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    Ilya Rozanov is in love, closeted, catastrophically lonely, and apparently incapable of referring to Shane Hollander in present tense.

    The Centaurs come to a- given the circumstances- reasonable conclusion.

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    Five times the Centaurs thought Ilya Rozanov was mourning his dead wife, and the one time they discovered his wife was actually Shane Hollander.
    Shane, for the record, is alive and really confused.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    “You have to relax,” Ilya croons, his hand running up and down Shane’s side.

    “I know, I’m trying,” Shane says through gritted teeth.

    “Mm, I think the point is to not try. You do not need to try so hard here.”

    Those words unexpectedly bring tears to Shane’s eyes. He’s never been told he doesn’t have to try before. He lets out a breath he didn’t know he was holding and at the same time, Ilya pushes his finger in, down to the knuckle. The feeling would have knocked the air out of Shane anyway.

    “Good?”

    “Good,” Shane breathes.

    September, Freshman Year. On Bid Day, Ilya takes Shane's virginity.

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    02 Jun 2026

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    The ash from the end of his cigarette missed the ashtray and landed on his arm. It stung, enough to drag his attention back to the present. He brushed the gray flecks from his arm, but paused, marvelling at the sting it left behind. It felt like control. He stared at the cigarette, slowly burning out in his hand.

    Taking a deep breath, steeling himself for the impending pain, he quickly jabbed the hot cherry into the meat of his arm.

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    Or, what if Ilya had another reason for loving cigarettes? It gets worse before it gets better (as with all mental health).

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    01 Jun 2026

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    “Man, are we the gayest team in the NHL or what?” Tanner Dillon joked.

    “Ilya is bisexual,” Wyatt Hayes reminded him. Ilya raised his beer at Wyatt in thanks.

    “The queerest team in the NHL,” Dillon corrected with barely a beat.

    “We must be,” Shane said slowly, expression scrunched up as he seemed to seriously ponder the question. “There might be some teams with a closeted player, or maybe two, but five? Statistically speaking, that’s highly improbable.”

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    Luca Haas comes out to the team. Thank goodness queer sherpas Ilya, Shane, and Troy are there to guide him. And the Centaurs are supportive, obviously. Maybe too supportive.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    "Ilya," Shane gasps, because he's not dizzy from how hard he is by virtue of long experience of the effects that one Ilya Rozanov has on him, but it's close. "Ilya, wait, I haven't prepped—no, no-" His voice wavers.

    Ilya smiles at him, mean like he's about to break him on the boards. "I didn't ask."

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    28 May 2026