage. “No, don’t stop? Or no, don’t touch me?”
It’s easier when he has choices, but he still can’t find the words. What was the question? He tries to shift and remembers Gai is still buried two-and-a-half fingers deep as hot lightning sears his core.
“No, don’t stop-!”
“Good job, shh, shhh…”
Even as Gai soothes him, though, he’s back to torturing Kakashi, free hand wrapping beneath the base of his cage as the third finger on the other sinks to the hilt in Kakashi with nothing more than a fresh squeeze of lube. The stretch is just on the verge of burning, and Kakashi moans like the whore he is over it. But it’s okay, because…
“Not yet, Kakashi, not yet Come back to me.”
Kakashi remembers his training. Because Gai can always bring me back before I lose control too soon...
He takes a grounding breath. Rather than rooting him into awareness, he inhales Gai’s arousal and floats even further away. He struggles against an unseen adversary, but only for a moment; Gai tugs on the cage and Kakashi is reminded that Gai is here. I am safe, I am secure, I am controlled- and suddenly he can’t stop himself from squirming anymore. A different loss of control, one Gai clearly adores, watching Kakashi struggle with a toothy smile.
“That’s it. Being such a good boy for me, let me hear you-“
Kakashi has endured literal torture more gracefully than this. He has held his tongue through beating after beating, kept dry eyes with knives at his throat, and refused to beg even for his own life. Yet Gai, with his huge heart and tight hugs and fiery kisses, has Kakashi sobbing into a fistful of the sheets in practically no time. I can do it for him. I can do anything for him. I just have to listen-
“Gai… Gai…" His voices peters out suddenly into hardly even a groan. "Gaahh-iihhh…!”
“Yes, that’s it…”
His praise makes Kakashi’s head swim. I’m not gonna make it, I can’t do it, I can’t do it-!
“… can’t, I can’t, please, I can’t…!”
“Yes you can, Kakashi, yes you can,” he assures, lips dabbing sweat from Kakashi’s temples. “Yes you can- look, I’ve already taken out my fingers-“
“Hhh…?”
Kakashi turns his head, woozy, squinting through the spinning to see Gai’s fingers dripping right in front of him, lube puddling on his chest. Oh. So that's why it felt... so intense...
“See? You can do it. Take a few breaths for me, okay?”
Kakashi takes them. Once he has enough oxygen, he starts to calm and remembers his place. All I have to do is listen to Gai… Just trust Gai… I can do it, as long as he tells me to...
“Are you alright to continue?”
“Yes…”
Gai doesn’t need to be told more than once. He grins again as he steadily lifts Kakashi’s legs. He wants to help, but his insides have turned to molten lead. All he can do is fold his knees into the divots of his lover's hips, Gai spreading his own knees apart to center Kakashi with his cock. The sheet pulls taut from Kakashi’s grip on them, panting, as he watches Gai give it a few pumps, wetting it with lube. Gai's abs jump with a small groan. So gorgeous. He truly is… the only one for me… My man of destiny…
Gai is unhurried as ever, slick cockhead just barely breaching Kakashi’s first layer of defense. He hisses and writhes for only a moment before he regains control of himself, trying to breathe through the throbbing haze forming along the edges of his vision.
“Does it feel that good, Kakashi?”
He knows the answer. They both know it. But Gai is so sweet in the way he tears Kakashi apart. He knows he has to say it anyway. There’s no escaping it, and he doesn’t want to. I give Gai what he wants when he wants it. I follow his every whim. And in return, he will make sure I can’t misbehave, and he'll reward me for being good. Simple. So simple, and yet…
And yet, he resists.
Kakashi’s back arches as Gai just barely pushes further, only to pull back, again and again. It leaves Kakashi thoughtless, nothing but damp heat and prickling pleasure.
“Does it?” Gai insists.
“Ah-haaah ahhh, yes, yes-!” he relents hoarsely.
“Yes what?” Kakashi forces himself to clear his throat, trying to retrieve any strength to put in his voice.
“Yes, f-feels good, feels good, Gaaaiii…!”
Kakashi loses what’s left of his breath as a full two inches slide in.
Gai shudders over him, replacing his hands to rest either side of Kakashi’s head, allowing him to look right down on him. Kakashi feels his face heat as Gai drifts closer. He fills his vision like a low full moon, so bright and yet, even a creature of darkness like Kakashi can look him in the face without pain. The moon does not judge, just as his lover sees him clearly with his own light and still chooses to love him. It is a fact he simply cannot contend with; Gai moves him with the same inevitability as the moon guides the tides.
