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Edward didn’t understand what was happening.
The vampire just stared at the shifter before him with wide eyes, standing completely frozen with his arms at his sides. Searing heat burned through his skin from the shifter pressed up against him, hands twisting in the front of Edward’s shirt as he gave the vampire a deep kiss.
Yes, a kiss.
Hence Edward’s lack of understanding.
And then the shifter pulled back, stared up at the vampire with a deep flush burning under his skin as he let out a deep breath.
“Jacob… what-“
“I love you Edward.” Jacob said quickly, almost like he was trying to get the words out before he could stop himself. “I-I’m in love with you.”
“What?”
Edward still didn’t understand.
“You’re in love with me?-“
“I-I know that we’ve never been on the best of terms.” Jacob said looking away as his flush only seemed to get darker and his hands wrung together nervously in front of him. “But I realised… I realised that the real reason you being with Bella bothered me was because I really wanted you to be with me and I just... I know you have no reason to believe me, but I just wanted you to know. I just couldn’t hold it in any longer.”
The vampire was still frozen in shock.
“And I don’t expect you to suddenly fall in love with me just because I kissed you, I just… I wanted you to know.”
With that Jacob turned around and walked away, making his way back into the forest. He was slightly worried that the vampire didn’t try to follow after him, but also immensely grateful at the same time. It was hard enough trying to keep the telepath out of his head. If Edward tried to question him on his sudden confession Jacob wouldn’t know what to say, mostly because none of it was true.
He isn’t in love with Edward.
Truth be told he still pretty much despises the leech and his parasitic family as much as he did before, that much hasn’t changed and Jacob doubted that it ever would.
Now you’re probably wondering-
“Well if he doesn’t love Edward then what was up with the kiss and the confession and all that blushing during the kiss and confession.”
The answer to that was quite simple actually.
It was a dare.
Whether the members of the La Push pack wanted to admit it or not, whether their situation would allow them to admit it or not, most of them are just teenagers. Kids really. Sometimes teenagers did stupid impulsive things for stupid reasons even if they weren’t necessarily stupid themselves.
It was Friday night when they were all hanging out at Jared’s house, talking shit and screwing around, thoroughly enthralled in the warm haze of weed. Alcohol didn’t really have much of an effect on shifters, but they learned that weed could give them a steady buzz for a couple of hours.
It was just him, Paul, Embry and Quil at Jared’s house that night. Seth and Leah were on patrol and Colin and Brady were twelve and thirteen so, enough said.
They were in the living room, talking about everything and nothing at all when the conversation inevitably drifted to the vampires. Jacob started complaining about Bella and Edward and the other wolves all simultaneously groaned in annoyance.
“I’m not high enough for this.” Jared mumbled out as he took another deep drag of the joint, letting his head rest against the backrest of the couch and let out a long stream of smoke into the air. Paul gave a half-hearted growl from his position on the floor in front of him.
“Jake c’mon man, don’t start with this shit right now.”
Jacob frowned, glancing up at his friends from where he sat with his head laying on the arm rest, “What shit?”
“Your shit with Bella and her boyfriend.” Quil mumbled out, lying flat on his back on the floor. Embry groaned as he sat up on the couch beside Jared.
“You’re always bitching about her, all day every day just bitch bitch bitch bitch-“
“It’s getting old.” Quil interrupted and Jacob gave his pack brothers a half-hearted glare, barely even paying attention to how easily Embry of all people always cursed whenever he got high.
“You guys don’t get it.”
“No, we don’t.” Jared said still staring up at the ceiling, “She doesn’t want you. She told you she doesn’t want you. Move on already, you’re getting on everyone’s nerves.”
“But, Bella… Bella said-“
“She needed you?” Paul slurred out as he pushed himself up on his arms to get a bit more comfortable against the couch, “She’s just using you dumbass.”
“Yeah I didn’t wanna say anything, cause Bella’s a nice girl and all, but she’s also totally leading you on.” Quil said propping himself up on his elbows so he looked up at Jacob, “I mean, if she really planned on leaving Edward for you, she would’ve done it by now.”
“She’s not leading me on-“
“The only time she paid any attention to you is when the leech dumped her and when she found out about the wolf thing, she asked you if you couldn’t just stop.” Paul said with a bored drawl, “You think she ever asked the leech if he could just turn it off?”
“Has she even called you since he got back?” Embry asked absently as he turned to reach out to the joint only for Jared to keep it out of reach.
Jacob frowned.
