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    Cardiac tamponade: pressure on that heart that prevents it from filling and beating adequately.

    Shane thought he knew two things: his move to Ottawa would cause chaos, and that the Ottawa Centaurs were nice.

    As it turned out, he only knew one of those things.

    (Or: the Cens are still a team of professional hockey players. They're going to fuck up.)

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    25 May 2026

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    One day to camp:

    “It’s okay Nicky. Don’t cry.” he whispered in his ear. It had the opposite effect of the intention of the words. But the dam crumbled and broke like it was never ever there when he continued, “When we become big, we’ll build a home just for us and live together.”

    Nicky Hemmick Week 2026

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    19 May 2026

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    "Ilya had loved him through his worst moments. Ilya had helped him find a therapist when he’d collapsed on the floor of their hotel bathroom after losing a particularly brutal game, scratching at his chest. Ilya had held him, even when Shane yelled at him because there was panic crawling under his skin and he felt as though it might claw its way out. Ilya had told him it was okay; that it didn’t make him a bad player to resent the spotlight sometimes, that it didn’t make him a bad teammate to hate the team when they were too loud and too drunk and too physical, that it didn’t make him a bad person to need space to breathe. Ilya saved him.

    And look what you give him in return. You’re a shitty husband, Shane Hollander.

    You don’t deserve his last name."

     

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    content warnings: discussion of mental health, depiction of a panic attack, depiction of invasive medical procedure, depiction of violence (generally non-graphic), use of hate speech, depiction of a hate crime

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    27 Dec 2025

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    “Um, okay,” Nicky says. Stops. Thinks. Looks at Aaron with too much urgency, like he has to entertain him fast or he’ll disappear into thin air. “Uh—Andrew! Yes. Andrew and I are having a fight right now.”

    Andrew shakes his head at Aaron. “Completely one-sided.”

    “He thinks his gaydar is better than mine. Can you believe that?”

    “Never said that.” But it’s probably true.

    or: Nicky and the twins bond about gay shit

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    20 Jul 2025

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    A new guy starts working at the radio station.

    He's fragile.

    Better keep Andrew away from him.

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    05 Oct 2024