Their mouths meet warm through fabric. It’s only then Kakashi realizes he’s still wearing his mask, but he can’t think clearly enough to figure out if he should take it off or not; he just opens his mouth underneath, Gai’s tongue brushing across, accepting the permission he's given, nothing less and nothing more. Kakashi tugs Gai roughly into him, deciding he doesn't care, teeth clashing despite the barrier. Kakashi wouldn't mind if they tore it apart in their voracious need, but Gai stops him with a firm, gentle hand. They still in their embrace, eyes locked as Gai, with all the delicateness he has, whisks the damp mask right off his face.
Kakashi has to take a moment to adjust. The air feels so different- when was the last time he took that thing off?- and the lack of pressure is exhilarating as it is unnerving. Gai takes the opportunity to cup Kakashi's cheeks in his hands, smiling as he leans closer and Kakashi moans into his lips as their bodies shift just enough to feel. Gai is fully sheathed inside him and his nerves are on fire. Gai kneads his face like fresh dough until Kakashi becomes responsive to the question lingering in the scarce space between them.
“May I kiss you more?”
Kakashi does better than affirm; he wraps his legs around Gai's waist and wantonly tries to devour him whole. He finally manages to let go of the sheets in favor of clinging to Gai. He pulls damp black hair and scratches between rock-solid shoulders, warring with himself to relinquish that final bit of his self-control. He wants to bite Gai. Before he can, Gai sucks his tongue and rocks his hips, scrambling Kakashi's senses entirely. He can feel the vibration as he moans into Gai’s mouth, but doesn’t hear it over his own pulse. Deeper… deeper…!
Gai is not allowing Kakashi to sabotage himself out of this. Kakashi finds himself straining, panting into Gai’s mouth, clawing at him for purchase on sweat-slick skin, and Gai responds in kind by striking him harder, abusing Kakashi's prostate until all he can do is submit. He feels another attempted orgasm assault his ears, ringing and drowning out his beloved's voice. Kakashi could let go of everything but his consciousness, those were the rules. If he passed out from the intensity, Gai would stop. The last thing he wanted was to stop. Just take it away from me, Gai... Take away the option to come... Give me my orders as many times as it takes, please, I'll fulfill them-!
“So eager for it, huh?”
Gai’s voice is husky in his ear, lips painting wet kisses down the side of Kakashi’s throat. It completely distracts him from that train of thought; Kakashi has already forgotten where it was going. He just turns his head to give him more room, to let Gai mark his flesh with the corners of his teeth, at first just small red lines but quickly turning to bruises as Gai passes over them again, more determined than before.
“I promise I will give you every pleasure,” he says gently, lapping at Kakashi’s earlobe, sucking that into his mouth too. Kakashi can only give a high whine. His nails are embedded in Gai’s arms, but he doesn’t seem to care. There’s only another slow, torturous push forward. Kakashi’s head dips back in a silent scream, cradled by Gai’s palm. Kakashi stretches to accommodate him, waves of heat washing through him. If he weren’t so well-acquainted with the stomach-dropping sensation of arousal, he’d think it was an incoming bout of nausea. His desire was so sickly sweet, he could hardly stand it. But I can. For you, I can. “Breathe…”
Kakashi breathes. It brings his vision back into focus, but he loses control of his voice in exchange. He cries out loudly as Gai carves into him, settling in right at Kakashi’s core, butting up against a bundle of nerves that makes him convulse.
"Breathe,” Gai reminds again, more forcefully. Kakashi hiccups, unaware he was holding his breath.
“I am, I am-“
He hums in approval against the other side of Kakashi’s throat now, hands gliding up his arms until their fingers are interlaced. Kakashi is pinned to the bed, unable to go any further than the points between their hands and legs. He is trapped. Defenseless. No room to maneuver or fight. No way to see beyond the bulk of Gai’s body overhead.
Kakashi feels no fear. No anxiety. There is only the reassurance that Kakashi is safe beneath him. He will use his own body to cage him in if that's what it takes. Gai is in control, he won't let anything happen, he won’t, he won’t- Kakashi relaxes inside, eyes glazed, and Gai groan pools in Kakashi's head.
“You feel… so good…”
Kakashi’s breath hitches at the sound of his voice. Gai would never lie to him. He means every word. Kakashi shifts his hips and groans low at the relief, the effortless glide of Gai’s length into the deepest parts of him. Gai shudders, panting into the juncture of Kakashi’s neck and shoulder for a moment, laying a kiss in his hair as he rises back up on hands and knees. He changes his grip, stretching to hold both of Kakashi’s wrists in one hand, and grabbing the meat of his hip with the other.
