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    It was a mistake. A selfish indulgence. A disaster in the making.

    Solas knew it from the beginning, but had trusted himself to not give into the insidious feeling that had begun to chisel at his ribs. Beating against them as it tried to stay his hand.

    He could not yield to this exquisite poison. Too much depended on him.

    Harden your heart with sorrow. Sharpen your will with pain.

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    Snippets about giving in (and the emotional mess that comes with it).

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    09 Feb 2025

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    He laughs. “I already own you, darling, whether you know it or not. I think deep down, you know I am the one who forever holds your heart. Spawn or not — you are mine. You will always return to me.”

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    A sister work to Think of Me, featuring specifically Ascended Astarion + darker themes overall. Just like that work, this will be an assorted collection of smutty one-shots. 🖤

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    08 Aug 2024

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    “By all means, do something less exceptional… and think of me while you’re doing it.”

    You've already slept with Astarion, but turn down his advances at the tiefling party to spend the night with someone else. However, thanks to your tadpoles, Astarion ensures that your mind doesn't wander far.

    It starts something neither of you can resist.

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    This shameless smut is a one-shot-turned-multi-chapter spicy Astarion/reader series featuring themes of tadpole sex, kink, some dubcon, and generally being mean(?) to Gale. Each chapter can be read as a standalone.

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    08 Aug 2024

  4. Public Bookmark 30

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    He should have had more self-control than that, he was 42, for god's sake, not a teenager. To fall head-first into a hormone-driven office affair without so much as a blink was not only embarrassing, it was downright dangerous. There was nothing romantic nor commendable about mixing professional and private lives, and he had always looked down on people who couldn't keep it together.

    Then why oh why had it only taken a few drinks and some heated words murmured against the shell of his ear for his resolve to crumble?

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    Prequel to Sorry for the Inconvenience .

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    07 May 2023

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    “Oh, gods forbid they respond positively to you doing a good thing,” Neve deadpans. She squeezes him a little again. “That’s sort of how it works, Astarion.”

    She can’t even see it. Believes the best of them all so earnestly, himself included, that she can’t see how it would all fall away without her at the center. It’s enough to make a person feel like they might actually deserve it.

    “And by it, you mean…?” he asks instead.

    Her huffed laugh of disbelief ruffles the hair at his neck. “Friendship, you idiot,” she answers. “And the general acquisition thereof.”

    Astarion cuts a sideways look at her as best he can with her still nestled so close. “And is that what we are? Friends?”

    He’d meant it to tease her, and yet finds that the silence before her answer twists his stomach. Because…he doesn’t actually know, either.

    “Yes, Astarion,” Neve says gently, after a moment. “I think we’re very good friends.”

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    Neve and Astarion, continued. She's not a victim. Not a target. Not just one night it's better to forget. But then...whatever in the world could she be?

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    29 May 2022