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They’re on that fucking hill for hours, and the rain doesn’t get heavier but it also doesn’t let up at all. It’s honestly pretty fucking miserable, just getting increasingly sodden, and there’s a fear that anyone trapped under debris could drown if they’re really fucking unlucky. They’re trying their best, but a disaster like this? Even under the best conditions, you can't save everyone. These are not the best conditions.
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Or, a S8a au where aftershocks to an earthquake take Eddie, and Buck loses it just a little.
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30 Jun 2026
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“Yes, he has food poisoning,” his mom said. “He was sent home after being sick, and he has a stomach ache.”
Eddie’s head spun. “Sent home? But the school didn’t…” He shook his head, realising exactly what had happened with the school. He’d deal with it later. “Why didn’t you call me?”
His mother spread her hands. “You were working, Eddie, we know how important days like today are for you,” she said.
It was incredible how she could sound perfectly reasonable and yet so very patronising at the same time.
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While in Texas Chris develops appendicitis, and Eddie gets him to the hospital eight hours later than he could have because his parents decided, once again, that they knew what was best.
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03 May 2026
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He realizes it right before everything goes to shit. He’s just standing there in the loft and Eddie’s handing him Christopher’s backpack and talking about “he’s not that fast” and “order pizza” and Buck sort of stares at him—partly in shock, partly in reverence—and he thinks "I love you." He shoves it down immediately, of course, as far down as it’ll go, but the fact of the matter is, it’s there somewhere, floating around inside of him. He can’t get rid of it now.
Not that it matters all that much, though, because there’s the whole quitting thing and the lawsuit thing and the argument in the grocery store and by the time he’s given his (re)start date he knows; he well and truly fucked up.
or: another classic post-lawsuit fic. Angst, hurt, some comfort, more angst, more comfort.- Language:
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14 Mar 2026
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Sam has a vision the night before he leaves for Stanford.
His plan to leave the hunting world behind has some complications.
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08 Mar 2026
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Dean’s minding his own business, sipping on a beer and leering at the bartender, when a guy that admittedly has about four inches and a good twenty pounds of muscle on him storms over and shoves him in the arm.
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07 Mar 2026
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Running to the frontlines from a childhood he never had. Taking a bat to the wall with his son in the next room. Having an affair with the spitting image of his dead wife.
Eddie knows he’s never been good at grieving, knows he’s never been good at losing what little he allows for himself in the first place. This is why he also knows his coping mechanisms can’t possibly get any worse.
Buck, as he so often does, makes him reevaluate his assumptions.
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Evan Buckley dies behind a wall of glass. It’s a shame that when he’s revived not three minutes later, no one is informed.- Language:
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22 Feb 2026
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darling, do you think that if I talk enough, I will make you wanna be mine by Elgney
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
12 Jul 2025
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“You know what they say,” Buck replied. “The way to a man’s heart is through his stomach. Isn’t that right, Eddie?”
Bobby looked up, then, glancing back and forth between the two of them—Buck, giving Eddie his best lovesick puppy dog eyes, Eddie ignoring him. “What’s going on here?” he asked.
“Oh, we’d need several psychologists to unpack that,” said Hen. “Maybe an anthropologist, too.”
Next to her, Ravi grimaced and explained, “I said something stupid earlier, and now Buck has been flirting with Eddie all day, to drive us insane.”
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Buck starts flirting with Eddie. As a joke, obviously.
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06 Dec 2025
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“Eddie, I’m in love with you,” he says, heart thrumming in his chest, in his throat, in his mouth. He feels hot and cold and dizzy by turns.
“What?” asks Eddie faintly, barely even a question.
“I’m in love with you,” Buck says again. “I didn’t know, I didn’t mean to, but I am. I am.”
“You– Right, okay,” says Eddie, so visibly buffering that it makes Buck’s heart clench a little in his chest. Of course he’s in love with Eddie. How could he possibly have let himself pretend otherwise. “Wasn’t expecting this, bud,” says Eddie, and he sounds so shocked that Buck can’t help a wry smile. Of course Eddie’s surprised. They must be the only two people in existence who didn’t already know. “I– Buck, man, you know that I care about you, but…”
“I know,” he says gently to Eddie, because he did know, but that doesn't make this moment hurt any less.
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Post season 8, Buck confesses his feelings, Eddie lets him down as gently as he can, and they both try to figure out how to be just friends.
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29 Nov 2025
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“Buck?” Eddie croaks.
“It’s probably good I took so long to realize I’m bisexual, huh?” he tries to joke, masking a thin smile. It falls flat with how the upper half of Buck’s face still won’t stop looking so miserable. “Or– or we’d both be t-teen dads.”
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Eddies helps take care of Buck after his last relationship leaves a tag-along.
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- Part 1 of it's only happy if you want
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16 Nov 2025
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“I can’t look at you,” Eddie whispered, eyes fixed on the altar. “If I do, I’ll fall apart.”
Buck didn’t move. He just brushed their pinkies together, a quiet promise: I’m here.