“Ahhh…”
Gai grins, repositioning again, dragging Kakashi partway into his lap. Kakashi’s spine slopes easily, Gai sinking balls-deep and holding him there, releasing Kakashi’s wrists to feel his way down his chest. Kakashi is certainly breathing now, erratically, toes curling and vision white with suspended euphoria, teetering right on the brink of orgasm.
Gai takes him in hand. His thumb grazes Kakashi’s shaft between the bars. He’s pressed right up against the cage, so engorged it looks as if it’ll burst, but Kakashi knows well it won’t- and if it does, good riddance. But since he has it, Gai insists they enjoy it.
His grasp fastens at the base of the cage, making Kakashi’s hips buck of their own accord. He chuckles as he pets the tender skin of his thigh, the vibration just enough to make heat creep up Kakashi’s spine again.
“You really enjoy being restrained, don’t you…”
Kakashi can’t give him an answer. He doesn’t need to. All I have to do is listen to Gai…
“Oh, that’s it…”
Gai says it in this breathless way that crushes the exhale from Kakashi’s lungs, giving a pathetic, ragged moan. Gai coos and pets his sides, subtly shifting Kakashi on his cock, making him whine with overstimulation.
“Are you finally ready for me to use you properly…?”
Kakashi grips the sheets for his own life as Gai rocks, the ridge of his cockhead dragging along that bundle of nerves and setting Kakashi’s blood on fire; so at odds with the cozy affection with which Gai says the words, as if Kakashi is a beloved plaything and not a walking weapon of mass destruction. The shame hits him right where he needs it, making his cock throb in its confines, validating his persistent need to keep it locked away. Kakashi had learned, far younger than he should have, that ANBU could use anything as a weapon. Kakashi began to think of his anatomy as weapon he never wanted to wield. He would prefer to see its potential locked away than see it result in bloodshed somehow. He couldn't risk continuing the Hatake line and opening up the possibility of more pain. He couldn't stand to have another loved one die. What it all comes down to... is that I don't want to hurt anyone...
The cage eliminates certain possibilities immediately. Kakashi doesn't have to think about them. He sees it as an extra layer of defense no different than his shin guards or wrist braces. And yet, handing Gai the key had been a complex, emotional experience that stuck with Kakashi still. My pleasure is completely dependent on yours...
He sucks in a breath, refocusing on Gai's blissed-out expression. The key is still around his neck, swinging to and fro as Gai rolls his hips, grinding into Kakashi until he elicits a response. Oh shit, I was asked a question- He opens his mouth to answer, but finds the words far beyond his reach. He's only able to tell Gai with the grunts and groans of a beast, too overwhelmed to behave as a man any longer.
“Ah-haah, aahhh…!”
“Mm, good… Be noisy for me… Wanna hear you…"
Kakashi cannot deny him. He voice breaks through between breaths. Words aren’t important. All he wants is to please Gai. Nothing more, nothing less. He is at Gai’s disposal until he’s finished with him. Gai could throw me away like trash and I’d still thank him afterward-
“You’re so beautiful like this…”
Gai’s whispered words of reverence bring flame to Kakashi’s face.
“Oh… oh, you take me so well…” He can hear that Gai’s close. Kakashi’s chest heaves in anticipation. “So good for me…”
Kakashi leaks between the bars, dribbling into Gai’s palm, babbles something incoherent. He pays Kakashi no mind and smears the pre-cum around his fingers, licking his lips with a darkened expression that makes Kakashi’s whole body tense.
“I love being able to do this to you… Thank you, my dearest…” It's not me you should be thanking. If anything, I should be thanking you...
“Nnngghh…!” He tries to tell him as much, but he just can't do it. Gai knows anyway.
“Don’t try to argue with me,” Gai chides, punctuated by a hard thrust against Kakashi’s prostate that leaves his ears ringing, “I adore you… All I want…”
His fingers brush slow around Kakashi’s swollen balls, wetting them with his own pre-cum. I’m not gonna make it, I’m not gonna make it-!
