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Chan tilts Felix’s chin, eyes bouncing from every constellation of his favorite freckles. Felix can feel him tense up when Chan’s gaze stays on his crimson cheeks and neck, clear evidence of the damage Kwan dealt.
Felix slightly winces as Chan delicately thumbs away remnants of sand from his face, staying deadly silent throughout the whole ordeal.
Then, “I’ll make him regret this.”
Shivers.
It runs across Felix’s skin like electricity, powered by the barely restrained anger in Chan’s voice.
a friendly spar leads to a hurt felix before the quarterly rank review with the other heroes-in-training. and chan is really not happy about that.
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In the beginning, Han Jisung thought he could handle seeing his friend vie for Lee Minho’s attention.
But his stubborn heart, growing in envy and longing, thinks otherwise.
Despite everything, at least with his friend’s plan—which he finds outrageous as Hyunjin finishes his explanation—it’s a guarantee that Minho will be with the best boyfriend he could ever have.
Because how could shy, introverted Jisung compete with a shining star like Hwang Hyunjin?
jisung helps hyunjin woo minho with words, even if those words for minho are true on jisung's end, too.
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jeongin remembers every single regret he did during that one moment: the loud thump his fingers caused that ricocheted off hyunjin’s forehead, his boisterous reaction after, and the smile that for some godforsaken reason stayed on his face even when he saw hyunjin trying to hold in expletives, tears, or both.
the worst thing he did? not bothering to ask if his favorite hyung was okay once everything finished.
jeongin feels terrible for what he did and didn’t do to hyunjin during the skz code shoot day. he knows the guilt is well-deserved, which causes the other things that make him hyunjin's imperfect boyfriend feel quite deserving, too.
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he can’t stop or else his future self will suffer the consequences.
if he suffers, then his beloved members will, too.
and when that happens, everything will collapse right under them because he fumbled.
it will be all his fault and fuck why can’t he move—
a dainty four-beat knock echoes in the room, barely snapping him out of it. changbin slowly opens his eyes, having no clue on when he closed them in the first place, before turning his head towards the door.
a head of fluffy, dark caramel hair peaks through the frame, then slightly doe eyes and a curious pout follows through. “changbin hyung?”
“seungmin, hi.”
changbin is tired, lost. but seungmin is there to love and lull him to safety.
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chan barely has any time for himself. and when he does, it feels like it's only for him to take quick breath before diving right back to his busy schedule. unless if you're lee felix.
(which jisung and changbin oh so graciously points out after they found chan sighing, staring, and pining from afar)
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Felix has spent years falling asleep in Chan's arms and pretending it doesn't mean everything. It was never a very convincing lie.
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23 Jun 2026
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Jisung’s fingers start to sweat, the screen becoming clammy under his touch. He swallows dryly, reminding himself that Leecat has no way of knowing that he jerked off to his videos and accidentally filmed it. Hell, that’s probably what all of his subscribers do, maybe minus the filming part. It’s a porn site for crying out loud, Jisung berates himself.
Or: From his 9-5, Jisung hopelessly pines after his coworker at his corporate job. Later, at his 5-9, Jisung has a second shift as an adult content creator to help him pay his bills.
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16 Jun 2026
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They probably should have met beforehand—somewhere other than the main check-in zone for KoreanAir at Incheon International Airport—but Felix was never really the best at thinking ahead.
Not when it involves gorgeous men with insane muscles and deep dimples, at least.
He and Chan had agreed to meet three hours before their flight was set to board. Now, he’s standing inside with his passport and phone in one hand, and his duffel resting on his large rolling suitcase, waiting for Chan so that they can check-in together.
“Felix?” a voice behind him calls out. He turns, surprised, and he finds Chan looking at him hopefully. “Ah, there you are. I wasn't sure I had the right person.”
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Felix finds Chan on Grindr and asks him to accompany him to his cousin's wedding in Sydney. What could possibly go wrong?- Language:
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14 Jun 2026
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“Make it so good that it’s… worth it. Worth the risk.” Jisung tugged him closer, voice steady even as his heart raced. “Make it so good that nobody else ever gets to touch me–because no one could compare to how good my best friend fucked me.”
Minho’s ears reddened, in disbelief of the words he heard.
“Jisung… what? You can’t just say these things…”
“Why? Can’t do it?” Jisung asked, challenging.
“No. I can do it,” Minho insisted, then shook his head. “You’re crazy, you know? What’s gotten into you tonight?”
Jisung’s lips twitched with an urge to smile. “You, hopefully…”
“Oh, you little–” Minho laughed, scrunching his nose and leaning in to kiss him again. “Such a little freak.”
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Jisung had enough breakups, so he went to the one he should have chosen from the start. Not for comfort, but something more.
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10 Jun 2026