After Bobby’s death, Buck and Eddie’s friendship fractures under the weight of grief, guilt, and everything they never said out loud. When Buck’s heart literally breaks, Eddie is forced to face the truth about his own.
A story about faith, forgiveness, and finally opening the box you’ve kept locked your whole life.
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16 Nov 2025
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Buck wasn't exactly the poster boy for good mental health before Bobby died. After his argument with Eddie, he spirals further and in a way that no one is used to. Quietly.
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11 Aug 2025
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Buck doesn't want to make other people's problems and trauma about him. But he is involved on some level. And it would be nice if just once in a while people dug a little deeper and checked on how he's doing.
Only the more things change, the less that happens. Promises are broken, and it all makes Buck doubt himself and his place. Is he really anything more than a placeholder in people's lives?
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25 May 2025
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there it is again, sitting on my chest (makes it hard to catch my breath) by Elgney
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
24 Mar 2025
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“I just—I don’t want you to be alone,” said Eddie, softly, like an admission.
Join the fucking club, Buck thought. It was funny, but none of his laughs were coming out right tonight. “I am alone, Eddie.”
“Buck, I—”
“She wants my kidney.” There it went; Buck never could keep anything inside. Could never keep the feelings contained, could never stop them from spilling out over the people nearest him. “That’s what fucking happened, okay? My dad needs a kidney donor and they remembered why they bothered having me in the first place. Is that what you wanted to hear? That my parents finally found a use for me after all these years?”
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A request from his mom tears open old wounds for Buck. From 800 miles away, Eddie tries to stitch him back together.
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25 Mar 2025
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Really, this was bound to happen eventually. Even knowing that, though, Tony isn't at all prepared.
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- Part 6 of Best (Worst) Possible Time
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19 Jan 2025
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Buck looks at Eddie, for the first time in eight years. The changes in his face aren’t as drastic as they were for Chris – Eddie didn’t have puberty to get through. But his age shows, in the crows feet around his eyes and the slight frown lines. Before he left, Eddie was still in shape for working in the LAFD. Eddie looks – softer. Buck has no doubt he’s kept up with his fitness, but being CPAT-ready is a different deal.
And despite himself – Buck thinks Eddie looks good. It’s like a pang in his chest, when he finally lets himself acknowledge it. Eddie is older but just as handsome, even though he looks as awkward as Buck feels. His traitorous heart does a little flip, like there’s a chance of anything happening.
or: Buck hasn’t seen Christopher Diaz in eight years – not since his dad moved back to El Paso, breaking Buck’s heart in the process. He’s surprised Christopher wants anything to do with him when he moves back to Los Angeles for college, but Christopher is adamant on reconnecting. But with Christopher comes Eddie, and Buck has to contend with the fact that he never got over him.
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02 Jan 2025
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I keep these longings locked (in lowercase inside a vault) by Bow_of_Artemis
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
04 Jul 2024
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When Eddie has another panic attack, he goes back to therapy to make them stop. That's all. Instead, therapy unravels a tangled mess of identity, autonomy, masculinity, sexuality, and love.
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The deconstruction of Eddie Diaz
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29 Dec 2024
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Just before Eddie tells Buck he loves him, he’s pretty sure they’ve been building up to this for months. Just after Eddie tells Buck he loves him, he realises he’s deeply misunderstood this entire situation.
And Buck? Well, Buck didn’t even think they were dating.
(Aftermath, and then: the road less travelled, with the benefit of hindsight.)
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24 Nov 2024
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Tommy has always been able to see ghosts.
Usually, they stick around for a few days or weeks, maybe several months before they get what they need to move on. There was one ghost, however, who appeared when Tommy was young and seemed to be unable to get the closure he needed to let go and so he just… never left.
He got used to it, after a while, and Daniel became a consistent companion throughout his life.
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Or, the one where Tommy can see ghosts and is haunted by Daniel Buckley for reasons it takes him almost thirty years to understand.
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04 Nov 2024
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The kid with blood pouring down his shins is not so far from the dog lonely enough that he thinks breaking his housetraining is worth it for the ten minutes of berating that come with it, the ten minutes of undivided, if reluctant, attention.
Buck thinks, sometimes, that at least he wasn’t the kind of puppy that gets put in a sack and drowned at birth. He wasn’t always unwanted. And he isn’t anymore.
or, evan “i love you like a dog” buckley has only ever known how to love like, well, a dog, but maybe eddie diaz is the kinda guy to give a flea-bitten mongrel a forever home
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- Part 1 of i love you like a dog
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27 Aug 2024
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Re: Buck & Natalia’s Wedding E-Vite
Eddie [email protected]to buckleybuck
Thank you for your email. Here are my two cents:
Cent one: I will NOT be attending.
Cent two: I suggest you hire a better graphic designer than Chimney. This wedding invitation looks like it had been pulled straight out of the first free template on Google and then edited on PicsArt.With warmest wishes to the happy couple,
Eddie Diaz.
___OR Buck and Natalia get engaged, and Eddie flees the state about it. A petty email correspondence ensues.
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10 Aug 2024