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Tabby makes what she thinks is a good-natured comment, and ends up learning something about herself.

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Tabbythecat:

oh so you are a true lesbian, thank fuck

I was starting to think the earth was flat too

 

Ay ay captain:

i'm what some bastards would call a "gold star lesbian" yes

i've never kissed a boy i've never touched a boy i've never even seen a boy

 

80s Witch:

I’m offended and you should be ashamed Fuck you

 

Ay ay captain:

jk but it is bullshit

 

80s Witch:

get that disgusting rhetoric very away from me unless you wanna get your nose broken

 

Ay ay captain:

no one's less of a homo if they did some hetero before being homo ya know

 

Dragon: 

sorry for Vira, she is unhinged

but “true lesbian” isn’t a thing really

 

Ay ay captain: 

yeah ppl say shit like "ur only a true lesbian if you've never been with a man before" but u can be 

nothing's stopping ya

u don't even need to be full girl to be lesbian

 

Dragon:

being with men before doesn’t make you any less of a lesbian

 

Ay ay captain:

just don't be a man or attracted to men at the present moment and you're good to be a lesbian

yea not all of us were swaddled on a lesbian flag as we were born

not literally but you know what i mean

 

Dragon:

if gender can be fluid so can sexuality

sometimes it takes time to find a label that you feel comfortable or relate to, you don’t have to stick to the first label

 

Ay ay captain: 

also it's hard for some ppl to really identify with being a lesbian bc the word has so much shit attached to it

 

Dragon:

yeah

 

Ay ay captain:

but it's ours so like....... fuck em

 

80s Witch:

Fuck this gold star lesbian shit

 

Dragon:

said the gold star lesbian

 

Ay ay captain:

YEA

 

80s Witch:

only because I grew up with my brother and hated men for most of my life

 

 

It was a quiet afternoon, which wasn't unusual for them. The last weeks before winter holidays were always full of study sessions and just hanging. The loudest noises were of the cats when they decided to play or fight somewhere.

And since her girlfriend moved to the bigger apartment sounds had become sparse. Eury missed the random noises Tabby did when she was studying, sometimes she'd purr out of the blue or something.

"You're strange. What happened?" She asked, poking her girlfriend's forehead when she didn't move.

"Hm? What?"

"You're too quiet." Eury frowned looking at the phone, still open in the group chat. "Did they do something?"

Tabby shook her head, turning off her phone and tucking it away. "No no no. Just stupid talk." She laid on her arms, her warm brown eyes staring playfully at Eury. "But would you go on a witch hunt for meow?"

The brunette rolled her eyes. "Did you do something to a witch? I'm good but I'm not 'undoing spells' good, kit."

Tabby chirped. "She doesn't know any spells. I think." She paused. "Do you want sushi?"

"Why not. Are you sure nothing happened?" Eury looked into her eyes, one eyebrow raised. "You're quiet and you want your favorite food."

The tiny wrinkle on her nose just showed she was right. Tabby shrugged. "Nothing that won't pass. I'm going to buy the fish, do you want a specific one?"

She decided to drop it. "I've been craving salmon skin nigiri lately."

"Okay, I'll buy it. Can you put dinner for the gang upstairs?"

"Do you mean getting swarmed by tiny mewling creatures because I touched the wet food cupboard? Yeah, I'll feed them." She rolled her eyes, but kept a smile on her face.

"You're the best." She kissed her, rubbing their noses together before going towards the door.

 

...

 

Tabbythecat:

Hey, sibs

 

Mini snake:

eeey what's up tabs

 

Tabbythecat:

Need your help

Can u talk?

 

Mini snake:

yeah for sure

what do u need

 

Tabbythecat:

People in the uni chat kinda fought

when someone said "true lesbian"

im confused

 

Mini snake:

ahhh

well they could've just been misinformed in the way that shit like sexuality and gender and shit can change over time and all

or there's the like

super transphobic way

"gold star lesbian" bullshit which means never having had sex with a penis before

very terfy territory you know

terf = trans exclusionary radical feminist

 

Tabbythecat:

>super transphobic way

AH I'm sure that wasn't the intention

Now I get why 80s goth got mad

 

Mini snake:

lmao 80s goth

uni be wild huh

yeah like theres ppl that think only cis women who have always been attracted to other cis women are "real lesbians" and it's garbage

like have they ever met a gaggle of lesbians

there's very little gender there

but y did u reach all the way out to little old me just to ask that

 

Tabbythecat:

Cause you're my favorite lesbian 😽

 

Mini snake:

what a flatterer you are

 

Tabbythecat:

y u think your sister loves me?

 

Mini snake:

fuck if i understand anything she thinks ever

 

Tabbythecat:

so

someone who was very straight until midlife crisis, can say they are a lesbian no problem?

 

Mini snake:

yeah

the rules are very fast n loose

someone could be 100% attracted to guys their whole life but it could totally change

 

Tabbythecat:

uhum

 

Mini snake:

or someone who considered themself bi can be like atm i like the label lesbian better or smth

 

Tabbythecat: 

gotya

 

Mini snake:

ya know labels are just words what matters is like the community around them

 

ppl that all see the same word and go like yeah i vibe w that

 

Tabbythecat:

tnks sibs

 

Mini snake:

not gonna lie i'm lowkey baked rn so if i got too philosophical blame the 🌿

 

no prob ✌️



 

"236?"

"Here." Tabby put her phone back in the pocket. "I want a kilo of salmon with the skin, and half a kilo of cod." She pointed.

She hoped Sybille didn't catch that the confused one was her.

"Anything else?"

"No."

As the lady went to prepare her order, Tabby got lost in thought again. The argument in the group chat bothered her in so many ways, it got heated too quickly and for something she thought was… harmless.

When she used "true lesbian" she didn't think it was a serious expression, she wanted to do a joke (kinda) and backfired horribly. At that moment thinking that Gretchen would have slept with someone that identified as a man just sounded bizarre.

But now that Sybille opened her up to the idea that you could just choose the label you feel more comfortable with, regardless of your… history, opened so many possibilities.

Exciting and terrifying at the same time.

 

 

Eury immediately looked up when she heard the keys. It took less than a second for her to know Tabby was back to normal. Happily humming one of the damn cat songs.

"Did you find a way out of your funk?"

"Hum? Oh yeah." Tabby put the things away on the kitchen counter and jumped on the chair next to Eury.

Eury unconsciously put her hand just above Tabby's neck and gently scratched at her scalp. "Good. Kittens ate alright, they all went to sleep right after."

Tabby purred at the scratch, closing her eyes. "Mrr… thank ya." She eyes longingly at her girlfriend. "I think I need a new shirt for the next pride."

Eury furrowed her brow. "Why?"

"I don't have a lesbian one."

"Oh. So that's what bothered you. I knew it was the damn group chat." Eury pulled her girlfriend closer. "Well, I'm proud of you for finding a word. And I'll get you a cat lesbian shirt for you to cover in cat hair." She punctuated the sentence with a peck on the lips.

Tabby held Eury close and kissed her again, softly but full of emotion.

The " I Love You" didn't have to be said.

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