“… is to feel you come…"
Oh! That I can do-
Kakashi is nothing if not well-trained. He's able to come for Gai with ease, on command, just like a good boy should. He expects the sudden rush of endorphins, the sudden tightening of his abdominals, the heat licking up his spine as he wrings Gai for all he's worth. What he does not expect is the way his cock spurts all over his stomach, completely disregarding its bounds. He doesn't even have time to panic over it; he's already in the stratosphere, ecstasy overtaking everything else as Gai says, "Fuck yes, good boy, good boy, so close-"
Gai bullies his prostate with a few more wild thrusts before he comes, too, filling Kakashi white-hot. He loses his breath to the sensation of warmth crawling deep into his bones, the relief of knowing I did it, I pleased him, I’m still good-
It doesn't matter that Kakashi unexpectedly ejaculated in his cage. His objective was simply to obey Gai, and come when he asked. No more, no less. If anything, he's gone above and beyond; Gai tells him as much by groaning as his weight drops into Kakashi's sticky thighs, pounding him down into the mattress. His cock drools into his lap. He's not done with me yet... fuck, either my stamina's shot or he's really pent-up...
Gai recovers quickly. Kakashi's body is fitted snugly around him in the aftershocks, refusing to let him lose his erection. Gai repositions them carefully to help Kakashi relax again, and he ends up resting flat on his back beneath Gai, cum already dribbling between his cheeks and soaking the bedspread.
“Kakashi… my good boy…”
It doesn’t matter that Kakashi’s sweating bullets or shedding tears from the intensity of it all. It doesn’t matter that he’s still shivering from the drop. Gai means it when he says, “Most gorgeous thing… So good for me, beautiful…”
It’s not often a beast like him can feel precious. It’s not every day a man with so much blood on his hands feels anything other than disgusting. Gai is the only one… who can make me feel good…
“… just for you… only you…”
“Yes, my rival… shh, it’s okay… I know, dear one…”
"The thing about giving me control... is it means you can lose yours... Don't you understand, Kakashi? You need to do it sometimes. I am asking you to do it with me..."
"I promise I'll take good care of you. I promise you can trust me to. Just... please. I'm worried about you... I'll do anything..."
"You never ask for anything. I'm begging you to please, ask me! 'Cause if you don't, I'm... I'm just going to have to force my help on you! I don't want to invade your privacy, Kakashi, but I can't watch you neglect yourself, either!"
Those times were dark and desperate, so unlike their desperation now to simply pleasure each other and indulge in their union. Remember that time I made him order me to come back alive from three-month-long espionage mission? That was fucking crazy. In comparison, asking him to fuck me a slightly different way is hardly outside the realm of rationality... He wants me to ask. He wants me to feel good too, I know that...
"Gai... Move..."
Gai only takes a moment to register the request before he grants it. Kakashi doesn't even need to specify what he wants- Gai already knows, and was already prepared for him to ask.
Kakashi allows Gai to relieve the burden of his weight, flipping Kakashi onto his stomach. Gai intentionally leaves his pillow for Kakashi to brace his arm, the other twisted back to grab at Gai's side, urging him to hurry it along and making him squeak adorably in the process. Cheeks scarlet, Gai playfully pushes Kakashi's head down, then finds he likes the advantage and uses it to wedge the other pillow beneath Kakashi's hips. All this, and he's still impossibly hard... That's the actual crazy shit going on here, not my bullshit-
The slow burn of Gai attempting to withdraw has Kakashi moaning, tension in his back finally going slack. He only curls his legs around Gai's to ensure he stays close before offering himself, grinding back into Gai's lap until he starts to thrust back in. Kakashi finally finds it in himself to melt into the treatment, letting Gai's movements take his whole body with him. He gives Gai small, pathetic moans, still too sensitive to do anything but drool and whine.
"Kaka... shiii..!"
He arches, suddenly overwhelmed by the scent of Gai's desire, his bare nose apparent as he inhales against the pillow. He jerks into another moan, hips colliding roughly with Gai's, grinding against each other and punching the breath out of Kakashi's lungs.
"You are... the absolute... best for me... So good, good boy... Take me so well... Thank you, Kakashi, thank you..."
The praise makes his flushed face sting, but he cannot deny it. He cannot deny Gai. He must receive his accolades along with his orders, bound by his word and the pure bliss of their bodies meeting over and over again. I'm a mess... Disgusting, unworthy... But he wants me... loves me...
Gai pants hotly against Kakashi's ear, leaving wet, sloppy kisses on his nape and chewing the edge of Kakashi's collar.
"Ngh... Do you mind... if I do it more roughly?"
