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    At eleven years old Ilya Rozanov's class is given an assignment:

    They will be randomly paired with a student at another school in Canada via email. In order to get full credit on the assignment, they must send at least five emails back and forth and gather enough information to write their project.

    After seven years, Ilya is pretty sure he's done enough for 100%

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    Shane and Ilya sending emails throughout the years. What happens when they meet?

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    01 Jul 2026

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    “What did you actually think?”

    He can’t help it. He looks at Ilya. Ilya only stares at him. “I say that now, in hindsight. Back then, I wasn’t thinking. Not really. It would come to me in waves, the anxiety, the fear. Most of the time,” he says. “I was just…”

    “Waiting for me to speak?” Ilya offers.

    Shane shakes his head, “I was trying to make it to tomorrow with you alive.”

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    Ilya and Shane work to find themselves, and each other, again after Ilya's suicide attempt.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    “Oh shit.”

    Shane looked up, turned his head to where J.J. was sat across the aisle. The blue glow of his phone lit up the too-wide whites of his eyes staring down intently at whatever was on his screen. Shane’s stomach lurched again, anticipating a sudden stop his body hadn’t quite caught up to yet.

    “The Centaurs’ plane crashed in Tampa.”

    There was a moment where everything was still moving, where Shane and the world were still spinning at the same speed they both always had, and then it all came crashing down. Shane wasn’t sure whether it was him that had stopped, or the world around him, but either way, in a matter of seconds the distance between himself and the bus he had only a moment ago been sitting in became staggeringly, dizzyingly vast.

     

    The Centaur's emergency landing plays out a little bit worse, and Shane is left with the harsh reality of the cost of loving Ilya in secret.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    @rozanovisking
    WAIT WAIT WAIT did anyone else see that ilya fucking rozanov liked rose landry’s breaking up with shane hollander tweet???? i’m dying hello??????

    461k people liked this tweet.

    (ilya likes rose’s post about her breaking up with shane. the internet collectively lose their minds. ilya and rose have fun. shane does not.)

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    29 Jun 2026

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    He answered with no preface, no pretense, just the bare facts. “I'm at the hospital with Shane. He wasn't waking up for me.”

    The line was quiet for a bit, almost long enough for Hayden to start thinking she'd put the phone down. When she spoke, her tone was serious.

    “What do you mean, not waking up?”

    “I got to Drapeau's place and tried to wake him up to get him in the car, but he wouldn't wake up. It was like he couldn't. And then,” he trailed off, unsure what to even say about what he found to his wife.

    “And then what?”

    He took a deep breath, reluctant to say it out loud, but he had to tell her. “I think something bad happened to him, Jacks. Like, really bad.”

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    Shane is sexually assaulted at a house party in Montreal. He, Hayden, and Ilya make their attempts to recover in the aftermath.

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    28 Jun 2026