“Come to think of it,” Quil paused, “At this point, Edward probably pays more attention to you than Bella does.”
Paul let out a bark of laughter as he blindly reached forward to slap Quil on the shoulder and he totally missed, “Fuck you’re right!”
“Oh my God,” Jared said just as Embry swiped the joint from his hand and settled back into the couch, “You know what you should do, you should hook up with the vampire.”
“Fuck you.” Jacob hissed as he sank into his seat a little more only for Paul to lean forward, onto his hands and knees .
“No seriously Jake, I mean at least the leech actually notices you.”
“More to the point, you should hook up with him.” Jared said and Jacob looked up to glare at the wolf, “Fuck. You.”
“That’s a bad idea.” Embry mumbled and Quil gave a nod, “They’d probably just end up killing each other.”
“I don’t know,” Jared said staring up at the ceiling with a dopey grin, “I can kind of see it. I mean, it’s not like the leech is hideous or something. You could do worse.”
“If nothing else it’d be kind of funny.” Paul said when a smirk suddenly spread over his lips and he looked up again, “Hey, hey you know what, how about we have a little bet.”
Jacob frowned, “What kind of bet?”
“You need new parts for the rabbit, right?”
“Yeah…”
“O.K then,” Paul sat up, barely managing to keep his balance and not immediately face plant as he spoke, “I dare… I dare you to confess to Bella’s boyfriend.”
“Confess what?”
“Tell the bloodsucker that you’re in love with him.”
Jared let out a howl of laughter while Embry snickered and Quil just shook his head.
“Oh no fucking way.” Jacob hissed, “I’m not telling that leech that I’m in love with him.”
“No dude, you have to do it.” Jared said as he sat up as well, narrowly missing Embry as he swung his arm over so he could push himself up, “It’ll be hilarious.”
Quil frowned, “What if Edward gets mad. Isn’t he like a hundred years old, what if he’s homophobic or something and freaks out?”
“Or he’ll be happy cause it’ll mean that Jacob isn’t interested in Bella.” Jared reasoned and Embry frowned.
“You know it’s a little weird how invested you are in Edward and Jacob hooking up.”
“I’m just curious, I mean think about it. Isn’t weird how much attention Edward pays to Jacob. Before the newborns attacked Jake’s the only one he ever went on patrols with. He kept coming back to check on Jacob after he got hurt and he sent Jake an invitation to the wedding even though we all know Bella doesn’t want him there. I think the leech might have a little crush on our Jakey.”
“I don’t care, I’m not doing it.”
“Oh come on Jake what’s the worst that could happen? He’ll get mad and never talk to you again?” Paul asked teasingly, “I doubt he’d even get mad enough to attack you. It’s not like you actually give a shit about Cullen anyway and besides, it’s been weeks since you’ve been able to take the rabbit out right? Do the dare and I’ll pay for all the new parts you need.”
Jacob paused in thought, though his high kept him from really being able to think about the situation too deeply.
“So I just tell him I’m in love with him?”
“Yeah – No! You have to kiss him too.“
“Fuck you.” Jacob growled and Jared rolled his eyes.
“You have to, just telling Cullen you’re into him is too easy. I mean, fuck, Embry could just walk up to one of the leeches and say that he’s in love with ‘em.”
“I wouldn’t do that.” Embry piped up while Jacob leaned back in his seat.
“Why are you trying to ruin my life?”
“Because it’ll be hilarious.”
“Wait,” Embry started blowing out another stream of smoke, “What if he actually believes that Jake’s in love with him?”
Paul gave a snort, “Like that’ll actually happen.”
“C’mon Jake just do it.”
Quil sighed in frustration, “Geeze, just say you’ll do it or else they’ll never let it go.”
“Alright, Alright I-… I’ll think about it.”
“You’ll think about it-”
“If I actually go through with it though and you don’t pay up then I swear to God, Paul-“
“Don’t worry, I’m good for it. I’m more worried about you wussing out at the last second. Remember, you have to kiss him or else it won’t count.”
That was a week ago, and if Jacob is being honest, he never planned on actually going through with it.
They were all kind of out of it when the dare was made and Paul didn’t bring it up the next morning. He didn’t plan on going anywhere near the leech let alone confessing to him.
But then Bella called.
She said she found out about Edward sending him the wedding invite and wanted to try and talk things out. Jacob went over, not even sure why he was going there to be honest. He didn’t want Bella marrying the leech. He knew what it would mean once they got married. Bella would turn, they’d leave Forks and he’d never get to see her again, alive or otherwise.
