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    Ilya Rozanov is disappearing one day at a time and no one is close enough to notice.

    He goes to practice. He scores. He says he's fine.

    He writes it all down in a notebook his therapist told him to buy, in a house that feels too big and too quiet. Someone will find it eventually.

    He just doesn't expect it to be Shane.

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    OR: A Week in Ilya Rozanov’s Journal as he battles with depression. And everything that comes after almost losing your life and having to learn how to live it.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    “Hello,” Ilya repeats, still kind of stuck on those freckles.

    “Hi?” the man says.

    “Hi,” Ilya says—again.

    Oh god, he's said hello three times now. He should literally say anything else. His name, probably. His phone number, preferably.

    “Hi,” Ilya says again, because he can’t help it. “I am—”

    “Are you Nick?” the man asks, and it comes out as a breathless sound.

    OR: Shane gets stood up on a blind date, and Ilya comes to the rescue, and proceeds to make a series of questionable decisions.

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    12 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 26

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    Daniel felt a rush of adrenaline surge through him- and something more.... something he had no idea how to begin to describe. A golden thread, hanging between them. A beating heart- not two, just one.
    Lover, murderer, maker.
    Louis was right. Humans could never dream of understanding this.

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    11 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 19

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    It was a strange thing, forgetting that you love someone, in the same way you might forget your watch, or a doctor's appointment. His head hadn’t quite caught up, but his body remembered for him, aching like it had known for all forty-something years since. He swallowed, but his mouth was dry.

    He looked at Armand, his shameful wide eyes staring at Daniel, waiting for him to speak.

    “You let me get old,” he finally said, voice scratchy as it left his throat. “You let me get sick.”
     
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    Daniel should be afraid when Louis leaves him alone with Armand, but something in his gut convinces him to stay.

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    11 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 28

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    He tears himself away before he takes too much, bites his tongue and licks the wounds closed. Daniel is weak as a kitten, limp in the sheets, blinking lazily at the ceiling with unseeing eyes, breathing shallowly.

    And he still loves Armand.

    He still loves Armand.

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    11 Jun 2026