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Jackson Jekyll, 9/1
Today was my first day at my new high school: Monster High. My moms told me that I would fit right in there and that Heath would be able to show me around, but really, I don’t think anyone was appreciating my company. Heath kind of brushed me off when he saw me. The only upside to the day was when Deuce Gorgon invited me to sit with him at lunch.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better. I’m optimistic for the future.
Jackson Jekyll, 9/2
My second day at Monster High was almost worse than the first. I couldn’t find Deuce or Heath in the creepateria, so I ended up eating alone in the corner. Some werecats almost ended up throwing their vegetables at me, so I just left and went to class early.
Hey, at least my clawculus teacher is going to like me.
Jackson Jekyll, 9/3
I woke up with a massive headache today. I don’t know what position I’ve been sleeping in, but it’s obviously not very good, since I woke up sore again. I've gotten so used to it that I rarely complain, but today was so much worse than usual.
Moms seem to be distant again. I don’t know what’s bothering them. When I ask if they’re okay, they tell me that they have nothing going on.
My problems at school feel like they’re nothing when I’m worrying about moms, too.
Jackson Jekyll, 9/4
These body aches are really starting to get on my nerves. It felt like I couldn’t go anywhere today or move at all without my entire body feeling like it got lit on fire, which is a funny expression, because I’ve never gotten burnt before.
I don’t think that Heath really wants to hang out with me much. I think I get it, after all, I’m just his normie cousin coming and disrupting his life.
Jackson Jekyll, 9/5
Today sucked. Note to self: avoid the big bull man named Manny Taur. He will shove you in a small space again.
Jackson Jekyll, 9/6
Thank the gods for the weekend. Even though I already have homework, I’m so glad to get away from school already. I just wish that I had some friends to spend the time with, instead of just studying in my room by myself.
I think that when I go back to school on Monday, I’m going to try to talk to Deuce again.
Jackson Jekyll, 9/7
I hate that I have to write in this stupid journal every day. I know that you’re going to look through it and base my therapy sessions off of it, but honestly, will you really look through every page? I can’t even talk honestly here, since you’re just going to poke your nose around. How am I supposed to relax when you just are looking for another way to force me to open up more?
Jackson Jekyll, 9/8
I got the courage to talk to Deuce again. He’s actually really chill. It turns out that I’ve met him before—we played a game of pick-up casketball back when I just moved into town in the middle of last school year. Boy, am I glad that moms let me wait until the new school year to enroll at Monster High. Being a mid-semester transfer would probably suck more than being a normie at an all-monsters school in general does.
Jackson Jekyll, 9/9
Apparently, I’m actually supposed to be honest in here. My therapist swears that she won’t read it at all, that she just flips through to see that I’ve written. Well, let’s test that hypothesis, shall we?
I stole my moms’ copy of my great-grandpa’s lab notes so that I could look over his manipulation of human DNA. I’m kind of interested in the type of stuff he did, even though my moms really hates “what he did to our family.”
Whatever, I mean. I think that it must’ve worn off by now, since I’m just a normie.
Jackson Jekyll, 9/10
I’m not the type to write a hit list, but if I was, there’d be one manster on front and center, underlined and circled: Manny Taur.
I honestly wouldn’t mind it if he dropped dead right in front of everyone. He’s such a nuisance. He never shuts up and he won’t stop picking on me for being a normie. It really boils my blood.
Jackson Jekyll, 9/11
I’m tired of being a stupid normie. Neither of my parents were normies, so why did I have to turn out to be?! I can’t even see how this worked.
Great-grandpa said that the JH (Jekyll-Hyde) gene mutation was a dominant gene, so I don’t even see how it could have skipped a generation… Maybe dad’s fire elemental status messed with the science? I’ll have to look into it. Mr. Hack might know more.
Jackson Jekyll, 9/12
Mr. Hack agrees with me: there’s no logical way for something like that to have just fizzled out. I’m just glad that I could hide from him what exactly I was looking for. Then again, I don’t even know if anyone realizes who I’m related to…
Sometimes I hear people mention my great-grandpa’s name in passing, whether it be for some crazy experiment that he had done or for his improvements on mad science as a whole. It’s great and all to learn about my family history in class, but it's really weird when people make jokes about him being related to me without even knowing that he actually is.
