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    Shane Hollander is a front desk receptionist at an upscale apartment building in Philadelphia. He dreams of escaping the mundane and becoming a hockey writer.

    Ilya Rozanov was recently traded from Boston to Philadelphia. He finds himself becoming enamored with his new team, and also the cute guy with freckles who just so happens to work in his building

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    Fuck off!” Hollander said but he was breathing in now harsh and desperate through his open mouth and his cheeks were pinking up and when Ilya splayed a hand on his chest, he could feel the rabbit-pace of his heart beating like crazy, the rise and fall of his big chest. He wanted to ask if he ever felt this desperate when he was with Jakob Hołub. If his fiancé even fucked him as good.

    Three years later, the affair has reached a breaking point.

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    555-123-181
    If someone got bleach in their eye what should they do
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    Go the the ER and get an eye wash
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    Okay but is that really necessary or can I just wash it myself
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    According the the Internet you might need eye drops for a couple days after so ER it is
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    Urgh fiiine
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    Ilya was looking for advice when he text the wrong number
    Shane couldnt leave a random stranger on read during an emergency

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    “It’s okay. I don’t need anything.” 

    “I am not going to eat in front of you while you have nothing, Hollander,” Ilya scoffs. He plucks a can of cold ginger ale from the top shelf as casually as he can manage and slides it over the island, interrupting Hollander’s fidgeting thumbs. “You must be hungry, yes? It’s been hours since you left hotel. I can make something. Easy.” 

    “Make… what?” he asks warily.  

    Ilya rolls his eyes and tosses a look over his shoulder. “Do not worry. I will find something that works for your special hockey diet,” he teases. He reaches back into the fridge. “Tuna melt okay?” 

    “No,” Hollander says primly. “And it’s a disease. Not a diet.” 

    He pulls his hands out of the cold and turns, blinks. “What?” 

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    “Is just the new routine, okay?” Ilya pleaded, his voice breaking. “The pills were working and now there is more stress so I just need to get used to it and will be fixed, okay?”

    “How bad is it?”

    “Shane, please.”

    “Ilya, you promised no more secrets, no more hiding. How bad?”

    He covered his face in his palms, his elbows resting on his knees, and took in a shuddered breath. “...bad.”

     

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    After Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander get married, Ilya discovers that his depression won't magically disappear just because he finally has love and a real family. He gets to live and work with Shane full time now that they are on the Centaurs, but it's becomingly increasingly difficult to hide his deteriorating mental health from his husband. He's haunted by dreams of his mother and the fear that his depression and the hockey world's eruption about their relationship is ruining Shane's life. He has to swallow his pride and begin taking SSRIs, navigate the side effects of medicating his depression, and learn to accept love and support from those he loves most. Will the shame eat him alive or can he finally learn that he's worthy of love even at his lowest?

     

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