But there was some small part of him, that part that still loved Bella that hoped that she would somehow see the light and finally move on from Edward. It’s the part of him that had him going over to see her every day after Edward left the first time. The same part that looked after her after she jumped off the cliff, because of Edward. The same part that begged her to stay and not go running after the stupid vampire halfway across the world. The same part that gave in when Bella asked him to kiss her.
But every time Jacob would be disappointed. Every time Bella would just go running back to Edward. It’s not like he’s stupid, he knows that she’ll never choose him, but hope is a hard thing to kill.
He went over so they could talk and he was disappointed yet again.
Bella didn’t seem too concerned about patching things up. Her main concern was his presence at the wedding. She wanted to make sure that he’d be OK. In other words, she wanted to make sure he didn’t screw things up for her.
“I don’t think it would be a good idea for you and Edward to be around each other. I thought it’d be better if you just don’t come.” She said, like he wanted to go and watch her marry a bloodsucking parasite. Jacob had planned on going to the wedding but only because of Bella. Because he cared about her and if she really loved Edward so much then he should just be happy that she’s happy right?
“I still want you in my life Jake, I just don’t think having you at the wedding would be a good fit.”
Of course, of course he isn’t a good fit when Edward was around. But when the vampire suddenly broke up with her and left her alone for months then she was more than happy to have him around.
That’s the moment when Jacob realised that he was just done.
“You know what, Bella? Go to hell.”
Bella blinked back at him in shock, Jacob just turned around and walked out of the house. Too angry and fed up to even pause when he heard the girl calling out after him.
It was later that day that he saw Edward. The stupid bloodsucker was just standing there at the treaty line waiting for him. Jacob was on patrol at the time. He was still upset so he had no intention of saying a word to the vampire when said vampire spoke first.
“Bella’s upset.”
Jacob gave a snort, ‘And I should care why?’
Edward frowned, “I thought you loved her.”
‘Yeah, it’s funny how fast things change huh? Besides, you’re getting married right? She’s your problem now.’ Jacob said as he turned to walk back into the forest. ‘This has nothing to do with me.’
“Wait!” The telepath sighed, “At least tell me what happened. Bella refuses to tell me and-“
‘And what, you figured whatever her newest damage is it has to have something to do with me?’
“I know she cares about you. That’s the reason why I sent you the wedding invitation. I thought you’d want to be there for her-“
‘Yeah, well you can cancel the reservation cause I’m not going.’
“Why?” the telepath sighed, “Is it because of me?”
Jacob just turned to stare at the vampire in silence, thinking back to all the bullshit this stupid vampire and his stupid girlfriend have put him through and then for a split-second Paul’s words came back to him.
‘All you have to do is confess to him’
Edward blinked, “Confess what?”
Jacob’s eyes widened like he just suddenly remembered that the vampire could read his thoughts. He took a deep breath and then suddenly he phased back into his human form.
Edward’s frown deepened as the shifter approached him, “Jacob what’re-“
“This is what’s wrong.” He said before grabbing a handful of the vampire’s shirt to yank him forward and crush their lips together in a bruising kiss.
Edward froze and Jacob resisted the urge to snort in amusement.
Now he walks through the forest, wondering what on earth had suddenly come over him only to start laughing instead. It started as a low snicker that quickly grew into a chuckle and before he knew it, he was howling with laughter.
Oh gods, they’ve finally driven him insane.
It’s the vampire’s face that got him. That look of complete and total utter shock, there are probably a million things that Edward expected him to do but kissing the vampire and confessing his love to him probably wasn’t anywhere on that list. Jacob’s laughter started to die down and he took a couple of deep breaths to try and compose himself. honestly, he hasn’t felt this good in a long time.
Between telling Bella off earlier that day and officially burning any bridge that might have existed between him and the leech, Jacob honestly felt great. He didn’t even care about the fact that he just kissed a bloodsucker. He had no intention of ever talking or even seeing Edward again and he seriously doubts that the vampire would want anything to do with him now. It occurred to him that the leech might tell Bella about what he did, but Jacob didn’t care. And not caring – not constantly putting Bella first for once felt good.
It’s over, he can finally move on.
He was a little sad, he really had hoped that things could have been different between him and Bella. But knowing that he doesn’t have to deal with her drama anymore made him feel so much better.
No more Bella, no more Edward.
This is a fresh start and honestly, Jacob couldn’t be happier.
