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This thing that they have—whatever the hell it is—it’s good. It’s easy. It feels like the only thing keeping Ilya afloat sometimes.
He can’t let it get to a place where it’s more than just a good, convenient fuck and some fun teasing in between. Even if sometimes, in brief moments of tenderness, it already feels like it’s more than that. Or at least like it’s something that can be, if they just let it.
But they don’t. They can’t.
Although sometimes, Ilya does find himself giving in to the urge to look at Shane just a little bit longer, to let his touch be just a little bit gentler, more reverent, than what it would be for something as casual as they claim this to be—albeit sparingly.
Sometimes, just for a moment, he lets himself indulge. He lets some of that affection bleed out of him because he feels like he’ll implode if he doesn’t.
But he always catches himself before it can linger.
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where six months of ghosting is shane’s final straw and he cuts contact with ilya after vegas, tired of the wall that just keeps getting higher each time he tries to chip away at it
so ilya is forced to reckon with his feelings much sooner
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28 Jun 2026
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“Does it have anything to do with the person who gave you that ring?” he asks, nodding toward the band wrapped around the man's finger.
For a second, the man looks confused. Then his gaze drops to his hand, and a slow smirk spreads across his face. “Maybe. What would you say if I told you I was married?”
“I'd ask if you were happy.”
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Ilya meets hockey's Golden Boy, Shane Hollander, at a party and falls hard. There's only one problem: Shane's wearing a ring, just not the one Ilya thinks.
The purity ring fic no one asked for.
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- Part 8 of hollanov <3
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25 Jun 2026
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Totally Real Canadian Boyfriend™️ by hermacology
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
23 Jun 2026
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Ilya Rozanov, captain of the Boston Raiders, has a boyfriend. A definitely real, suspiciously (and boringly) handsome, conveniently offline, consistently unable to meet up in real life boyfriend.
Who lives in Canada.
Unfortunately for him, absolutely no one believes him.
The more serious Ilya gets about his Totally Real Canadian Boyfriend™️, the more concerned his teammates become that someone either needs to call MTV and get him on the next episode of Catfish or that he's slowly losing his mind.
Shane Hollander is, fortunately, very real, very sarcastic, and increasingly delighted that an entire NHL locker room seems to think that he's a government psyop to distract Ilya from his game.
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- Part 1 of they haven't connected shit
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24 Jun 2026
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Everyone at McGill knows three things: their hockey team is the best in the country, the Rozanov family could buy half of Montreal, and Shane Hollander is completely off limits.
So when new students start asking Shane out after winter break, Ilya Rozanov decides he needs to put a stop to it.
Or: the horrifying realization that Ilya Rozanov might be in love with his best friend.
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- Part 3 of college hollanov
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23 Jun 2026
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You're all I ever wanted in my life by mickeysmyheart
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27 Mar 2026
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When Shane Hollander moves to Boston to be with his longtime boyfriend, he doesn't expect to start developing feelings for his boyfriend's oldest friend and roommate, Ilya Rozanov.
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21 Jun 2026