nonbinaryowlitect



Recent bookmarks

  1. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Ilya Rozanov has been saying I love you into the void his whole life.

    To his mother’s cold hands at twelve, making promises she can’t hear. To his teammates through fist bumps in tunnel rituals that cost nothing because they ask for nothing. To a sleeping man, in Russian, because his native language is the only container safe enough for what he actually feels. To a country he is slowly losing the ability to love back.

    He keeps saying it. No one says it back.

    Until they do.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    35,285
    Chapters:
    8/8
    Comments:
    371
    Kudos:
    2,391
    Bookmarks:
    730
    Hits:
    40,272

    25 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    It does mean missing out on things like barbeques and team dinners sometimes, but it’s not as if he would have been able to participate anyway. At this point in his life, risking someone not taking his allergies seriously would mean potentially missing games, which makes it unacceptable. Jackie always makes sure he has a dish or two that’s safe when he’s over at their house, but if he was going to be the one guy sitting and drinking ginger ale instead of taking part in sharing nachos or Korean barbeque or burgers or any other delicious thing he goes in knowing he can’t have anyway, there’s no point in making a fuss about it. He eats at home, has a drink with everyone else, and he calls it a day. Easy. Safe. Foolproof.

    But also the reason it doesn’t occur to him that he hasn’t actually told Ilya about any of his allergies until it becomes immediately relevant five days into being at his cottage together.

    (how ilya learns about shane's food allergies) (and how shane learns what it's like to have someone who always saves him a seat at the table) (and who also makes sure there's food he can eat on the table to start with)

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    14,957
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    501
    Kudos:
    6,743
    Bookmarks:
    1,633
    Hits:
    30,601

    24 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 91

    Tags
    Summary

    𝘚𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥: ‘𝘭𝘢𝘻𝘺’. 𝘐𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥 𝘐𝘭𝘺𝘢 𝘰𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘯 𝘶𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧-𝘥𝘦𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘭𝘺 𝘵𝘰𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘥𝘴 𝘩𝘪𝘮𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧, 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘰𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘸𝘦𝘢𝘱𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘻𝘦 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘮. 𝘏𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘶𝘯𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘐𝘭𝘺𝘢 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘭𝘢𝘻𝘺, 𝘦𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘪𝘧 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘯’𝘵 𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘭𝘺 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘧𝘢𝘶𝘭𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘵𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦 ‘𝘯𝘰𝘯-𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘥’ 𝘵𝘢𝘴𝘬𝘴.

    𝘞𝘢𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘚𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘥𝘰 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘱?

    --------

    When Shane realizes that Ilya might have ADHD, he comes up with a plan to help Ilya feel motivated to do certain non-preferred tasks, and deal with his executive dysfunction. What ensues is very silly: but ultimately, it's a grand declaration of love.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    10,695
    Chapters:
    6/6
    Comments:
    40
    Kudos:
    439
    Bookmarks:
    91
    Hits:
    5,016

    22 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark *

    Words:
    82,013
    Works:
    5
    Bookmarks:
    1,759

    20 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    For one, singular, blissful moment, nothing is wrong when Ilya wakes up.

    And then the bubble pops.

    With something less like a pinprick and more like a gunshot.

    --

    After Ilya is outed he has to deal with being the only openly queer player in the league, being Russian, and being in love with Hollander even after he ran away all at once. It sucks. He does it anyway.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    28,998
    Chapters:
    5/5
    Collections:
    11
    Comments:
    866
    Kudos:
    9,525
    Bookmarks:
    2,351
    Hits:
    108,308

    18 Jun 2026