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    Cardiac tamponade: pressure on that heart that prevents it from filling and beating adequately.

    Shane thought he knew two things: his move to Ottawa would cause chaos, and that the Ottawa Centaurs were nice.

    As it turned out, he only knew one of those things.

    (Or: the Cens are still a team of professional hockey players. They're going to fuck up.)

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    02 Jul 2026

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    “Rocky,” I say sharply. The irritation feels unpleasant inside me, foreign like a toxin.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    “He doesn’t sleep.” The sentence ripped out of Buck before he could stop it. Tears threatened to spill as he brought his hand up, waving it around like it could solve all his problems. Admitting to his failure made him feel like a monster. “We’ve tried melatonin, tea, extra bedtime stories, exercising— Nothing works. Nothing works and Eddie, I am so fucking tired.”

    Pathetic. He was pathetic. Almost every new parent went through a phase where their kid barely slept. Everyone else could handle it, including Maddie and Chim, so why couldn’t he? How did they push through feeling so beyond sick, that left and right and up and down all looked the same?

    Earlier, he swore he saw the version of Daniel he saw in his coma dream lurking behind him. Did they see ghosts too?

    A soft thumb ran over his cheek. Buck couldn’t stop himself from leaning into it.

    Baby,” Eddie whispered, soft and oh-so-concerned. In no universe did Buck deserve him. “Why didn’t you tell me?”

    Or the one where Theo has kept Buck awake for four days straight, and Eddie won't let him fall any further.

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    15 Jun 2026

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    When Shane is unconscious in the hospital a kind nurse assures Yuna that Shane's husband has been called and that the nurses won't tell the press about said husband. The only problem is that she had no idea her son even had a husband.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is in love, closeted, catastrophically lonely, and apparently incapable of referring to Shane Hollander in present tense.

    The Centaurs come to a- given the circumstances- reasonable conclusion.

    Or:
    Five times the Centaurs thought Ilya Rozanov was mourning his dead wife, and the one time they discovered his wife was actually Shane Hollander.
    Shane, for the record, is alive and really confused.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    There is no reason to be nervous. It’s just a commercial.

    [inspired by the absolutely CRIMINAL Peloton ad]

    or

    What on earth would cause Shane Hollander to act Like That?

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    07 Jun 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 2276

    Mystery Work

    Part of Private Privy Priv
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    30 May 2026

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    “Unlock the door, Hollander.”

    Even though Shane couldn’t hear the exact words, he knew what Ilya said. He shook his head.

    “Unlock the door, or I will break the glass. Your choice.”

    Shane’s eyes widened again and he briefly hung his head as if regretting all of his past life decisions, and Ilya heard the resounding click of the unlock mechanism.

    He felt wild, his mind in violent turmoil as he threw open the door and his palm clutched the back of Shane’s head, his fingers finding purchase in the coarse hair. “Are you listening to me?” Shane ducked his head in acknowledgment. “I’m going to call off my driver. You will not move. I am going to sit there-“ he pointed at the empty passenger seat. “-in this boring car of yours and I am going to find out why the fuck you are alone and who the fuck made you cry.”

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    Inspired by Shane’s confession in The Long Game (*mini-spoiler*) about his whereabouts after leaving a certain Montreal nightclub in January 2017, Ilya leaves the club shortly after Shane only to find him pulled over on the side of the road, devastated.

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    21 May 2026

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    “You are my friend, Hayden, but he is the man I am going to spend the rest of my life with - he is the man that I love. I will choose him over you, every fucking time.”

    Over anything and everything, Shane would choose Ilya. Even over hockey, if it came to that. There’s no doubt in his mind, no question about it.

    Losing hockey would hurt, and Shane would grieve it, but it wouldn’t kill him. It would be an ache he could live with. Losing Ilya is not something that Shane could ever survive. They’re so tangled together - so intertwined - that to lose Ilya would be to lose himself.

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    16 May 2026

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    The chain is new, but this is undoubtedly his necklace. His mothers necklace. 

    Skipping his fingers greedily along the chain, Ilya hurries to put it on, fumbling with the strange clasp until he hears a satisfying click of it locking in place. The weight is more than he’s used to, sits heavy on his skin where the previous one had danced and moved with him.

    It could feel cloying, choking; instead, it offers reassurance.

    I’m here. Not lost. Still here.

    His chest heaves with another sob, and Ilya darts into the bathroom; he needs a mirror, he needs to see-

    The thicker chain, new and sparkling, glimmers even in the shitty hotel bathroom lighting.

    OR

    Ilya loses his necklace, and it almost costs him Shane too.

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    15 May 2026

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    NHL Updates @NHLUpdates
    Montreal captain Shane Hollander begs for information about a mysterious “Boston Lily” who he’s been secretly dating for six years, sparking a viral movement to reunite the pair. Full story below.

    metrooos @hockleberry
    guys I think we might have to lock the fuck in????? #FindBostonLily

    --OR--

    Amnesiac!Shane knows that he's in love, but not who he's in love with. The internet vows to assist.

