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Sander was so happy, truly and completely at ease, now that he had Robbe. His best friend, his soulmate, his lief. He still couldn’t wrap his head around how all the back and forth still ended with them being together, even though they had been a couple for a year now. Sander felt his mouth twitch at the thought of his Robbe.
The blond boy was at home, scrolling through his Instagram feed. Well, he wasn’t really home, because neither was he at Robbe’s flat nor did said boy sit beside him. He was at his parent’s place, while his boyfriend was at a weekend trip with the broerrrs. Sander felt good, knowing that Robbe and him still pursued different lives besides the one that they shared. Anyhow that didn’t make him miss Robbe less.
Bored, he tapped on his direct messages and smiled at an unread notification. Getting texts from @srodulv always made his heart beat faster and Sander knew he shouldn’t feel this way but he couldn’t stop it either. And at least it didn’t lessen his love for Robbe. Though @srodulv, or better Eliott, had some kind of impact on him.
@srodulv hey, this made me think of you [painting of David Bowie]. How are you? I know Robbe’s gone this weekend. Hope you’re not too .. triste?
@earthlingoddity no it’s alright, he needs time with his friends. I’m bored though haha
They kept talking like this for minutes, maybe even an hour.
Funnily, Eliott found Sander’s art page first and contacted him through it, praising his skills. They hit it off immediately, send messages about art, music and whatever came to their minds. During their first night of talking via Instagram, Sander had already told Eliott his biggest secret. And as if all the coincidence wasn’t enough already, Eliott was bipolar too. Just like this, they formed a bond and started talking about more than just their art and interests, but about how their episodes felt, if or when they were able to feel them creeping up. Sander told Eliott about his suffocating Ex Britt and Eliott knew how that felt since he has had a similar relationship.
Never in his life would Sander have dreamt of someone who understood his twisted mind like this French model-like boy did. And don’t get him wrong, Robbe was superb at learning about Sander. By now his boyfriend could detect any irregularity just by reading Sander’s messages or looking at his posture. But, and thank god he didn’t, he wasn’t able to feel what Sander felt. Sad and high, drained and ashamed. Robbe would always listen and make him feel better, but Sander craved even more understanding. And he received that from Eliott. To his relief, Eliott seemed to need this friendship himself. He had a boyfriend, Lucas, just like Sander, and just couldn’t load everything on him. So Eliott confided in Sander and the other way around. After Robbe, finding Eliott a few two months ago was the second best thing that had ever happened to Sander.
@srodulv what I meant to ask for a while now… I hope it doesn’t sound weird
Sander gulped. He knew that he wanted Eliott in a way that wasn’t allowed. At least it wasn’t allowed while being in a relationship. And he would give his life to protect what he had with Robbe. But just this one message from Eliott made him feel afraid and exceptionally excited at the same time.
@srodulv the week after Christmas university is closed still and I was wondering if you wanted to come to Paris? If you are free of course. And you can bring Robbe obviously. We could celebrate New Year’s Eve together? Maybe I’m being dumb, the idea just came up
Sander didn’t know what he had expected, but certainly this was not it. Holy shit. He’d never even told Robbe about Eliott and now he wants them to come to Paris in two weeks?!
@earthlingoddity does Lucas know about me?
@srodulv know what?
@earthlingoddity that you’re talking to me, how much I know about you
It took Eliott a bit to answer. Sander felt anxious and also so very excited.
@srodulv yes and no
@srodulv but I want to see you in person, perhaps I’ll draw you
@earthlingoddity really?
Sander’s heart picked up speed. How would he be able to meet beautiful and nice Eliott with Robbe right next to him. How would Robbe feel if Sander would be the muse and not him? What would Robbe say if Sander let himself paint by Eliott.
@srodulv yes, really. You know how I draw people as their spirit animal. I drew you too even though I’ve never seen your face in person before, so
@earthlingoddity you did? What animal am I?
@srodulv maybe I’ll show you when you’re here;)
@earthlingoddity you are being mean!!! I want to know now
@srodulv too bad
@srodulv you could have just said yes
@srodulv pls, come to Paris
@srodulv c’est la cité d’amour <3
@earthlingoddity yes okay, okay, I’ll talk to Robbe I swear! But I can’t promise anything. The train isn’t that cheap and Robbe struggles with rent and stuff as you know
@srodulv that’s all I wanted to hear, merci. I really want to meet you and your Robbe
@earthlingoddity me too <3
Then suddenly a message from Robbe popped up on Sander’s screen and he had to remind himself where he was. Fuck. How would he tell Robbe about Eliott? They didn’t do anything except talk but still… Deep inside, Sander knew what he wanted and that made him feel sick to the stomach.
@earthlingoddity I need to go, I’ll let you know soon. Bye
Sander had already closed the Instagram app and went to his chat with Robbe who kept writing about the vlog the broerrrs had filmed today. The blond boy grinned at how excited his boyfriend seemed to be. But at the same time, he could feel his heart clench. When Robbe’s back, they would have to talk about Paris. Suddenly, one more message from Eliott emerged at the top of Sander’s phone.
@srodulv you’re a snowy owl, by the way <3