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    William was popular. Est was invisible. That should’ve been the end of it. But curiosity turned to affection, and affection turned to fear. Now William flinches at his own reflection, caught between what he wants and what he’s been told he’s allowed to want. And Est? Est just keeps pretending nothing ever happened. Because how do you miss something you never even had?

    Popular x Loser.
    Except it’s not your typical love story. It’s the kind that hurts before it even begins.

    Update 2/2026: Revised and edited.

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    23 Jul 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 16

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    William’s sin is killing him.

    Not metaphorically. Literally.

    The man who pulled William from the bridge ten years ago is now unintentionally suffocating him. The Hanahaki is the proof that William’s heart didn't follow the Church. With the Full Bloom approaching, William must choose between a clean life without a memory of Est, or a beautiful death full of him.

    “If God is love, Father, then why is the most beautiful thing I’ve ever felt the very thing that is drowning me?”

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    23 Jul 2026

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    William's smirk faltered, his cheeks flushing at the casual dismissal in Est's tone. He yanked a shirt over his head, muttering, "I'm not a kid."

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    27 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 15

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    "I'm cold," Est whispered, his voice cracking.

    "Then I'll hug you tightly until you're warm again."

    Est looked at William a moment longer, searching his face. "You left me..." A fresh wave of tears washed down his cheeks, hot against the freezing rain.

    He leaned closer, gently resting his forehead against Est's, letting their shared warmth breathe life back into the dark.

    "I know, and I hate myself for it," William pleaded, his hands rubbing soothing circles into Est’s damp shoulders.

    "Please look at me, baby. I am right here. I’m not going anywhere."

    "Promise?" Est asked, his voice fragile.

    "Promise," William said, punctuating the vow with a soft, lingering kiss against his lips.

    "Pinky promise?" Est pulled his hand out, showing his small pinky finger.

    William let out a breathless laugh, the sound filled with pure adoration.

    "Pinky promise," he agreed, interlocking their fingers.

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    19 Jun 2026

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    Buck needs to know what’s in that box.

    “Oh no. I know that face,” Eddie sighs. “You’re about to become weird about this, aren’t you?”

    “Aren’t you curious about what’s in the box Eddie??”

    “Not curious enough to get stabbed.”

    Buck ponders the downsides of getting stabbed versus getting answers.

    “Buck.”

    “No, I know! I know!” he concedes. “I, Even Buck Buckley, promise not to get myself stabbed in the noble pursuit of knowledge.”

     

    meanwhile...

     

    Wife City 💅

    Eddie: How do I get Buck to look at me disrespectfully?

    Maddie: no

     

    Or: the one where Buck is living in a mystery romcom while Eddie is stuck in horny jail hell.

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    17 Jun 2026