Jackson Jekyll, 9/13
Since it’s Saturday, I’m beginning my experiments today. Even if I get injured or something, I’ll probably be fine by Monday, and if not, then, oh well. It’s not like anyone there even likes me, anyways.
Jackson Jekyll, 9/14
Neither yesterday’s nor today’s experiments were fruitful. I am keeping tabs on this in my separate science journal and will be updating here liberally.
Jackson Jekyll, 9/15
Apparently, I need to start writing more every day. What am I supposed to write? What is it that she wants to see me admit to?
Should I say that when I was seven, I found roadkill on the street and dissected it with two twigs? Should I say that I shot a bird with a BB gun when I was ten so that I could boil it on the backyard campfire?
My other therapists always hated hearing about the stupid stuff I did as a kid, and even more so about my stupid intrusive thoughts now.
Moms think that it’s the mad scientist DNA.
Jackson Jekyll, 9/16
I officially have it out against Manny Taur. I hope he gets his hoof stuck in a tar pit and then gets caught in a zombie flash mob.
My entire body hurts again and I have a headache. Moms are avoiding talking to me again.
Jackson Jekyll, 9/17
I found a different one of great-grandpa’s lab journals today. It’s a really good read so far—it goes really deep into the psychology of what great-grandpa did.
The weird thing is that the sense of being broken and incomplete really resonates with me. Maybe instead of passing the monster down to me, my mom managed to pass the loser gene, instead?
Jackson Jekyll, 9/18
I hung out with Deuce after school today! He’s super nice and I ended up meeting his ghoulfriend. She was a little icy but Deuce promised that she was just like that around everyone.
Jackson Jekyll, 9/19
I think that I might ask Headmistress Bloodgood for a new locker—Manny’s memorized where mine is and won’t stop harassing me. If he doesn’t cut it off soon, I might show him why I have a knife collection in my bedroom.
If you’re my therapist reading this, that was a joke. I totally do not have a knife collection in my bedroom.
Jackson Jekyll, 9/20
Frankie and I have been talking more lately. After that disaster at Cleo’s party, she’s finally opening back up to me and even agreed to let me take her out on a date to a silent movie. I can’t wait.
Jackson Jekyll, 9/21
I don’t know why I keep blacking out. I have completely no control over it, though. I hope that I can get this under control before it actually starts to affect my life.
I might have lost my chance with Frankie again. I hate hate hate the weird way my brain works.
I finally found someone that I get along with, and my brain won’t even let me stay conscious to see her? Why?
Jackson Jekyll, 9/22
I avoided Frankie at school today. I feel really bad about it, but I didn’t know what else to do. It would have been so embarrassing to apologize to her in front of a big crowd.
I think that I should just give up on Frankie. She’s obviously too good for me.
Jackson Jekyll, 9/23
So. I have another half of me?
It’s really weird to think about. It turns out that my parents have actually been lying to me for my whole life about my fake sleeping disorder.
I just wish that they hadn’t lied to me. They let me grow up feeling like I didn’t belong here, and now I know that I really do. It sucks that they had to treat us so differently.
Yeah, bro. It does. - HH
Jackson Jekyll, 9/24
Well, it’s my first day officially knowing that I am two people, so let’s recap the basics: Holt and I are the same person but different, I stop existing when loud music is played, and people like Holt a shit ton more than they like me.
I know that I’m really hot stuff, but don’t sell yourself short. You’re me, and I’m awesome. - HH
Jackson Jekyll, 9/25
Holt, you should probably just start making your own diary entries. At least then we could maybe start to communicate better. After all, we don’t know each other at all. You could be a cooler dude than you seem at first…
It doesn’t exactly seem like this is about your day, and also, I picked up what you were setting down at the end of that last sentence. SMH. - HH
Holt Hyde, 9/25
It’s kinda weird to suddenly find out that I actually share a body with my kind-of brother. No offense, but I think that I’m still in shock.
