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    “Is just the new routine, okay?” Ilya pleaded, his voice breaking. “The pills were working and now there is more stress so I just need to get used to it and will be fixed, okay?”

    “How bad is it?”

    “Shane, please.”

    “Ilya, you promised no more secrets, no more hiding. How bad?”

    He covered his face in his palms, his elbows resting on his knees, and took in a shuddered breath. “...bad.”

     

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    After Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander get married, Ilya discovers that his depression won't magically disappear just because he finally has love and a real family. He gets to live and work with Shane full time now that they are on the Centaurs, but it's becomingly increasingly difficult to hide his deteriorating mental health from his husband. He's haunted by dreams of his mother and the fear that his depression and the hockey world's eruption about their relationship is ruining Shane's life. He has to swallow his pride and begin taking SSRIs, navigate the side effects of medicating his depression, and learn to accept love and support from those he loves most. Will the shame eat him alive or can he finally learn that he's worthy of love even at his lowest?

     

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    19 Jun 2026

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    A rough emergency landing of the Ottawa Centaurs' plane in Tampa, Florida makes national headlines.

    With Ilya's phone lost in the chaos, Shane has no way of finding out if Ilya is injured - or how injured. So he makes his way to Tampa.

    Or: The plane crash/incident in the long game but a rougher landing, more injuries (no significant/long-lasting harm), and Shane running to Tampa to see Ilya.

    Story and Chapter titles are lyrics of the song 'Sleepwalking' by All Time Low that gave me the inspiration for this fic!

    First half of the story will be Angsty hurt/comfort, second half will be the comfort part of hurt/comfort with a dose of crack.

    Updates every Thursday

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    19 Jun 2026

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    Ilya finds a new and creative way to chirp Hunter during the Admirals and Centaurs first game of the season.

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    19 Jun 2026

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    Shane snapped.

    Later, people would describe it differently.

    Some called it terrifying.

    Some heroic.

    Some beautiful.

    Shane himself remembered almost nothing except overwhelming, animal panic.

    His gloves hit the ice.

    Then his helmet.

    Then he collided with Volkov hard enough to rip him bodily off Ilya.

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    17 Jun 2026

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    Ilya has a hard day, and Shane pulls him into his orbit.

    **Inspired by Noah Kahan's "Orbiter"**

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