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it’s good to be hot in the summer by boksungah444 (softokkiz)
Fandoms: In Memoriam - Alice Winn
30 Mar 2026
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“It’s inhumane darling. It’s unfair. England has only ever let you down.” He paused, before continuing carefully. “I think you miss the England of our youth because that England could never do what it has done to us. What it still could do to us.”
Gaunt drew back in a sudden burning urge to see Ellwood’s face. Ellwood smiled, pressing a hand to Gaunt’s cheek.
“I’m not sure if you miss England, Henry, more than you miss what England felt like when it seemed made for us.”
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5 years into life in Brazil, Henry still misses England.
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pour my love out, spill it all on the ground by boksungah444 (softokkiz)
Fandoms: In Memoriam - Alice Winn
04 Oct 2025
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Gaunt desperately hoped that Ellwood wouldn’t be able to see his flush in the dim candlelight. He was determined not to touch him, as if doing so might bring something fluttering and sensitive into the light that he would then be forced to examine.
“I hope you feel better tomorrow, Elly.”
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Some schoolboy tenderness before everything.
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It was funny, Gaunt mused from his perch on the window seat, how his tolerance for other people had only lowered coming back from the War. The threshold was already unacceptably low when he was in school, especially if you were to ask his mother.
“No wonder girls never wish to dance with you if you are always looking so dour, Heinrich.” she would hiss at him after another night of being glued to the corners of the room, and finding him moping around the house the next day. “Versuchst du, überhaupt?" Gaunt would have been the first to admit that, no he wasn’t really trying, but he refused to be petulant, so bowed his head and apologised. The shame in the action was true enough, and it was always easier to submit to his mother than risk further provoking her ire.
Now, he was squashed against the windowpane with his knees up against his chest, feeling tired and foolish. The picture he imagined he created, all six-foot-two inches of him, dressed in his evening clothes and curled in on himself like a sulking child, made him wince a little. He felt he must be too old for this.
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Gaunt gets some time away from a party to think.
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your touch embroiders me (i'm wide open) by boksungah444 (softokkiz)
Fandoms: 여덟번째감각 | The Eighth Sense (TV 2023)
05 Jan 2025
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Jaewon gets Jihyun a birthday present, and Jihyun feels vulnerable about it.
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in the end, it was you by boksungah444 (softokkiz)
Fandoms: 여덟번째감각 | The Eighth Sense (TV 2023)
15 Feb 2024
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He was hit all at once by an overwhelming wave of affection and near-hysterical disbelief at how careful and understanding Jihyun had been during the worst of it, and continued to be now. Even after shattering into pieces, his boyfriend was always there to meticulously help build him back up again, and somehow go on loving him the same.
Jaewon wasn’t sure how to hold a love like that.
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A small character study on Jaewon, and the healing power of love.
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"In this little haven they found with each other on occasion, everything could become palpable, smooth. They had only been intimate like this for a handful of days and nights out of barely a few weeks, and at many times things still felt uneasy, but they had both begun to find a fluency in one another within it that Ellwood could only describe as profound."
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The very start of those three precious weeks of Divisional Rest <3.
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17 Feb 2026
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“Well. I’ll pick the story, then.” Ellwood drew Gaunt’s head down into the crook of his shoulder, rearranging them until they were comfortably tangled together, warm bare skin against warm bare skin. “And then you tell it, exactly as you remember it.”
A New Year’s story, then and now.
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22 Dec 2025
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Ilya’s hand wraps around his bare wrist and squeezes. Shane barely stops himself from collapsing to his knees.
The pressure lights up every receptor of his touch-starved nervous system, wrenching a small, pained noise from the back of his throat. Every muted sensation comes flooding back so intensely that it almost hurts. He needs Ilya to hold him down until there’s nothing inside him but quiet. He wants to sink into him and disappear.
It takes Shane an entire beat to remember where they are. Fighting against the fog in his mind, he manages to drag his gaze up to meet Ilya’s.
There’s a slow-dawning horror and understanding on Ilya’s face.
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Or: Shane is in subdrop after their encounter in Vegas. Ilya fixes it.
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17 Dec 2025
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Re-writes and expansions of Gauntwood’s first sexual encounter/s in In Memoriam, from Gaunt’s POV instead of Ellwood’s. This is smut, but also I think a great opportunity to explore their dynamic and the development of their connection. Also since this is all Gaunt’s POV, I really explore where I imagine he is at, and what he's experiencing within all this. Much of the dialogue is taken straight from the book; scenes used/built off of take place in ch. 7 & ch. 8 of the novel.
P.S. The title is taken from "They Flee From Me" by Sir Thomas Wyatt; as Ellwood (internally) quotes in the book.
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10 Nov 2025
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He will always remember the relief. He will always remember how much it frightened him.
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07 Aug 2025