oceansaurora
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Lexie Grey isn't just bubbly and awkward and highly intellectual, she's exhausted and she’s alone... until she isn’t.
A HDWSAPLA prequel.
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- Part 2 of How Best To Salvage Ourselves.
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Amelia Shepherd has been described as crazy, impulsive and sensitive her entire life. When these traits didn't vanish entirely after her brain surgery, the guilt of feeling different and her growing struggles to stay on top of her home life and career at the same time push her to look for some answers. Through the process of late ADHD diagnosis and unmasking, her chosen family are a lifeline that once again pull her from the darkness and towards a better future for herself.
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- Part 1 of How Best To Salvage Ourselves.
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"My Dearest Meredith,
In another lifetime you'd have heard it from me years ago. You would know it was true with every beat of your heart. Every inch of your skin would know it. I’d have given you everything. In another lifetime repression and cowardice wouldn’t have run in my blood, and I’d have told the world from the beginning. About who I am, the way I love. About the way you made me feel. In another lifetime maybe, just maybe, it could have been us.
But there isn't another lifetime. There is only this one.
And every day I feel more and more that it was wasted on me."An unsent letter discovered after a suicide attempt reveals more than its writer was ever willing to admit out loud. The darkest moments of Addison Montgomery’s life become transformational, and the pain that once felt impossible to live with drives her home to herself, and to a love that lay dormant for years. Told through a collection of flashbacks that lead us towards an alternative to season four of private practice, I need her like water explores compulsive heterosexuality, grief, learning to love out loud, and the challenging parental relationships that can lead to a loss of identity.
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The Existential Scheme Of It All. by oceansaurora
Fandoms: Private Practice, Grey's Anatomy
26 Mar 2026
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"The second time you run to a new city, you hit a wall. More specifically, your back hits the wall of a seemingly haunted elevator.
The sun that very morning had felt like promise, the wind in your hair a breath of freedom. A reminder that when you let go of the rigidity that held you both in one piece and also captive, you are allowed to go after what you want. And the men who you had hoped would beg you to stay? You don't need them. Because here in this sunshine land there's a woman who loved you once, who you’re hoping still does. And she performs miracles. She creates life, hope for the hopeless.
But not for you."
A somewhat canon adjacent exploration of Addison’s desire for motherhood throughout various stages of her life and within different relationships, told in a poetic sort of second person point of view.
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Burnout, late diagnosis, recovery & chosen family... an exploration of neurodivergent greys. <3
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Addison Montgomery has everything on paper. A prestigious career. A respected husband. A picture-perfect life. But behind closed doors, she's drowning in silence. Controlled, dismissed, and trapped in a marriage that feels more like a life sentence than a partnership, Addison is slowly unravelling under the weight of emotional abuse and societal expectations.
No one asks if she’s happy. Not her husband, who touches her only to assert control. Not her in-laws, who view her as an accessory to Derek’s image. Not even her parents, who remind her that divorce is a disgrace. But when a quiet, perceptive surgeon named Meredith Grey starts to really see her, Addison begins to question everything she was taught to endure.
P.S. In this AU, Meredith Grey and her peers, Callie, Alex, and others, are already attending surgeons.
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Emotional abuse, marital rape, physical intimidation, gaslighting, trauma recovery, medical misogyny, internalized shame, and themes of survival and healing.Series
- Part 1 of I Was Made for You
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29 Aug 2025
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one of the most painful and poignant addison fics ever. sobbed so hard i actually forgot to breathe when i first read it. beautifully written & introduces hope after trauma so stunningly.
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Vicissitude (noun)
1. The quality or state of being changeable : mutability
2. A favorable or unfavorable event or situation that occurs by chance : a fluctuation of state or conditionMeredith meets Derek's wife and her world crumbles beneath her. It shatters when she wakes up in a hotel room the next morning with red hair.
Bookmarked by oceansaurora
05 Apr 2026
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i think this is the most beautiful thing i've ever read in my entire life.
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i built a legacy that you can't undo by chloe_orsam_orsophia_ormarcus
Fandoms: Grey's Anatomy
13 May 2026
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Meredith’s studying like her life depends on it (because it kind of does), everyone at Seattle Grace thinks she’s just riding Ellis Grey’s coattails. She just wants to prove herself.
Addison comes back at literally the worst time. She’s mean, judgmental, perfect—and she won’t stop watching Meredith fall apart.
But then she does something about it.
Bookmarked by oceansaurora
26 Jul 2025
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on softness, and self care, and learning to slow down and be held. this story is medicine for over-active minds and tired souls. so very magical.
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Addison finds out that Meredith uses age regression as a coping skill and takes her home to her and Arizona's house to care for her.
I promise the story is better than the summary, I just suck at summaries most of the time!
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Bookmarked by oceansaurora
28 May 2025
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def one of my fav fics of all time. the absolute range of different connections and dynamics between addison and meredith author can write never ceases to amaze me. this one is very dear to my heart for so many reasons but the chosen family element especially is just perfect.
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What if the reason Thatcher left was because Ellis confessed that he wasn't Meredith's father? After Ellis' suicide attempt is successful, her will reveals that she is the result of a one night stand between Ellis and The Captain who immediately comes to meet the daughter he never knew about.
Bookmarked by oceansaurora
28 May 2025
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absolutely gorg au with addie as the worlds most protective big sister. such a comfort read, one that i've read over and over. <3