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“Magnus. Where exactly do you intend that I put my clothes?” Alec inquired, staring into Magnus’ walk-in closet. The day was finally here; Alec was moving in with Magnus.
Day 24: Closet
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- Part 1 of Flufftober
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31 Days of Fluff.
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I knew you'd haunt all of my what ifs by allmylovesatonce
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 Jun 2026
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Five years ago, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov quietly went their separate ways. They handled their heartbreak differently. Shane cut off his family and friends and focused only on hockey, not that it helped, his game has totally fallen apart. Ilya had the support of the Centaurs, even if they didn't know why they were supporting him.
But when Ilya announces his retirement at the end of the next season, it shakes Shane back to reality. He has one season left to play against the man he still loves; and then, would he ever see him again? As Shane starts to piece his life back together, the biggest missing piece is still Ilya.
Ilya had planned to just enjoy the last season he'd play of professional hockey and obviously try to win another cup. But when Shane reaches back out, he has much more to consider. He never expected to talk to Shane again, but he can't deny that it's everything he's wanted in the last five years.
Can they salvage what they had? Should they even try? How can Shane and Ilya be a part of each other's lives again?
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23 Jun 2026
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love brought weight to this heart of mine by sweetshane
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 Feb 2026
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Shane tries to remember, peering into the darkness surrounding the car with a furrowed brow. It hurts to move, and he feels something warm and slick sliding down his cheek.
More blood, his mind supplies rather unhelpfully.
He was driving after dark, but he shouldn’t have been. He wasn’t supposed to be. They had all night together, so why is he here?
I already chose you, Hollander.
Shane inhales sharply as his mind slowly fills in the gaps in his memory. They fought. Ilya told him to leave. Shane did.
And then he crashed.
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- Part 1 of Love Brought Weight
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17 Jun 2026
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“Do you – is there anything we can do?” Bood asks. “To help?”
Ilya shakes his head.
“Okay,” Bood says. “No problem. Do you want me or one of the others to stay here with you? Or would you rather be alone?”
“Alone,” Ilya says. His voice comes out rough. He clears his throat, but it doesn’t really help. “But maybe -” His face burns hot with humiliation at asking, but the thought of the house empty makes him shiver with cold even under the covers. “Maybe you stay downstairs?”
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Ilya is having a bad day. Shane is out of town. That doesn’t mean Ilya is alone.
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14 Jun 2026
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A Healthy Dose of Fear by nomsy
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
05 Apr 2026
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Ilya chuckles. “You don’t know why the team might be scared of you? You cannot think of any reason?”
“Scared? Of me?” Shane says.
“Yes. They adore you. But they are terrified.”
“But – but why? What did I do?”
Ilya pretends to think. “Hmm. What did you do? Maybe it was the first Stanley Cup. Or the second. Or the third. Or your MVP wins. Or every single fucking game you have ever played in your life. You are Shane fucking Hollander. Did you forget?”
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Or, five times Shane scares the Centaurs, and one time he (accidentally) terrifies them.
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09 Jun 2026
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“I don’t know what happened at your appointment that made you so upset, but I’m not going to stand here and let you keep punching the fucking tree. What kind of husband would leave their partner alone to hurt themselves?”
“One who knows how to listen.”
“Fuck you. What would you do if it was me?”
Ilya shakes his head. As if Shane would ever let himself lose control like this.
“What, would, you, do?”
“It doesn’t matter because it would never be you. You are not pathetic like I am.”
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Ilya snaps after a bad day and Shane is the only thing that can calm him down.
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- Part 3 of ⟡ sad Ilya ⟡
Bookmarked by selfdestructive_wallflower
06 Jun 2026