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    “You don’t talk about playing in major juniors,” Ilya said as he took a sip of his smoothie.

    Shane froze. “It was average, nothing to really talk about.” That wasn’t really true. Shane had hated major juniors. He had closed the door on those memories for a reason, more than one reason actually. There was no need to rehash the worst four years of his hockey career. That was over, and Shane was fucking fine.

    Wasn’t he?

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    Hockey Canada did a shitty job of protecting a children in major juniors, but especially children of color, and Shane has trauma from that. Ilya might commit crimes over it.

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    07 Apr 2026

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    Given Ilya and Shane's history, they should be able to handle a few weeks apart. So when Ilya was out with an injury and Shane needed to head back on the road, they would cope. Shane would be occupied with adjusting to his new team and Ilya would be occupied with twitter and the trials and tribulations of British Bakers.

    And they would be just so normal about it. Obviously.

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    27 Mar 2026

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    chap 2

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    Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.

    Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.

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    16 Mar 2026

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    chap 13

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    The summer before his second season with the Centaurs, Shane Hollander is supposed to have his body and his life under control. He’s married, training hard, doing everything right.

    So the nausea, the bone-deep exhaustion, the aching chest and low back, the way his body feels wrong in all the old ways he thought he’d outrun?

    He blames stress. He blames the season. He blames anything but himself.

    Shane knows his body. He has spent years fighting for it.

    But one rushed doctor’s visit turns into an ultrasound, and suddenly he’s thirty-plus weeks pregnant with a baby he didn’t plan, didn’t want, and doesn’t know how to make peace with.

    Now he can’t outrun anything anymore.
    Not the dysphoria. Not the fear of the league finding out.
    Not the family he’s already carrying.

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    hi i need more trans!shane hollander. and as a trans man who wants to get pregnant someday obviously i had to make shane pregnant. without him knowing though. sorry bb

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    12 Mar 2026

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    Ilya nodded, pink lips slightly parted as he stared expectantly at the screen. “Yes. Yes, please, sweetheart, I’ve been so mean. Help me, please.”

    Help him, like whatever correction Shane doled out was something he needed. Like it was a kindness, something to be grateful for. Fuck, Shane was so hard. He liked this. Ilya needed help. Ilya was helpless.

    Shane was going to help him.

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    02 Mar 2026

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    ascended reading this