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    13 May 2026

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    “You sure you want to do this, Cap?” Wyatt asks, as if he doesn't have two shimmering streaks of still-wet eye black smeared across his cheekbones. His teeth are bared, and Ilya is consumed—not for the first time—by how much he loves Wyatt Hayes and his willingness to commit. From being a brick wall in goal to aiding him with the rescue of his beloved husband, Wyatt has always been there for him. “Looks like it'll be dangerous.”

    “Shane has been kidnapped,” he says, as the minivan that Bood drives screeches into the parking lot and another car full of teammates spills out onto the cracked pavement. “Danger is nothing when it comes to saving him.”

    OR: Hayden Pike has stolen Shane away. Ilya, and a good amount of the Centaurs, take issue with this.

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    04 May 2026

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    Hayden just wanted to surprise Shane with a guy’s night in. Shane had been flat lately, and he and JJ thought it would be nice to distract him with friendship.
    How they ended up stuck in a fucking closet watching Shane get dicked down harder than anyone in the history of the world has ever been dicked down, Hayden would never quite understand.

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    01 May 2026

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    Shane stared up at the ceiling. Everything he’d been keeping inside for the last month was threatening to boil over into a ugly mess, and his eyes stung. “I thought that if I could just ignore it, it would go away. I thought that if I gave it more time, I’d keep myself from doing something drastic.”

    He rubbed at his face and kept his hands there, a shield to protect him from the weight of the decision he couldn’t keep running from. “It’s been weeks, and I don’t know what to do. I feel sick every time I think about going back, but…” He looked at Ilya and saw the blue eyes there creased with concern, sadness, and that simmering anger at everything that had ever hurt Shane. He sniffed. “I don’t think I’m strong enough to leave. Leaving feels like giving up. But so does staying.”

    “No.” Ilya shook his head and shuffled forward so his body was mirroring Shane’s, twin parentheses encompassing their shared years in between worn bodies. “No, my love.”

    Or: After the playoffs end for Montreal and Ottawa, Shane has a decision to make. His relationship with the Metros is on thin ice, and it might take a couple Centaurs to break it for good.

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    26 Apr 2026

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    Yuna’s entire body aches, and it would appear that her instincts were right— Rozanov is small, and he’s vulnerable, and he’s tired, and he needed somewhere safe to rest.

    And Yuna can’t help the weird sense that she’s honoured— her home was somewhere for Rozanov to go, even if she and David knew nothing about any of it, even if they still don’t, Shane knew it would be safe for Rozanov here. Shane told him to come home.

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    24 Apr 2026

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    Shane is in the hospital after being hit by Marlow. Ilya is not freaking out about his omega being hurt. And he's definitely not freaking out when Shane starts talking about nests and Ilya being involved with those nests. It's sweet and domestic in a way that Ilya knows he doesn't deserve, but he'll indulge in this, even if just for a few moments, before he's forced to walk away like always.

    Ch. 2: Ilya and Shane at his nest in the cottage!

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    21 Apr 2026

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    The Voyageurs ask Shane to join FanMail in order to foster a better connection with fans. Internet sleuths start to notice some interesting details in the background of Shane’s videos, and then the internet does...what the internet does.

    Or Shane and Ilya are granted an opportunity to come out on their own terms. Sort of. And in they do it in a very Ilya way. (Surprisingly, it is Shane’s idea)

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    19 Apr 2026

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    “I do not want to make you uncomfortable. With how I talk about us. To others. Like . . . reporters. Or how I treat you in front of others, like the guys on the team.”

    Something like understanding settled on Shane’s face now, and it immediately made Ilya’s heart stop racing. “You think I don’t like PDA.”

    “First time I held your hand in public I thought you were going to have a panic attack,” Ilya admitted.

    --

    Or: Shane's first season on the Ottawa Centaurs, as told through five times Ilya initiated PDA (and one time Shane did).

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    19 Apr 2026

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    cens and censibility @ottawagirly
    is there a reason why 8 million different hockey players have decided to post pics of themselves kissing each other with tongue or????????

    Or, Hayden Pike is freaking out after accidentally posting a video of Shane and Ilya making out on his fanmail. Luckily, he has a groupchat of hockey players determined to help them play it off. The internet is mostly just confused?

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    18 Apr 2026

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    lucarozanov

    if shane hollander gets mad at me reading about him getting blasted in the ass then he can check his bank account. i know ilya would be chill with it though

    Luca Haas tries very hard to not let anyone know about his dark (read: embarrassing) past. Unfortunately, the fans are ready to let people know for him.

    Or, Luca used to run a tumblr blog for Hollanov and the internet goes wild.

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    16 Apr 2026

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