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Red hair and blue eyes like the spawn of devil himself, Neil Josten appears one spring as the adopted brother of Kevin Day and son of David Wymack. His scarred and watchful self slips into the orbit of those in South Carolina with the quiet persistence of something inevitable; uninvited and unexpected, with a haunted, secret-riddled past trailing him like shadows.
Andrew Joseph Dobson is not impressed.
But then, one night, fate finds him lying with Neil on the roof of Wymack's house. His pulse thunders beneath his skin, and Neil raises his palm up to the endless sky above them to say,
"I wish I could just capture it all. Hold it. Keep it. There's so much I know because there's so much that's happened, and I wish I could replace it with the world, because none of those things even matter. It's not the world that's cruel; it's the people in it."
And something shifts, subtle and sudden, like gravity realigning. Andrew feels it in his chest before he’s ready to name it.
Or: Andrew Minyard and the mortifying ordeal of falling for your best friend's little brother.
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The ground beneath him is disappearing, an opening just for him, and then he's falling, he's falling fast, and damn it if it isn't from high, high above the ground, and damn him if there's nothing that scares him more than the weightlessness of falling and what comes after.
Or, before Baltimore, from Andrew's POV.
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Give me a minute or two
Maybe a year would be enough
I'm still deciding if it's worth it
-Funny, SearowsAbram, she used to call him, in the privacy of locked doors and curtained windows. Abram, who's spent the years not only being the son of Mary, but of Sarah, of Rachel, of Lily and many other women he can't bring bring himself to name.
He will never hear that name again; Abram died along with Mary, leaving no one to remember or know him.
Or: after the death of Mary, the making of Neil Josten, a no-name nothing from a town unknown.
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All of our hurt (is what makes us human) by panda_reads49
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
30 Dec 2024
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Neil never really cared about how his scars made him look, for how they littered every inch of his skin. The Foxes had never given him any reason to. They were just there—like cause and effect of his life spent fighting, showing his will to not just survive, but live.
So why couldn't his mind break free from the endless circle of memories it was trapped in, and give in to the clutches of sleep? Why did he find himself in a basement miles away, a car speeding down a road, just because of one bad dream?
It was okay though. Andrew was next to him, and only a few words from him were needed to clear his treacherous mind, no matter how crypt or clipped.
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The Foxes spend the winter vacations together, Neil attempts(and fails) to decorate cookies, Nicky edges the line between life and death, and the foxes' andreil photo collection on the locker room wall grows.
Christmas shenanigans:)
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You State a Feeling Like a Fact by Maineslighthouse
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
21 Jul 2026
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Neil swallowed tightly. ‘I think I tried to kill myself last night.’
Bee’s pause lasted a second longer than it should’ve, her surprise a heavy thing between them, but then she asked, ‘Can you elaborate on what you mean by “I think”?’
‘I mean that I don’t remember,’ he repeated, articulating each syllable. ‘I don’t remember what caused it. I don’t remember why I felt the urge. I only realised what I was doing after Andrew tackled me and pinned my wrists so I couldn’t grab the knife. I don’t remember, but I have to.’When Neil starts having vivid flashbacks of his time at the Nest during Christmas Break, Andrew urges him to talk to Bee about it. Turns out, his trauma isn't as easily repressed as he thought it would be—and the memories he'd managed to forget will find their way to the surface, whether he wants them to or not.
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i've got a feeling and it feels like falling by cyanica for asininemind
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
28 Jan 2023
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Andrew and Neil navigate the world of literally sleeping together in 5 (plus 1) steps.
1. Hold hands to keep the sleep paralysis demon away.
2. Drunkenly convenience your not-boyfriend you need CPR.
3. Wet the bed.
4. Don’t stab him in your sleep.
5. Vow to never marry each other.
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somewhere in his smile, he convinces me to stay by jupiterrains
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
05 Sep 2025
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Andrew and Neil grow up together.
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