youknowwhenyouknow
Recent bookmarks
-
Tags
Summary
Castiel Novak is 27 when he suddenly loses his twin brother Jimmy, and his whole world turns to ashes. How do you deal with losing half of yourself when your whole life always revolved around the two of you, like yin and yang and black and white? How do you deal with a broken soul and old demons looming over you with no one to hold you back anymore?
After 10 years as a Navy Special Warfare Operator and more than a dozen deployments in both Afghanistan and Iraq, a battlefield injury forces 28-year-old Chief Petty Officer Dean Winchester to choose between being stuck behind a desk for the rest of his career or going back to civil life. When he learns about his friend Jimmy’s death, Dean makes his way back to Kansas with his heart in his throat and broken pieces at his feet.
Things are already complicated and painful enough as it is, but when former lovers Dean Winchester and Castiel Novak meet again after 10 years of radio silence and a galaxy of wounds and scars solidly standing between them, it feels like both a curse and a blessing has been placed on them both. Is there any hope in putting back their broken pieces together after a decade, and how do you deal with grief and broken dreams?
Series
- Part 1 of Patient Love verse
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 167,722
- Chapters:
- 21/21
- Collections:
- 3
- Comments:
- 322
- Kudos:
- 1,149
- Bookmarks:
- 381
- Hits:
- 24,931
Bookmarked by youknowwhenyouknow
16 Jun 2026
-
Tags
Summary
“Do not ask who I am and do not ask me to remain the same” - Michel Foucault
Dean Winchester was not in love with Castiel, and he definitely wasn’t sick.
Bookmarked by youknowwhenyouknow
28 Apr 2026
-
Tags
Summary
Everything Castiel is, everything he’s made of, is hitched to a thin golden string attached to Dean Winchester’s soul, tugging him closer, begging him to let them collide.
He recalls Aristophanes’ story of creation; the one in which humans were split in two as a divine punishment, forever in search of their other half.
Cas is not human, but he understands the sentiment.
_____
In which Dean is finally in a world without impending catastrophe, but it's also a world without Cas. He spends all day fighting not to think about it, and at night, his sleep is haunted by grief.But then his dreams start to feel more and more real, and no grave can hold Cas down.
Bookmarked by youknowwhenyouknow
23 Apr 2026
-
Tags
Summary
All Dean wants is a little privacy. Cas doesn't understand.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 94,118
- Chapters:
- 18/18
- Collections:
- 10
- Comments:
- 4,656
- Kudos:
- 24,139
- Bookmarks:
- 6,066
- Hits:
- 597,426
Bookmarked by youknowwhenyouknow
15 Apr 2026
-
Tags
Summary
Three weeks ago, Dean woke up in a pine box. He thought dealing with the nightmares was going to be the most difficult part of his new life after Hell, but at least they were something he could understand. Something he could deal with. Something he deserved.
Then he began having agonizing visions of crucifixion. Wounds appeared on his body out of nowhere. Wounds that refused to heal and coated his skin with the sickly sweet smell of roses.
Stigmata are said to be the marks of saints, but Dean is not a saint and the wounds are only the beginning.
Here are some companion character playlists:
Dean
Castiel
Sam
Enjoy!Update 9/11/2024: Chapter 7 of the sequel is posted.
Series
- Part 1 of Lazarusverse
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 90,365
- Chapters:
- 15/15
- Comments:
- 381
- Kudos:
- 1,621
- Bookmarks:
- 591
- Hits:
- 49,138
Bookmarked by youknowwhenyouknow
02 Apr 2026