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It was close to midnight when things took a turn.
There was this feeling, a feeling that made his skin crawl and made him feel like he was being watched.
Jacob woke with a start, taking deep gasping breaths as his eyes darted around the room until-
“Shh, calm down its just me.” Jacob almost flinched back when he noticed the shadow sitting on his bed, the only reason he didn’t is because he recognised the voice. He didn’t flinch because it couldn’t be real. There is no way, absolutely no way, Edward Cullen broke the treaty, snuck into his room and is now sitting on his bed.
The shifter reached over blindly to the bedside lamp and turned it on, only to gape at the figure he saw.
“No way.”
Edward gave a wry smile, “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to startle you Jacob.”
“How-“ Jacob sat up on the bed at a complete loss for what to do, “Why-“
“I’m sorry for barging in on you like this. I’d actually planned on calling you in the morning but I just couldn’t wait.” The vampire looked down at the space between them before moving a little closer to the shifter and Jacob watched on with wide eyes.
“What’re-“
“I can’t stop thinking about what you said after you… after you kissed me.” Edward looked up at the shifter through his eyelashes almost shyly and a feeling of dread washed over Jacob.
“Oh right,”
“I didn’t want to at first, but after thinking about it this afternoon. Thinking about what it felt like when you kissed me… I realised that I feel the same way.”
Jacob just stared at the vampire in shock.
“What?”
“I love you too Jacob. I think I’ve always loved you.” Edward said with a warm smile as he took the shifter’s hand. Jacob was still in shock; he couldn’t move an inch.
“You-you love me too?”
“Yes. God, it feels so good saying it out loud.” Edward moved even closer, cupped the side of Jacob’s face, “I love you, Jacob Black.”
“I-… how?” Jacob stuttered and Edward gave him an indulgent smile.
“I think it happened for me the way it happened for you. I think, the real reason I had such a big problem with you spending time around Bella is because I wanted you all to myself.” The telepath said stroking his thumb across Jacob’s cheek, “Every time I saw you touch or hug her it drove me insane. It’s only now that I realise that she’s the one I was jealous of, not you. But now I realise that you’re the one I want. You’re the only one I want. The one I’ve always wanted.”
Jacob gaped at the vampire, trying and failing to come up with a response only for his eyes to all but fall out of their sockets when Edward suddenly moved forward and kissed him, moving closer to give him a passionate kiss. He tilted the shifter’s head started moving over him as he deepened the kiss, with one hand moving down the teen’s chest. Jacob quickly got his thoughts together and lifted his hands to push the vampire away.
“Wait.”
Edward took in a deep breath, smiled and pressed one more soft kiss against the wolf’s lips, “Sorry, I just… you feel so good.”
“Uhm, yeah.”
That’s literally the only response he could think of. But he did need to think, he couldn’t do that with the mind reading vampire right there in front of him.
“Uhm, E-Edward… I this is all so much and I have school tomorrow-“
Edward shook his head, “Oh, no no, don’t worry Jacob I understand. You must feel so overwhelmed. That’s how I felt when I realised that we felt the same way about each other.” The vampire raked a hand through the shifter’s hair, “It’s alright and besides we have the rest of our lives to do this. We have the rest of our lives to be together.”
Jacob let out a nervous high-pitched laugh, “Yeah, the rest of our lives.”
Edward’s eyes filled with warmth, “You need time to absorb this, I understand. I’ll let you get some rest. I’d hate for you to be distracted while you’re at school. I want only the best for you Jacob, for us.”
“Yeah… us.”
“Just don’t make me wait too long my love.” Edward said when his eyes suddenly seemed to fill with something darker as his fingers caressed the shifter’s bottom lip before he leaned forward to press a short sensual kiss on his lips, “I’ve been waiting almost a century to find my true love. Now that I have you, I plan on taking full advantage of every moment we have together.” Edward leaned forward to take in the shifter’s scent along his neck and visibly shuddered, “I want ruin every inch of you. I want my name embedded under your skin.”
‘oh my God…’
Jacob tensed as a shiver of fear ran down his spine, just before Edward pulled back with a smile.
“But we have forever for that.” the vampire pressed one last kiss on the shifter’s forehead before he got up from the bed, “I should get going. Wouldn’t want the pack finding me here. Goodnight Jacob.”
“Uh yeah, goodnight.”
Edward smiled and disappeared in a blur. The moment the vampire was gone Jacob promptly started freaking out.