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  2. Public Bookmark 19

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    “You need your papa. Is no use pretending you don’t when we both know it. It has been weeks.

    Shane doesn’t unhelpfully point out that they’ve gone a lot longer than weeks before. It’s different now, since Ilya took all the reins. They’ve both gotten used to doing it more often.

    “Not right now. Not—“ Shane’s voice breaks off, “You’re hurt.

    He isn’t really, at least not as bad as he could be. He’ll have some nasty bruises for a while, but that’s par for the course with their jobs. Shane knows this, logically, but it’s like his brain can’t get the message to the rest of his body, still tight with tension. Stuck in the same place he’d been when he’d seen Ilya unmoving out on the ice.

    (or: ilya knows best, shane just needs a reminder of that sometimes.)

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  3. Public Bookmark 26

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    “You wrote them down?”

    Ilya sends him a dumbfounded look, like Shane’s the odd one for being surprised,

    “Of course I did. Eventually, we will have real in-person list for you, but since we’re in trial period, the rules will be in Papa’s phone for now.”

    “I don’t think we need that.”

    Ilya grins as if Shane’s said something particularly hilarious,

    “Oh well,” He shrugs, “Not up to you, and I think we do need it.”

    (or: shane learns how a hard morning can turn into the best day.)

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    21 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 34

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    "I just don’t want it up to me anymore.”

    Ilya is terrible at hiding his emotions from Shane. He’s practically vibrating out of his skin at the idea of getting to spoil him like that. Even so, he levels him with a serious look.

    “That is a big change, Shane. We would need to be very careful. Have rules. Communicate.”

    The fact that Ilya’s even entertaining the idea means Shane has already won. He tries not to let his giddiness show on his face as he nods solemnly.

    “Of course. I know it’s a lot to ask of you, but it doesn’t have to be forever, okay? Not if you don’t end up liking it.” He squeezes Ilya’s hand again with a wary smile, “But I think you will. I think we both will.”

    (or: shane asks for what he wants. it's a win-win for everyone.)

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  5. Public Bookmark 92

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    “I feel fine.”

    Fine, fine, fine, fine. Shane can’t seem to stop using that word today.

    Ilya hums,

    “Good. I am glad to hear this. I never want you to feel bad.”

    They’re both talking around the same thing without actually talking about it. Shane’s stomach is in knots. He wants to lay himself at Ilya’s feet and beg:

    Just make me do it. Tell me I have no choice. You know I want to. You know me.

    (or: shane knows what he wants. it's the asking and letting himself have it that's the hard part.)

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