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  1. Public Bookmark 93

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    What happens when the body releases years of tension?

    Ilya has spent his entire life hiding his feelings and emotions. And for a while it worked, but now he is ready to let that go. After years of denying himself, he finally has Shane, and for the first time he can almost imagine what it feels like to belong somewhere. Everything is starting to make sense.

    So why does he suddenly feel like he’s dying?

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    When Ilya finally allows himself to feel deeply, his body begins reacting to years of repression in ways he can no longer ignore.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    What if Ilya has a panic attack in the locker room after getting the news of his father's death after the Winter 2017 Montreal @ Boston game and no one can figure out what is going on? What if, while scrambling for answers, Cliff Marleau has the brilliant idea to call Jane?

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    What if Shane and Ilya's deeper emotional connection begins just before Ilya leaves for his father's funeral in Russia instead of on a phone call while they are separated by oceans?

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    21 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 27

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    In my opinion, there was a lot left unexplored following the Fan Mail outing. An 11-year private relationship was just publicly outed, putting everything into question for Shane and Ilya. This is an exploration into Shane's POV immediately following his leaving the arena where he was treated horribly by both his coach and teammates and was told he and Ilya had been benched at the command of the commissioner.

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    "For the first time all day, fear didn’t lead the emotion. It was still there, still humming underneath everything, but something else cut through it sharper.
    Outrage.
    How dare they.
    How dare they take eleven years of something real and reduce it to something they could flinch at. How dare they look at the man Shane had chosen, the man he intended to marry, and treat him like a mistake. Like something to be hidden. Like something dirty.
    His vision blurred before he even realized what was happening.
    He blinked hard, but it didn’t stop it. The tears came anyway, sudden and frustrating, like his body was betraying him by refusing to stay contained the way he needed it to.
    “Fuck,” he whispered, the word breaking halfway through.
    Then his phone rang again.
    Ilya."

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Ilya stood up again, resuming his endless pacing around the room, “You never do it on purpose.”
    “What’s that supposed to mean?”
    “You always say you are sorry. But you never stop doing it. I move to shitty team, I get upset at shitty team and you feel guilty, you say sorry but you don’t understand when I complain.” He was raising his voice again and his grasp on English was getting worse by the minute.
    “That’s not fair.”
    “You say you are sorry about my family but then you do not understand what I have to say when we talk about families! It’s always your mom is too pressing or too worried. Guess what Shane! I do not have a mom to press me!”

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    Shane accidentally breaks something important for Ilya. Instead of reacting like he usually would, Ilya, already tired from a part argument, starts shouting at him eveything he's ever been upset about. Shane can't stand it and finds himself safe wording out of the argument. Fluff ensues.

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    13 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 59

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    Two times there’s a witness to Ilya taking care of Shane and two times the reverse happens

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    12 Jun 2026