It’s okay, because I think that I still am, too. - JJ
Jackson Jekyll, 9/26
It was kind of awkward around moms today, since she didn’t really know how to talk to me when she wasn’t hiding something giant about my life from me. I hope that our relationship can go back to normal sometime soon.
Me too. - HH
Holt Hyde, 9/26
I got let out to jam out a little bit for a while during the night today. I’ll be honest, I wish that I had more time, but at least I’m getting let out at all now.
Sorry. - JJ
Jackson Jekyll, 9/27
Schoolwork, schoolwork, schoolwork. I have mountains and piles of it. It doesn’t help that I have to coordinate with Headmistress Bloodgood to get my class schedule rearranged now that Holt and I know what’s going on. At least it’ll be worth it when our body finally gets to sleep again.
It always used to be so weird to “wake up” and feel like I was about to pass out from exhaustion. We probably should have noticed sooner. - HH
Jackson Jekyll, 9/28
If I have to go another day with Manny being a condescending asshole, I’m actually going to split his head open on a pike and let his brains seep out onto the concrete.
You’re pretty hardcore, bro. I don’t know if I should be impressed or scared. - HH
Holt Hyde, 9/28
I don’t know what to talk about. I didn’t really get out at all today.
Sorry about that. You can front today after school, if that makes you feel better. - JJ
Jackson Jekyll, 9/29
I got top marks on my mad science exam today!! Though, Mr. Hack did seem a bit concerned as to how, exactly, I knew the exact hypothesis that my great-grandfather was working on at the beginning of his experimentation…
Aw, well. He shouldn’t have made a family member an option for the essay, then.
The practical portion was just too easy, of course. I think that stuff just runs in my blood.
It does. I might be a Hyde, but I think that both yourself and others keep forgetting that you’re a Jekyll. - HH
Holt Hyde, 9/29
Hey Jack, thanks for letting me out this afternoon! I know that you tend to worry about exams and all of that jazz, but it was super nice of you to let me out anyway. I saw that you had some unfinished Music Theory homework on your desk when we got home—even though we technically don’t share classes yet, I saw that you were struggling and went ahead and finished it for you. I promise that I actually do know what I’m doing for that class. I don’t think I’d trust myself with any others, though. LOL
I’m glad that you had a good time out yesterday. Thanks so much for the assistance with the homework. I totally forgot that I hadn’t finished it yet. You’re super talented in Music Theory—I can see why you’d be a great DJ, even if I can’t exactly hear why. - JJ
Jackson Jekyll, 9/30
Heath tried to get me to do his homework for him today, but I told him to fuck off if he wasn’t going to try at all. I didn’t know that it was going to piss him off so much. If Heath seems a bit antagonistic in the future, that’s probably my fault. My bad.
Otherwise, I had a pretty good day. We went over the mad science exams in class and Mr. Hack bragged about how good my essay was! It was kind of funny when he asked me how I knew so much about “Dr. Jekyll’s” experiments—I got a kick out of seeing everyone guffaw when I told them that he’s my great-grandfather.
Seriously, how hadn’t they put that together yet?
LMAO. I wish I was there to see the looks on their faces! I’m so glad that you’re taking all of the Hack classes now, because he seemed to really hate me. I was too much in the classroom, according to him. IDK how they hadn’t figured that out yet, either. Seems like a pretty easy thing to figure out. GG on the essay. - HH
Holt Hyde, 9/30
It was the last day of the first month of school today, and I guess that overall, it was okay. Yeah, the whole month was hectic and confusing, but at least I finally know why half of my life has always been missing, and talking to you hasn’t been horrible.
I was checking out your Spookify account earlier and came across some of your old playlists. I’d make fun of you for the classic emo songs, but honestly, those are a bop on late nights. Sorry if me poking around in your stuff is weird. I just couldn’t resist checking out your style!
Why would it be weird? We’re the same person. You’re all good, Holt. Yeah, I used to be a total loser, but hey, the songs were good and still are, so… power to the losers, I guess. And it’s not exactly like I get away from that title when I’m at school, either, LOL. - JJ
No mean self-talk! Bonk! - HH