yeahloads
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- One Direction (Band) (17)
- BBC Radio 1 RPF (1)
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Harry wants a baby. Jeff tries his best to give him one.
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It’s less painful than Jeff anticipated, asking, “Let me eat you out?”
“Can I shower first?”
It’s a completely reasonable request, but Jeff isn’t sure how to tell him that the whole point is that he wants Harry just as he is, natural and dirty in the best way. So he just says, “You don’t have to,” like he isn’t toeing the edge of a cliff he’s never dared to jump off.
Or, Harry is sweaty and hasn't shaved in weeks, and Jeff wants every part of him.
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Harry Styles, a black leather couch, and the loss of Jeff's sanity.
Or, a Hazoff Porn AU 2.0
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- Part 1 of you drive me crazy
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A bath, a massage, and some post-baby feelings. Oh, and some Joni Mitchell.
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Harry needs a fluffer. Jeff steps in to help him, as his civic duty. Even though his crush on Harry can be seen from space.
Or, a Hazoff Porn AU
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- Part 2 of you drive me crazy
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But In the Morning Light, Your Car's Already Gone by yeahloads
Fandom One Direction (Band), Zayn Malik (Musician)
01 Jul 2017
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"Ilya had loved him through his worst moments. Ilya had helped him find a therapist when he’d collapsed on the floor of their hotel bathroom after losing a particularly brutal game, scratching at his chest. Ilya had held him, even when Shane yelled at him because there was panic crawling under his skin and he felt as though it might claw its way out. Ilya had told him it was okay; that it didn’t make him a bad player to resent the spotlight sometimes, that it didn’t make him a bad teammate to hate the team when they were too loud and too drunk and too physical, that it didn’t make him a bad person to need space to breathe. Ilya saved him.
And look what you give him in return. You’re a shitty husband, Shane Hollander.
You don’t deserve his last name."
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content warnings: discussion of mental health, depiction of a panic attack, depiction of invasive medical procedure, depiction of violence (generally non-graphic), use of hate speech, depiction of a hate crime
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27 Dec 2025
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On the Brink of Forever by broccolicheddarchicken
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
30 Jan 2026
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There had been a tragedy. The Ottawa Centaurs' plane had crashed in northern Georgia, during the course of their flight from Carolina to Tampa. They didn't know much else yet. All NHL activities were suspended for the next seven days.
Wait, what?
At seventeen, Shane Hollander met the love of his life. At twenty-nine, gravity took him away.
Shane wishes he’d died, too.
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- Part 1 of your name, forever the name on my lips
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27 Dec 2025
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"You're supposed to smoke over there." Someone said from behind Ilya.
Ilya almost dropped his cigarette. His English was shitty, but he had studied that sentence enough times over the years to understand it immediately. He didn't even think about his words much anymore, but it was impossible to avoid them.
He turned instinctively, and was face to face with Shane fucking Hollander.
Out of almost seven billion people, of course Ilya's soulmate had to be his fated rival. It was almost poetic. Still, Ilya had enough sense to realize just how bad this was.
or, Shane says Ilya's soulmate words. Ilya vows to never speak a word to him to keep him from finding out. They fall in love anyway.
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- Part 1 of get carried away
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26 Dec 2025
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The Game Plan by FestiveFerret, pouringinsheets
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Dec 2022
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Shane Hollander is the number two overall NHL draft pick and a newly minted Montreal Voyageur. He’s also laser focused on his goals: being the best by beating the best. For him, this means a continued rivalry with number one draft pick—and new Ottawa Centaur—Ilya Rozanov. But when a problem with Rozanov’s immigration paperwork threatens his future in the NHL, what does that mean for Shane’s own career? He can’t risk finding out…so they get married. Just for immigration. A fast, practical, mutually beneficial solution.
No one will ever suspect, let alone find out, that the NHL’s greatest rivals are secretly married. And there’s certainly no risk of feelings getting involved. They have a game plan.
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26 Dec 2025
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After six years of marriage, Shane and Ilya enter the next chapter of their life together... parenthood.
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- Part 1 of Life After Hockey
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26 Dec 2025