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    Ilya widens his eyes, moves his hands in an impatient “get on with it” motion. He has the urge to say it for him, end both their misery. Shane blinks rapidly a few times, takes another deep breath. “I want to stop,” he says simply.

    Ilya lets out one humorless laugh, “Stop what?”

    Shane ignores him. “At the All Star Game, I told you I liked you. And you said about Russia and your family. And I looked some things up. I get it. I get it better now. I know we can’t but I can’t stop wanting to be…more. Unless we stop.”

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    Shane just wants to be friends and Ilya is, like, fine with that or whatever

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    29 May 2026

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    Shane's texts to Lily leak. It looks bad... because Shane is biphobic?? Different texts leak, and Ilya is a kind, supportive ally?? Is it opposite day?

    Shane Hollander is getting dragged to the 7th circle of closeted gay hell by Twitter.
    Ilya Rozanov has strong feelings about shipping.
    Hayden Pike is confused why everyone suddenly thinks he’s whiny.

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    OR Ilya ragebaits his boyfriend and Hayden Pike via leaked texts and somehow ends up looking like the good guy online.

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    27 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander accidentally comes out to his hockey team after years of hiding his sexuality behind carefully crafted personas and unfinished coming out speeches. As the Metros slowly begin icing him out on and off the ice, Shane spirals between rage, grief, and self-discovery—while Ilya refuses to let him forget exactly who he is.

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    12 May 2026

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    He can’t tell Ilya though. He can’t tell Ilya that his team might not be right for Shane. That this perfect solution is making Shane a worse hockey player, a bad teammate.

    That maybe Shane Hollander of the Voyagers really was his full name. That Shane Hollander of the Centaurs might not exist.

    He can’t say that. He can’t ruin everything. He can’t dim the shine in Ilya’s eyes, the bounce in his step, the color in his cheeks he didn’t have the last few years.

    Ilya sacrificed hockey for their relationship for two years, played on a crappy team and watched Shane win. It’s Shane’s turn to sacrifice, to figure out how to make this work and let Ilya lead this time.

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    Transitions are hard for Shane. Joining his husband's team turns out not to be an exception to that rule.

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    10 May 2026

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    Roz: it’s weird with her
    Roz: idk if anyone else ever has this happen
    Roz: but I can’t get enough from her
    Roz: usually after sex with someone I am done
    Roz: but the more I have of Jane, the more I want
    Roz: weird, right?

    Hammer: sounds like you’re falling for her, Rozy

    Roz: no, no
    Roz: like, sometimes I want to see her even after sex
    Roz: or text her but not dick pics
    Roz: weird feeling, like horny but for talking or hanging out
    Roz: its confusing, hard to explain

    Cliff: you’re literally just describing liking a person

    Cliff Marleau's seen his captain through some crazy times and some wild crash outs. This is a little foray into some of the group chats and nights out with the boys. Especially when Cap is in his feels about his Montreal Girl.

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    02 May 2026