Kakashi shakes his head, wiggles his ass in case that's not clear enough. Gai responds by pulling Kakashi's collar with his teeth until his back bows and takes his cheeks in both hands. Fresh heat flashes across Kakashi's skin, for a moment terrified his chakra is flooding over and about to electrocute them, but it's just the immense pleasure of Gai's thumbs reaching further to spread Kakashi's hole around his cock. The slick noises of their sex make Kakashi's ears burn, but Gai is unperturbed, shuddering into the next push, bruises forming in the shape of Gai's thick fingers on Kakashi's pale ass. Their thighs slap together obscenely, Kakashi's knees threatening to give way at any second. All he can do is clutch the pillow and endure. That's all Gai needs of him.
"Gai... please...!"
"What is it?"
The problem is he doesn't know. Doesn't know anything aside from the fact that he doesn't want this to end yet. He wants to be good for Gai as long as he'll allow him. He wants to stay here forever if that's what Gai wants, receiving him with endless gratitude and infinite pleasure, handing all of himself over to Gai's loving embrace. But he can say nothing of the sort; he simply hitches his ass up higher, lets his legs slide further apart, lets his upper body rest on the bed, and takes it.
"Tell me what it is you need, Kakashi."
He whines, canid, inarticulate, useless. But even so, Gai makes use of him; he kneads the soft flesh beneath his fingers and gets a long, low keen from Kakashi for his efforts.
"If you don't tell me, I won't be able to give it to you." Good, deny me. I don't deserve it- "And it sure would be a shame... not give such a good boy what he wants, hm...?"
Kakashi tenses. That's right. If I'm good, I... get to have what I want. I... I don't know what I want, I just want-
The contradiction tears him apart, but only for a moment. That's right, I don't have to think... don't have to decide...
"Fuck me..."
That's all he wants. To know that Gai isn't going to stop just yet. That he's going to pound Kakashi into nothing but a paste stuck to the bed, that he's not going to give up just because Kakashi's losing his strength, that he won't stop until Gai himself is too exhausted to continue. Gai seems to realize this, freeing just one hand to glide down the planes of Kakashi's sweat-slick back.
"Oh, I am, Kakashi," he murmurs sweetly, palming running back up his spine, past his collar, into his hair. "I'm going to fuck you until you can't feel anything else, how that's?"
"PLEASE-!"
Gai's chuckle soothes the frantic feeling that rises inside him, but it does nothing to quell his sharpening moans and hitching breaths as Gai pulls his hair, just enough that lightning streaks across his scalp but not so hard it tears. Just on the precipice of pain, just as Kakashi likes it.
"You don't have to beg, Kakashi. I'm not going to take this away from you."
He leans in, tracing his tongue and voice along Kakashi's ear.
"I'm going to give you so much more, Kakashi... Going to fill you up with everything I have..."
Tears threaten to spill over again. I'm losing it, I can't, I can't take it, it's too much-!
"You're going to feel my love for you for days, Ka-ka-shi... I won't let you forget how much you're loved... How good you are..."
Kakashi sobs, clutching the pillow tighter as Gai presses his head back down, fingers still anchored in his hair with a tight grip, deepening his strokes so Kakashi can't help but make small, strangled noises with every strike inward. Everything burns even as his own sweat and tears attempt to douse the flames, to give Kakashi's mind back to him and put a stop to this. But Gai says... I'm good... Gai wants to give it to me... I have to, please, I want...!
"I can't think of anyone more deserving than you, Kakashi..."
If his nails were any sharper, he'd be able to tear the pillow to shreds. As it is, he settles for half-suffocating himself, spit dripping from his open mouth as his eyes roll.
Gai decides this is the perfect time to wrap an arm around his middle and manhandle Kakashi's cage.
He all but screams at the sudden stimulation, cock dragging along the mattress as Gai repositions it, taking it fully into one big hand and stroking Kakashi off. He's so hard inside it hurts, his cock throbbing, more pre-come dribbling out.
"Yes, you've earned this... I want you to come as many times as you can..."
He presses a kiss between Kakashi's shoulder blades, in doing so driving his cock as far as it can possibly go, and Gai doesn't mercifully pull back this time- he grinds it there, tugs Kakashi's cage, and bites his shoulder.
"I'm gonna wear you out... until you can accept it... I promise you, Kakashi... Gonna make you... make you f-feel...!"
Yes... that's exactly what I need...!
The next orgasm hits them both at the same time. Kakashi can feel it. Gai, filling him with warmth and cum. Kakashi cannot produce anything more, not locked like this and having already come the first round, but he can accept this. I can accept all of it... Thank you, Gai, thank you... His back seizes up with the strength of his contractions, and Gai groans as his walls vice around him.
"Kakashi..."
Gai makes his name sound so sweet, Kakashi can forget for a moment it was ever pronounced with fear.